2009, Getting AttacheD??

MOVED

2009-10-30T00:23:00.001+08:00

after thinking for a while... finally i have moved...

this is the new blog add...

http://vanlovelymemories.wordpress.com/

2009-10-20T22:42:00.004+08:00

i am lost...
wonder if i can find myself back...
my laughter back...
my craziness back...
my smile back...

everyday, i am just feeling very tired...
i dun feel like going home...
but i wan to go home...
i dun wan to talk...
i dun wan to face anyone...
i dun wan to hear people speak...

i simply wan to be ALONE!!!

i have lost myself in a world that i dunno of...
i am tired...
i am scared...
there are only tears falling down...

i dun care if anyone is not happy about my blog...
this is my blog...
if you are not happy...
dun come in and read it...
whatever i write...
it is my problem...

I am lost

2009-10-13T22:55:00.002+08:00

Honestly, I dunno what has got into me recently...
I became very hot-tempered...
recently, so many things happpening at home... i dunno how long i can take it..
I am controlling...
I have thoughts of speaking it out...
but i dunno how?
Since last week, after the big arguement with my dad,
I hasnt been talking at home...

the HURT was definitely there...
the STRESS from school work is there...

today, i also dunno what got into me...
supposed to teach jac accounts...
ended up, i made her cry...
being me... i went silence the whole day to prevent anymore things to happen...

what is happening???
i dun feel like going out...
everyday, i just want to go home...
unless there is a need... if not i will stay at home...
HOME ALONE.....

2009-10-12T16:12:00.002+08:00

wa... just realised that I have not been blogging for 2 weeks le.. haha.. ops.. but then what can a school student's life be? other than lectures, doing tutorials, preparing for tests that are coming up, completing assignments?? hahaha.

but then life still isnt that bad.. last tues, went Botanic garden with Xin yi and Sharon for picnic.. haha.. though it is short but at least, took me away from my schoolwork for a while.. :)

guess i need to take some time off to take a break.. if not before my exams next year... i will be too stressed up le... haha..

anyway, this week is prayer meeting week so really want to also take the opportunity to build up my spiritual life too..

Busy Week + Fiona's Wedding

2009-10-03T22:30:00.004+08:00

guess this week... my whole week was so packed that i cannot even have some time for myself to sit down and do some reflection... hmm...

monday had website meeting at nite with website dept... then guess wat? Jeremy actually bought a new camera and he is going to lend me his own camera.. hurray!! going to have a camera to play with already.. yippy!! and tat nite.. with Jeremy and Tame, they drove me around to see the places where there are nice places to take nice photos.. :)

then on wed... went to school.. then after tat went to meet up with Jean and Xiao Xin.. then supposed to teach Jean accounts.. end up we went to watch movie "The Ugly Truth" at "The Cathay" then we went to cityhall for sakae sushi buffet... haha.. then Xiao Xin went off earlier cos he has to teach tuition then left with Jean and me.. supposed to meet Carrie.. but in the end.. didnt get to meet her.. so in the end.. while i went for my floorball training at Tamp, Jean went for her meeting..

thurs was tiring.. cos i didnt really get to sleep as need to prepare all the stuff for Fiona's wedding le..all the gate crashing game and stuff... haha..

fri.. of course was Fiona's big day so thus... i was up since like 4plus.. cos we need to be in her house by 5plus.. then went to do up the gate crashing games and stuff.. after tat, went with her around the Dennis and Her place for all the tea ceremonies... then we went home to sleep cos only need to report back in the evening.. then when all the guest left, they wanted Fiona to dink the red wine but Fiona cant drink.. so in the end.. Fiona drank 1 mouth and Jia Hui drank the rest... then the friends were like.. wa.. Jie Mei group can drink.. so they passed me the XO.. and if i dun drink the Fiona has to drink.. (P.S: it is like they show me the bottle lo.. and i have to drink from bottle?? ON THE ROCK!!!) i know Fiona cant drink.. neither can Dennis drink anymore.. cos i scare he hangover today.. so i drank it.. after tat, my body like volcano.. super hot.. but then i was feeling ok.. still can go home and use computer.. haha..

just went after my Floorball match.. rushed over to Shi En' House Warming.. has to show my face if not Shi En going to go after me le.. fly so many times of kite.. haha.. ops.. then after tat, rushed home to go for my grandpa's 86th birthday celebration.

tml going to work.. then going for Rayanne's 1st month!!

well, that's all folks.. for the this week..

Sports Fest Week

2009-09-24T00:53:00.002+08:00

hey guys.. if you ever read my blog.. haha.. well.. didnt go MIA.. really missing my SAT JW Ushers!! sorry.. going to be MIA till about mid-oct cos i got classes and of course i have my floorball matches on certain days...

this week is SIM Student Week as well as Arts Festival and Sports Fest.. so guess many of us who are in clubs are all super busy in school.. we are like in school since morning till 10pm? haha.. anyway, today, i guess i have spend duno how many hours playing floorball since i end class?? i was like helping to take scoring and even helping clubs to play.. haha.. cos some of them are against my floorball team mates.. not fair ba.. in the end.. i have blue blacks here and there.. faint..

tml.. going to be my netball match.. then i still gt training tml nite..

guess i better go and study le.. cos gt a test tml morning.. and guess wat? i haven started yet.. haha..

OG 2 BBQ

2009-09-20T21:27:00.002+08:00

it has been a busy weekend.. not only just studying.. but i still have my cca stuff.. thank God.. my voice is still around.. haha.. having BBQ for 2 nites.. but i think i really enjoyed them.. really thank Chantel for all the planning and stuff.. and can you imagine that we have high turnout rate?? what's more to have such a OG?? haha.. definitely my best OG!! we had a long nite off HTHT.. wat it mean?? (Heart To Heart Talk) really anything under the sun... :) and of course with beer.. then we talked till about 5plus when everyone was really tired.. then rina and i was till very awake?? so we went to another room to continue talking.. in the end.. we fell asleep at 6.55am when we are supposed to wake Joan up at 7am? faint. so in the end.. cant join her for breakfast but then we went breakfast with lloyd, darius, jasper, rina.. then we went to play pool then went over to pasir ris to find SRC people.. cos Sports and Welfare dept having combine BBQ.. so got to know many people too.. then till about 7plus, we cant take it le.. cos we are too tired.. so by 8.15pm... Bryan, Lloyd, Rina and I left together.. haha.. OG 2 came together.. left together.. haha.. ops..

it has been a week...

2009-09-11T01:08:00.001+08:00

wa.. so fast 1 week has passed... hmm..

I think i just do a quick update ba.. haha..

Monday:
went for classes then after that went to cityhall.. bought some stationary.. wow!! then went for my Website Dept fellowship.. it was a relax and great time.. and i was playing with Tame's camera most of the time.. haha.. oh ya.. Eugene was like telling me that actually i can take photos.. maybe can start to learn?? haha.. interesting.. wait till monday then i get the photos from Tame.. so that i can post.. haha.. my "art pieces"

Tuesday:
went to classes then went home.. after tat, at nite... met up with Xiuli and Jo to go for floorball.. had fun and of course learn new skills..

Wednesday:
went to see rara's baby... and Congrats tO Li Juan.. sorry.. cant attend your Wedding.. my wed i think was my pack-est day.. haha.. and of course had to meet up with Blood D's committee..

Thursday:
amazing free?? haha.. supposed to meet up with xin yi and sharon but then sharon is not free.. so we have to change date le lor.. so today.. free.. stay at home watch tv.. till it's time to go NUS to pick my sis up to go my grandma's place for dinner... oh ya.. my sis passed her grade 8 Piano exams.. haha.. hmm... but wonder if she will be going for her Piano Diploma??

Friday:
hmm... i dunno?? but then might be going for movie with Trinity... heez.. then of course at nite got CGM... oh ya.. finally, my dad will be coming back tml nite.. cool!! haha.. so long didnt get to see him le lo.. but then i am thinking whether should i go and fetch my dad?? so long didnt see him.. kind of miss him alot.. :(

Wanyun's Birthday!!

2009-09-04T01:20:00.008+08:00

wow.. finally i managed to find time to blog le.. haha.. since tml i dun have classes.. i dun need to restrict myself on the timing i need to sleep.. haha.. anyway, today after school went to help in the floorball booth.. cos there is a upcoming event.. which is 3 on 3 floorball.. hmm.. should i form a team to join?? still thinking ba...

then saw Phyllis... then talk to her for quite long.. from sec sch to NPCC stuff.. haha.. to uni life and such.. then after tat, went down to Orchard to find Xinyi.. cos we are going to shop for Wanyun's Present... hee.. so finally.. this is what we got for wanyun.. nice??

a new collection from Fossil...

Happy Birthday wanyun!! :)

Trying to take an "Artistic Photo" haha..

Outside Astons @ the Cathay.. but then Wanyun is blocking the "A".. haha..

Me and Ruixiang

Xinyi, Sharon, Myself, Carrisa

we had our dinner at Aston @ the Cathay.. then lots of laughter and suaning as usual.. then after tat, we went to star bucks for some more chit chat moments.. while some of us are busy taking "Artistic Photos" haha.. had lots of fun with G12..

Mix feelings

2009-09-01T17:33:00.002+08:00

Class has ended for the day... but yet there seems to be something bothering me..
Since school has started... i dun seems to really have time to day-dream, to think??

since sat, something actually struck me.. and since then.. i am feeling weid.. suddenly i dunno where am i?
is this where i am supposed to be?
is this wat i am supposed to do?
is this wat i want in my life?
i questioning myself with lots of questions... perhaps, maybe due to some comments too.. that i am thinking to call a quit to everything??

ytd, went for website meeting.. when we were talking about html, php, website, access, programming... networking.. then i realised something, all these while, my interest has still always been in Information Technology... only then my creativity can appear... only then my thoughts can move...

previously.. i have always been having fun and going out fellowshipping.. now that people around me are getting attached... guess it is also time for me to focus into my dreams of IT company and goals that i have set for myself...

there are too much weird feelings that i am having.. including........
nah.. nvm, maybe when the time is right, the feeling might be gone le.. haha.

lastly, to all my UOL friends who are getting their results today,
all the best!!

~ friends that have the same common interest might not always stay as friends ~

super belated birthday present :)

2009-08-28T08:45:00.002+08:00

Yeah!! finally i have gotten this bag :P waited for so long.. on wed night.. then shelin told me that they wanted to get the bag for me.. but then becos all very busy and due to some issues they haven get the bag for me.. so in the end.. they transfer me the money for me to buy the bag.. haha.. so cool rite? :P love them deep deep.. muaCkZ..

thanks to Cherie, Hanxiang, Shelin and Jac.. my dream is here.. love the bag so much.

and ytd.. becos i know that shelin also like the bag.. so in the end.. jac and i decided to sponsor shelin some of the money as her birthday present too.. cool!! and ytd.. we shop like crazy... i bought 2 pairs of slippers.. and we did what we needed to do..

2009-08-23T20:03:00.002+08:00

just update for the week.. haha.. wa.. i realised since i started school.. i dun really have time to maintain my blog.. but then still i shall still try my best to find time to blog :)

anyway, ytd.. i was hotel 1 again.. hee hee. and of course i had emily to be my hotel 2... wow!! hee.. we had fun serving... sometimes, when SLs are not around.. i rather not to be too formal but then just have fun with ushers.. haha.. this is the way to build friendship with them.. ;) of course, G11 was honoured to have Eugene as our H1A for ytd, i have indeed learn new things from Eugene.. i have always respected him as a great influence leader.. the things that he taught me, i never forget them.. even to the tiny little detail. and i really hope those who have served as ICs ytd will really learn from Eugene.. G11, jia you!!

then went for oscar.. then we were "bullying" Eugene lo.. haha.. but then we had fun.. then after tat, we went to Dian Xiao Er to eat.. and for the first time.. we had a security to join us for fellowship.. haha.. so fun.. but then when we are G11 + G12 together.. it's so much about suan-ing.. hahaha..

really enjoyed myself.. and of course when i reach home.. i had a nice talk with Eugene and You Mei... new things to learn.. new things to follow.. :)
then i thought of going for svc today so then i fetch You Mei to expo.. haha..

on the way back.. saw Ray and Jeremy.. they are rushing to take a cab.. then i just offer my car.. if not.. it is going to be very expensive for them.. haha..

okie.. my update for the 2 days :) more coming up soon!!

study study study

2009-08-18T16:12:00.002+08:00

ytd.. after school went down to Bishan to settle some stuff then went down to Great World City to meet Leroy and LLyod... then we studied together... fruitful lo.. at least finally i understand some part of econs le.. haha.. must jia you jia you..

anyway, this is the kind of uni life that is really call life.. have fun together, study together... :)

wat more to expect from a Great OG??

2009-08-17T01:23:00.003+08:00

today, i had my 1st floorball match against Springfield sec.. dun see them so small size... their balls are full of power and confident lo.. playing with them also have fear.. haha.. anyway, guess wat? when i was about to go down to play... i saw this group of people from far and they seems familiar. but then i didnt notice them cos was in the game and very exciting.. anyway, after tat, when i look closer then i realised that it was my OG... haha.. FOC OG tat came to give me their support since it was my 1st game... so good rite?? haha.. though we draw 4-4 but then at least i think we can play better in future games :)

then after tat, when to ThaiExpress to eat... hmm.. i just uploaded the photos on facebook.. so abit lazy to upload here.. next time ba.. haha.. then we went to watch the movie "where got ghost".. though it was a horror movie but then i think there is still meaning behind it.. so ya.. not a bad movie.. then actually wanted to go for supper but then some of us have classes tml.. so then we decided not go and go home ba..

okie. tat's all for now...
seems to be more and more busy.. haha.. :P

Tiring week

2009-08-14T12:47:00.002+08:00

finally i can sit down and start updating my blog.. haha.. not because that i am not busy but then since i am sick.. with fever of 38.4 degrees.. there is not a single chance that i can leave my house now?? especially when your mum keep calling you almost every hour to check "what is your temperature?" thinking that i might get H1N1? faint. i am super irritating.. cant even get a good sleep to think that i lost so much sleep in the week??

this week.. i think my whole week is taken up for training for floorball le.. out of the 7 days.. 4 days on floorball training and 1 day of competition which is sun.. haha.. faint.

ytd, after school, rushed for SRC interview.. so scary la.. imagine to sit in front of them and they look at you.. hmm.. then somemore Welfare deputy head and the head bombed the question directly to me?? wa.. faint la.. but then i think i just reply with TYS answer?? haha.. that i learnt from NPCC de la.. of course?? :P then went to find a few OG2 since they dun have class le.. so went to canteen for lunch.. then went home sleep.. then went for floorball training.. and we are going to play against the seniors.. haha.. they are really good lor.. haha.. i really need alot of training lor.. hmm.. after training, went down to Bedok 85 market to meet Jasper, Joan, Rex and Llyord for supper.. hahaha.. cool..

okie la.. i think tat's all for now ba.. guess going to rest for today.. haha..

1st week of school

2009-08-09T03:00:00.000+08:00

last week, just had my 1st week of school...

THEN!!!

i realised tat i so much to study!!!

AND THEN!!!

i realised i dun have so much time!!!

AND THEN!!!

i realised i need to go for floorball training too!!!

AND THEN!!!

i realised i am lacking of sleep!!!

SO!!!

i realised that i am going to sleeep now!!!

Freshman Orientation Bash 2009

2009-08-01T00:57:00.004+08:00

ytd.. went for FOB.. hmm.. nothing much.. haha.. but instead, it is kind of boring but then still okie la.. haha.. end up guess wat?? OGLs of OG2 favourite past time.. take photos.. haha.. so we took some photos.. suddenly my blog is full of photos.. here they are...
before going for the bash, i met up with FOC OG2 for dinner..but then i didnt eat cos need to meet FOD OG11 for dinner.. haha.. need to run 2 ways la..

hey.. when was this photo takeN?? i didnt even realising it?? -_-

then went to meet my FOD for dinner at billy bombers... then after that went to find shelin, joanna, jac cos need to meet my poly mates too.. if not i going to get whack?? haha.. then went in le.. then went back to find FOC OG2.. haha.. still miss them alot.. my family leh..

rina and me...

rina, Joan aka mummy, chloe, me

Jasper aka daddy, joan aka mummy, rina, chloe, me

me and wenliang...
my 15 years friend.. haha. wat do you expect? ;)

FOC OG2 @ FOB (Butter Factory)

i realised photos are never enough for OG2!! haha..

me and Rex..

FOC OG2 - THE THING 1st OUting

2009-07-30T02:03:00.002+08:00

ytd was my 1st training for floorball..
and my leg cramps is here again...
actually okie already.. but then in the end..
after the training, all the pain is here again...

floorball is quite fun..
not only tat..
i found my long lost friend... hahaha.
from NDP 2003.. hee hee..
and of course made new friends..

then after training.. went to meet OG 2 for prawning...
when i went there, only Rina and Jasper are prawning..
the rest, they are sitting down talking only..
after tat, joan aka mummy suggested to go singing..
after a while..
all of us decided to go singing...
so stopped prawning halfway and went to bugis to sing..
hahaha.
guess wat?? it's at 12am when we decided to go singing??
then i sang till about 4am then went off first cos i had something on...

took alot of photos too.. all in facebook.. haha..
from joan aka Mummy, jasper aka daddys' camera...

okie la.. gtg le.. guess tml nite i will have more photos to post cos
we are going for Freshman Orientation Bash.. wow!!

before my school life starts, my life seems super happening already..
cant wait for school to start.. yippy!! :)

FOC OG 2 + FOD OG 11

2009-07-26T03:02:00.008+08:00

hello... finally got some time to blog.. haha.. before school starts.. i seems to be really really busy with all my orientation stuff.. haha.. and we have been taking so many photos till i also dunno which one to post?? aiyo... 500+ leh.. siao rite?

here are some photos..

while playing games in sentosa..

Day 2.. before we set off to our amazing race

Day 3: having our last item before break camp

Day 3: the girls with our OGL in the room..

the girls..

me and wen liang.. haha.. i told him this photo going to let alot of girls jealous.. haha.. but then really enjoyed the camp with you.. my 15 years friend leh.. how not to love him?? haha :P

me and Jasper.. not bad looking too rite?? hahaha

me and Joan - my other OGL..

me and my secret pal.. hmm.. fine.. this photo is becos both my OGL wanted me to take this way de..

then after break camp.. went to eat with my OG and OGL at NYDC at Holland V.. there are the photos.. sorry la.. i am brain dead.. dunno wat to type le..

me and rina

then went home unpack my bag.. bath.. then i left my house le.. went to meet my FOD OG11 cos we are going prawning.. hee hee.. there are the photos..

i caught my first prawn

me, charrissa, vivian with our 2 OGLs..

the girls with Jannies

the girls with Jannies + Shen Chee

okie la.. better go and sleep le.. almost 4am.. haven really get enough sleep for the past few days..
good nite.. try to find time to blog again.. if i am going to meet up my FOC OG tml..

Off to Camp

2009-07-22T00:12:00.003+08:00

well.. before i turn in.. shall blog first.. haha..

today went movie with Sze Shian and Rhys.. Murderer cos Ku-mummy gave me 4 tickets so ask them go and watch lo.. then after the movie, we went to walk around before heading home...

then sze shian find it too early to go home.. -_-'' so in the end.. send me to boon lay... faint.. then i felt bad la. cos he sent me all the way to boon lay so went supper with him then headed home..

okie.. shall go and pack my things and off to bed.. cos tml going for my Orientation Camp!! cool!! :)

see you in 3 days time and i will turn into a charcoal by then.. ops.. haha..

G11 Leader's dinner

2009-07-19T00:24:00.001+08:00

today.. Hotel 1.. wow!!
hmm.. nothing much la..

after oscar.. since Emily is driving so went to Holland V to eat XO Fried Been Hoon Soup... other food.. yummy!! all of us enjoying the food till we forgot to take photos.. haha.. anyway, had a nice chat and we started to come up with some ideas on how to make games.. haha.. hmm.. possible.. but then i guess i will have more dead brain cells?? haha..

okie la.. my brain is dead for now.. shall blog again.see how?? if not then after FOC confirm alot of things to blog de :P

Pri School Gathering

2009-07-13T00:55:00.004+08:00

Went to Plaza Sing for our Bukit Batok Pri Sch gathering at Cafe Cartel...

then after tat, went to Phuture with Bevan, Kelly, Daphne, Jeremy and Pamela.. haha..

these are the photos..

me and Bevan

this time round... nothing much.. hopefully next time round.. when Pamela going to plan the next round..

SIM UOL Freshman Orientation Day & G11 leaders meet up

2009-07-10T00:55:00.002+08:00

sorry.. few days didnt blog le.. haha.. cos hee.. everyday chatting on msn.. :P

anyway, i went for the FOD and hmm.. gt to know new friends.. some of them are in the same course.. wow!! heee.. then we had games.. went with Jo and Jac de.. but then i was separated from them.. but nvm la.. i gt to know a group of fun and nice people.. especially my OGLs.. haha.. now looking forward to see if i can get into the camp.. then going to have fun.. haha..
if not it's ok... we shall go for the bash then.. haha ;P

ytd met up with you mei for a time of fellowship.. wow!! had fun.. and kena of miss her too.. so long didnt get to see her le.. hmm.. also not that long but then still.. hee.. we went billy bombers... with you mei, jia sheng, jermaine, kenrus, trinity..

okie la.. short update of my life.. going to plan my time-table tml morning.. hopefully i will not oversleep..

EG outing and Ray's birthday

2009-07-06T01:15:00.002+08:00

this morning, i woke up late la.. haha.. thanks for his sms if not i guess i will still be sleeping.. then went for CGM... then after tat.. of course need to fellowship with my CG la.. hahaha.. so fellowship with them till about almost 2pm then went down to AMK to find Ray and Rachel cos we will be going over to Huiming's jie place cos it was Zoe's 1st month.. she is super cute lor.. haha.. then after tat, went to international building to partyworld to sing.. hahaha..

it has really been a long long time since EG went to partyworld.. that place used to be our regular hangout.. now... seems like everyone is super busy le lor.. then we went to this place ubber or something like tat to eat ice-cream.. the ice-cream is nice and there are alot of flavours.. not just tat.. they have ice-cream that had alcohol inside.. really.. like whiskey ice-cream, double rum, and all different types of ice-cream lo.. yummy!! shall go there 1 day with 1112 :P

shall upload the rest of the photo next time cos got to sleep le..
tml i having morning prayer meeting at Riverwalk at 7am - 8am.. wa..
hope that i will be able to wake up :P

Decentralised WYZ Service

2009-07-05T01:04:00.002+08:00

today had decentralised WYZ Service... had fun serving.. haha.. with so many people on the net... new experience for all.. and simply nice feeling to serve with our own zone :P

then after service... went to join CG for awhile then after tat, met xinyi... then level 1.. met liangkai who is on the phone with wanyun.. wa.. dunno if it is fated?? hmm..then we started to talk about the logis key... haix. then after tat... final decision.. all walk to my carpark to get my car and off to JP.. haha.. ok.. then met up with Zech in Jurong Point.. so while Wanyun join her Uni friends for dinner... zech, xinyi, liangkai and i went to eat our dinner at benten cafe... then after tat.. we waited for wanyun to come.. then we went off to holland village to eat dessert.. haha.. and wanyun wanted to drive so she drove us there... wHOOW!!!

we had alot of laughter and fun on the car.. and some topics that we were talking were abit argumenative.. but aiya.. afterall.. it is the company that we enjoyed.. so then we left about 10plus then wanyun drove herself home with my car of course.. then liangkai took over the wheel.. then drove zech and himself home... then i took over the wheel and send xinyi and myself home.. haha.. so everyone actually took turns to drive today... hee hee.. should have more of such outing :P

wa.. today is another day i spend with G12.. together we are 1112 :P

10 requirements i look upon

2009-07-03T00:01:00.002+08:00

hmm... this may sound crazy?? haha.. and guess this is the first time i blog about it.. but then since i have promised xinyan and xinyi i will do it.. so yup.. i have to do it.. cos they have done it le? haha..
okie..

#1. Putting God first in everything.
- Only then both will understand the purpose of doing certain things.

#2. Fulfill to parents..
- to me parents are important and really to respect them... and spending time with them.

#3. Someone who is either a leader or rising leader.
- there are certain things that it hard to tell someone that will not understand how you feel about certain things.. only people tat on your level will understand.

#4. Someone who is able to lead me, a person i can depend on and i feel secure.
- as it is in girl human's nature i guess?? no matter how much leadership we have... how independent we are.. we will always want to have someone who can lead us in life? Not just in life but also spiritually. That's how we are made?? haha.. cos i guess we need someone whom we feel secure with to be able to share deep things in our hearts?

#5. Someone who have visions and dreams.
- it is important to have dreams of your own. At least know where you are moving and what you wish to do? Becos without visions and dreams.. then leading to the next point...

#6. Someone who is able to dress smart and eventually will look smart. :)

#7. Have sense of humor

#8. Someone who is fun-loving and enjoying spending time together. Tactful is his words with friends around so at least not to offend anyone?? And not only I enjoy hanging out with him.. friends around me will also enjoy his company too. :P

#9. Someone who loves sports or at least some outdoor activities or some sports to at least keep ourselves fit.

#10. Someone who is gentleman enough to know what to do instead of being told?

Bonus:
#11. Able to drive
- though I can drive myself but still i prefer to have people to drive me around.. heez

I cant believe i am doing this.. haha... anyway, i am excited for this week's WYZ decentralised service.. and after tat, we gonna have durian party.. whooo!!

~ Day 2 of my ART OF BALANCING ~

Enlightenment of CG

2009-07-02T02:07:00.002+08:00

today.. i met up with my CGL for dinner... then after tat, had a talk with her.. and i realised that hey.. i have been so busy with my life.. with my ushers.. worrying about their study hours and everything... but i have somehow neglected my own disciple??

Shannon reminded me.. since i am actually giving my member bible studies so he is just like my disciple and i shouldnt just let him wonder and grow on the wrong side?? and had a great good talk with her... and it showed me something... am i bad example?? is it becos like wat they say.. Like Master like disciple?? I am always serving and now he is becoming like this too??

so then after dinner.. i decided to meet my member up... gave him discipleship... i guess i have to?? so of course i found out things too.. and i was simply using SOS and wat i have in church to encourage him?? hmm.. it was a good session.. i dunno how much got into him... but definitely.. i think at least something get into him? :) then went for OPM together..

then after tat.. fellowship with my CG.. then went home... was chatting with Kel on msn just now.. and i think it was a great chat... better understanding and encouraging..

~ DAY 1 of my ART OF BALANCING ~

Movie time!

2009-07-01T01:47:00.004+08:00

today, supposed to go out with my grandparents this afternoon.. but then my mum called up to say that they dun feel like going out cos they are tired.. so i decided to continue sleeping at home?? haha.. watching tv the whole day then after tat met up with xinyi in the afternoon to go jurong point to look at hp cos her phone cannot make it le.. and i realised that if i upgrade my plan now.. i can actually enjoy Free unlimited sms too.. i need it real badly la.. hahaha..

then after tat went to vivo then we start to shop around while waiting for fm and rx to arrive.. then we went to have dinner at the mussle guy or something de.. haha.. had lots of laughter regarding the food.. haha.. but the Aglio Olio is really nice.. not trying to convince myself like wat xinyi and fengming said.. but really.. but possibly becos ruixiang and i like it ba.. haha.. anyway, we went to watch the movie "I Love You Man".. quite funny show...

then after the show.. went to Bakerin cos actually ruixiang wanted to have another round of Aglio Olio but then in the end.. he decided not to have.. haha.. but then fm, xinyi and i had some hot drinks instead.

here my drink with a heart shape..

and guess wat??

after i finish my drink... the heart shape is still there.. haha.. i managed to keep the heart shape.. but of course i cant bring it home la.. :P

okie la.. tat's all for today.. got to sleep.. working tomorrow.. and OPM tml nite..
ohya.. fasting tml too!! woW!

My Baby Cousin Caelan

2009-06-30T11:37:00.003+08:00

Just receive some photos of my baby cousin Caelan in Sweden.. actually heard that E-Jean xiao ku wanted to come to Singapore around this period but becos of the H1N1.. they decided not to cos Caelan is still so young..

Hmm.. his eyes dun look brown to me... hahaha..

so cute.. from the pic.. his eyes dun seems to be dark brown like us... hmm..wonder wat colour is his eyes.. haha.. really looking forward to seeing my baby cousin.. haha.. can you imagine my age gap with my cousin is like 22 yrs difference??? and finally i will have another baby cousin to play with?? haha.. NOT MY NEPHEW!! BUT COUSIN!! WOW!! this is interesting :P

Great Laughter with 1112 after a Great Service

2009-06-28T01:09:00.003+08:00

this morning, met up trinity and kenrus for lunch?? hmm.. but the timing like breakfast in church... then after tat we fellowship till about 12.30pm cos Jiasheng and Dion reached le but i dunno what to brief?? haha.. i mean been first time as a Hotel 1... my mind is blank..

thanks to Kenrus and Trinity today.. we had homemade donuts from them.. :P

though the earlier part is abit of stressful cos not enough manpower to do bulletins and stuff but in the end we still made it.. then after tat, went to oscar...after tat, cos Ming Lee wanted to talk to Kenrus and Khoon Fai so i went to B4 for zone event sitting at the back... then after tat, cos i was feeling very hungry le.. so left halfway then went to JP for dinner cos we have not eaten.. we went to eat Long John Silver.. then we crack alot of jokes.. laughing all the way.. then after tat, Wanyun suggested to go around to walk... so we started to walk.. and I was into a CD shop.. as I was msging Kenneth, cos he ask what i was doing?? so in my mind.. the reply was i am walking around in Jurong POint with my ministry leader and some ushers.. but then i was shocked on what i type before i send out?? i actually type CGL instead of MINISTRY LEADER??? faint.. lucky i read once before sending.. haha.. ops..

then we went to Popular... -_-''' how nice?? Being a popular staff.. seems so workaholic...off day yet going back to workplace of another branch only.. haha.. and i realised that we are crazy stationary shoppers too.. haha.. as i told them there were 20%.. wow! they just buy?? and Ming Lee was crazy.. haha..

look at the number of pens that Ming Lee bought?? hahaha

her receipt is like super long?? hahaha..

then after tat... Liang Kai suggested to go to Star bucks to continue to fellowship so we went... and it was fun to the max?? haha.. we had lots of laughter till the tears were like going to flow le?? haha. we seems to be disturbing our ministry in a way.. but then haha..

here are some: -
Kenrus: Ushers are brokers.
Liang Kai: oh.. cos they always show the hand signal..

Kenrus: Ushers are weird people. We keep ourselves in and close others out.
Liangkai: huh??
Me: we always tell them sorry, hall is not ready.. pls wait outside.. hahaha..
(stupid rite??)

there are alot more.. but then too many to write la.. plus some not allowed to post?? haha.. it was indeed a great time fellowship with them.. simply just laughters?? haha.. we were laughing non-stop till we left starbucks?? haha.. we played a game and the game made us laugh anot.. haha.. wanted to ask You Mei to come but then she is working.. so cant?

oh ya, i realised it is easier to find us now? example like just now.. we were talking about H1N1 then i actually said.. no more le.. now E1R1.. then straight away the table behind us turn and said hi to some? haha.. suddenly it turn into us.. E1R1 stands for Each One Reach One.

Oh ya.. forgot to mention the names: -
- Wanyun
- Liangkai
- Karen
- Xinyi
- Kenrus
- Trinity
- Ming Lee

okie la..going to sleep le.. cos tml morning got to wake up early to go service with Xinyi :P
Goodnite. :p

SOS last lesson

2009-06-27T01:34:00.002+08:00

ytd was the last lesson for Song of Solomon. At first, the night before, i made up my mind to sit with my cg.. i mean i guess i ought to spend some time with them? Honestly, sometimes, when i see how others can be so close to their cg members, it do make me wonder... why cant I? what is the thing that is stopping me?? there seems to be a wall??

anyway, i put my bag with my cg... looking at Hotel 1(Ray)'s face.. i guess it will be seems too much if i dun even help a little in the zone i was sitting.. then i saw Ming Lee.. and she told me there is no usher to serve 1st row.. so i check with Feng Ming(Charlie 2) and becos Charlie is lack of ICs.. so Alan ask me to take 1st row.. okie lor.. went back to my cg.. realised that we are once again short of seats and actually I thought of rushing to the front during offering then still sit with my cg... but then not enough seats?? so nvm lo.. i shall give up my seat to my members and took the seat in front.

the ending presence in the front was strong...

thinking back...
there are times when i was weak...
there are times i chose to escape...
there are times i turn my back...
But yet...
He is always waiting for me...
so many how many times i felt tired...
His hands are always there to help me up...
He is none other than my Abba Father...

Fruitful trip at Ubin

2009-06-23T00:54:00.006+08:00

this morning.. woke up late..after morning call him and faster got myself prepared and rush out of my house le.. cos i going ubin to cycle with Nyssa and Xiuli...then uopn reaching ubin.. went to find the bike uncle.. took my blue bike again... hee.. forgot to take photo with the bike again :(

the first durian tree we saw.. isnt it cool?? haha..

today, we did cycle quite a bit.. but more of bashing in through to find durians?? haha.. sound crazy?? but then hey.. it was great experience okie?? you waited.. they drop and you pick up and eat.. yummy~!

Rambutans... haha.. we saw a uncle plugging.. so we ask if he could give us a few?? and they are sweet and juicy... hee..

Nyssa and the Rambutans

me and Nyssa at Chek Jawa...

then after tat we went to boardwalk and the top tower.. wow!! the scenery is nice simply beautiful.. i regretted not bringing camera.. i only had my hp with me.. but still not that bad la.. then i wanted to cycle to Noordin.. but in the end.. saw my cadets halfway... I saw Brandon, Leonard, Sharon.. and i found Oreo cookie for my unit.. hee.. anyway, in the morning.. i was talking to sharon.. that Ubin is so big.. not possible that i will meet my OC.. and I told God, if your will now is for me to go back to NPCC to be HO... let me meet my OC somehow before I leave ubin.. and I really meet her like while we are resting then there she is coming?? -_-''' and tat area is not even Noordin area yet??

so then.. just now.. i told my OC.. i want to go back to NPCC... i mean when your heart and passion is still there.. it's hard to give them up.. i gave up once.. but not again... it is hard for me to give up something i like so much?? so now waiting for the course and camp to come??

then i started to walk with Ms Lim, OC.. then after tat, meet another team with teacher officer also.. so then he also ask me dun think le.. come back as a HO.. hmm.. while i was walking with them.. Nyssa and Xiuli stopped and rest.. and guess what?? we found durian.. fleshly dropped..

i am cutting the durian.. haha..

Xiuli and Nyssa

and we started enjoying the durians till we kind of almost forgot we need to return the bikes.. then went back to the bike shop then.. gt this guy.. hmmm.. quite shuai.. and he is tanned.. hmm.. and becos we still had durians.. then we started to have a conversation... and he actually taught me how to see if the durian is good?? hahaha.. super power lo.. and he is like so young only??

he open it for us... yummy~!

taken on the boat back to mainland:

Xiuli and Nyssa

i saw the english version of it on the boat.. so then i took a picture of it.. hee.. :P

then we went for dinner together... before i headed home.. then i actually took train to Pasir Ris... then sit back to Jurong.. haha :P.. i guess.. i slept for almost an hour on the traiN?? haha..

okie la.. gonna to sleep le.. tml going out with G1112 for movie.. hee

Charlie 1 = Hotel 1 in Jurong??

2009-06-20T09:11:00.002+08:00

ytd duty was Charlie 1.. honestly, maybe it's the first time doing but i did really feel the stress.. it was like battle has started then Pei Fen reminded me that the stage is also mine.. so i need to check with stage 1 and stage if all the guest are here?? where are my stage ushers?? have the pupit been cleaned?? suddenly all these question came to me and i realised that i have been only looking after the zones and not the stage area?? it seems like a learning ground for me.. cos Charlie total chairs is about Jurong's hall?? so equal to as though Hotel 1? but then i have learnt something from Pei Fen ytd too.. i mean she was super relax?? and i think i was the one who is stress out?? haha.. i was really walking around the zone to see if every seat is been filled up.. then Pei Fen was telling me.. that i should move to the next level.. instead.. look at my ushers.. how they serve.. and teach them.. leave my seats to the ushers.. this is like something that i didnt really thought about??

every duty is a new experience to me... then after service.. together alot of SL and TL.. had a meeting with Beatrice.. cos on the July 4 & 5, we will be having zone service.. then we need to allocate the ushers.. so for WYZ.. Zech and I will be the ushers IC.. faint.. no wonder some of the SL are telling me that ytd was my training ground.. win le lo.. i dun even have any understudy before leh?? -_-'''

ytd BS was great... hee.. thought we are serving... but then God is great.. when the Hall was clearing and there are many usher leaders were standing in front to clear the hall and all the stickers and stuff.. Pastor just came and lay hands on us.. so in the end.. many of the usher leaders just fall.. and through the net.. they were still looking for us.. haha.. but no one respond.. ops..

Going back to expo ytd then when i was talking to Jean.. then i actually realised that my ex-TL is on break for very long le.. he wanted to go on break for a while.. but it seems like till now he is still on break.. i was shocked.. once together with him, we made a great team.. and now he is like no longer serving?? then 2 of the great friends whom i know.. have MIA from church after not serving for a while?? sometimes, has the CGL been coming too hard on us or has UM turned into part of our lives.. without it, we seems lost of direction? Since i came back from Genting, i heard lots of things.. then it is a feeling that i dunno how to describe but it is like....... arrgg.. dunno how to describe.. forget it.. *feeling frustrated* -> simply dont make me choose...

becos of so many things that i have heard for the whole week...
*just feel like stepping down in everything and be alone for awhile*

Family Genting Trip

2009-06-18T00:28:00.005+08:00

this Genting trip is not just a normal trip to me but also an eye-opener to me.

When we reach there.. as usual will be checking into our room and then we went down for buffet dinner.. this trip is simply eating, shopping and playing... haha.. but quite relaxing too.. at least, i can simply forget about time and just play to my heart's content.

me and my grandparents

me and my godma

lazy to post the photos.. cos now i am still feeling sleepy though i have slept on the bus for like 6 hours le?? haha.. i feel so piggy? -_-'''

after dinner went to Casino... haha.. it was an eye-opener for me? they were saying that since i have hit the age of 21 so i should at least go in to the casino to see wat it is like? so tat i dun been mountain tortoise?? haha.. ok.. waa.. i finally understand why is there so many people who actually borrow from the loan sharks? the way those gamblers play were crazy?
Eg. I saw this uncle playing on this table.. he has placed min about RM200 bet on this table and after placing his bet.. he went to the other table to play concurrently?? isnt it crazy??

Day 2:
went bowling after breakfast.. but realised that they only opened at 12pm so we went shopping and my godma bought me the death note anime.. hee hee.. (sry la.. at times, i still can behave like a kid.. ops)

then we went to this place called mushroom farm.. it's a restaurant but also a mushroom farm.. and how you can actually throw your own mushroom if you buy the seeds from them..

the is the fish we ate.. look!! it can stand?? hahaha

went to archary to play with my cousins, my dad, my Godma, my 3rd aunt..

the one in black.. that's me :P

then after tat... went for movie.. with them.. Terminator Salvation :P
then we went to the pub..
at first it was just listening to songs... then as the nite gets later...
the songs that they sang were once the songs that my Godpa loves to sing?
then we saw this moth flying around us.. and suddenly in our mind is not to chase it away.
maybe is my godpa.. how much my mind know that ah tio papa is with the Lord now
yet i still hope that the moth is him to be with us?
i saw ku mummy wiping her eyes.. i knew she is controlling herself..
my mum's eyes were red too seeing ku mummy crying..
my dad suddenly hugged ku mummy.. then i know that everyone really did miss my godpa alot
my tears was flowing non-stop.. even when i am blogging now..
i have never thought that this trip will bring back so much memories about him?
there were heartache for ku mummy and i too miss ah tio papa..
uncle sam signal me to stop crying becos my godma will be feeling worse..
i then took xu ren to go out and buy drinks.. since he wanted to drink 100plus.. and bought maggie mee for him too.. then uncle sam ordered terquila Pop.. then all of us drank.. guess wat? Charlene felt giddy after tat?? haha.. then about 1am.. we went back to the room.. oh ya.. i had 2 glasses of gin tonic and dunno how many bottles of beer? haha..

Day 3:
my cousins went to the theme park.. actually wanted to go with them.. but then i dun feel like?? i just feel like accompanying ku mummy the whole day? to be with her?
so whole day, i stayed with her in the casino?? till dinner time? then went to find the rest to eat dinner together?? then went back to the casino? for Teochew porridge?? haha..

going into casino the 2nd time showed me something worse.. the auntie in the toilet simply dun know how to queue.. they just wan to cut your queue?? and they push?? come on.. toilet only and not as though the jackpot machines will run away? dun need to rush till like tat rite?

oh ya.. forgot to add.. in the afternoon, my grandpa wanted to go down to First World to shop then we decided to take the shuttle bus down.. faint.. this is worse than China.. you see the way they cut queue and the way they squeeze into the bus? when we manged to get into the bus.. upon reaching First World.. OMG!! i cant take it anymore.. my endurance has reached the limit.. they were pushing and my grandpa couldnt even get out and to me.. you push my grandparents.. i dun dare who you are.. you going to get it. so then i was holding on to my grandma's wheelchair and trying to find the way to my grandma still in the van.

*all the things are in conversation are in chinese*
Me: move away, if the wheelchair bangs into you, it's not my problem
Idiot ah pek: how can you not know, you are pushing and if you say excuse me, everyone will sure to move
my dad: uncle, you didnt even give me space to get her out and you are pushing
*got this kind auntie was asking us to slowly, take our time so i kept quiet*
Me(shouted): people know how to push, if my grandparents fall just now, i make sure you will lie flat on the ground too. dun even know how to wait.

everyone trying to get me to cool down cos i was really hot-tempered le.. and something about my family.. we are all very stubborn.. haha.. when my mum commented that i am getting very stubborn.. then my 3rd aunt said "guess she really has too much of the Tan family genes" hee.. i can be very stubborn and hot-tempered when i know i am right and i make sure i get my way done.. ops.. does that scare you off? ;P

my breakfast for day 4:

hee hee..

then went to do some shopping.. and HOME SWEET HOME!!!

Sharon's Farewell and 84's Birthday

2009-06-14T01:57:00.005+08:00

wa.. didnt really that these few days, i have not blog?? haha.. anyway, guess i should blog before i leave for genting.. ;)

thurs.. after work.. went to Timbre to find Alan, Sharon, Wanyun, Xinyi, Ruixiang, Cassisa... it was a farewell for sharon cos she is going to Hong Kong for 2 months.. then we had pizza and drinks of course... and guess wat? we are blessed by Alan.. he paid for everything.. wa.. and we shared a waterfall.. wa.. haha.. see the photos.. :P

the waterfall.. see the flame inside?? haha.. we shared and guess wat? the moment we drink.. we feel as though we have just drank some fire?? haha..

Group Photo before Sharon left Singapore..

today.. we celebrated 84's birthday... but then it was supposed to be a surprise.. at first i thought that 84 has already returned his set.. then i com

me: wanyun... if you ready then tell me
wanyun: ready le la.. you faster la..
84: i am ready.. you can bring the cake out.
me: *faint* how come 84 is still holding his set?? -_-'''
84: am i supposed to pretend that i am surprise??
me: bao tian.. why you hold the set.. i thought you return le??

anyway, we brought the cake out for him to blow... and G1112 + Ivory bought him a pen with his name "Nicholas Pang" engrave on it... super cool okie?? it's a cross brand pen..

then after that.. went to do wat we need to do.. recycling.. oscar... after that went to Best coffee shop to eat Ban Mian with Karen, Wanyun, Trinity, Kenrus, Bao Tian and Layhwa.. then i was telling them about what Beatrice asked me to find out.. wat is wrong with one of the lifts in the 6 lifts in jurong?? so then we went back to church and really trying to find out where is the problem.. -_-''' look super kid-ish.. as though we are playing with the lifts.. haha.. but then i still dunno what is the prob? sadded..

then after tat, Trinity, Layhwa and i walked to Pioneer mall Giant.. cos they wanted to buy things for their sentosa trip..and since we ended early today? so Layhwa suggested to go Mac to chill out.. so went there to talk till about 10plus then we left to go home.. heee...

okie la.. off to sleep... off to genting... away and away and gone!!

be back on wed..

UM CGL UM CGL UM CGL UM CGL (UGL?)

2009-06-10T00:16:00.000+08:00

This week, we are having prayer meeting every morning... and it seems like no matter how tired i am, as long as i set my heart that i want to wake up for prayer meeting.. i will drag myself up.. though initially is hard.. but then once you are out of your bed.. everything is easy already :P

everyday after Prayer Meeting... my whole day seems to be wonderful?? I felt more energetic???

today, went for Romans and Galatians class.. wa.. the lesson is getting harder and harder to digest.. but then i really enjoyed the lessons.. not only taught me head knowledge but main thing to always to remember to keep His 10 commandments.. commandments are given not for nothing but given so that we can be better people..

then went to work.. nothing much but then i guess after xl left... i am kind of have changed dept to be cashier dept le?? haha

then just now after the leader's meeting.. then went to fellowship with some WYZ CGLs.. include QiuPing, WeiRen, Sharon, Bryna, Yuzhen, Aloyson, Kelvin etc..

this is how it happen... haha.. i dunno..
Me: Hi, Yuzhen
Yuzhen: everywhere I go, i will see you
Me: Because....
Yuzhen: because you are going to be a CGL rite? I knew it..
Me: huh??
Yuzhen: You ask your heart whether do you have a desire? and do you want to be CGL?
*Wanyun walked past*
Wanyun: No, she doesnt want
Yuzhen: Go and pray and ask God to give you a word or a verse and give you a confirmation, once it's confirm then rise up in CG
Me: okok.. i will pray about it.

Went to 2nd best coffeeshop to fellowship with WYZ leaders
Yuzhen: come Vanessa, Join the Family and fellowship
Bryna: Ya, Future CGL (dun get surprise, Bryna has been calling me tat)
*keeping quiet*
Bryna: go and pray about it
- CANT REMEMBER WAT SHE SAY LE -

Qiuping: Ya, she has been praying since SOT
Me: huh? Got meh?? haha.. I only remember praying to rise up in Usher Ministry.

alot more la.. but cant remember all..

anyway, Maybe I will leave it to Him ba..

okie la.. need to go and sleep le.. cos tml morning still need to morning call Kenneth cos I promised to go to Paya Lebar's PM.. and i left with 3 hours of sleep..whahaha.. :P

Romans & Galatians Lesson 3

2009-06-08T14:57:00.002+08:00

This morning.. went for Morning Prayer Meeting.. It was really a great time praying and i realised that once my heart is set right to go.. then i will be able to wake up.. or drag myself up for prayer meeting.. then after tat, I stayed on for Romans & Galatians lesson 3.

It was indeed a great lesson. Not only I have learn more about the Book of Romans but also it brought me back to the very basic. The importance of the Ten Commandments. This week is just like I am going back to my Bible School days.. knowing more.

Share abit ba.. hmm.. there are total of 3 uses of the Law
The law(law here refers to Ten Commandments) as a teacher.
John Calvin teaches that the law helps believers in 2 ways:
1. The law teaches the believer to make daily progress in doing the will of God.
2. The law encourages the believer how to live a life of obedience.

Quoted from Deirich Bonhoeffer:
"[cheap grace] is the preaching of forgiveness without requiring repentance, baptism without church discipline, communion without confession, absolution without personal confession. Cheap grace is grace without discipleship, grace without the cross, grace without Jesus Christ, Lieving and incarnate."

hmm.. tink about it...

anyway, after SOT lesson.. then went to have lunch with Liang Kai and fellowship abit then walked with him to Pioneer MRT then I walked home :P

okie la.. going for evening prayer meeting later too.. wHoo..

Lost In Ubin

2009-06-07T22:28:00.003+08:00

this morning... woke up and went for service.. then after tat join CG to go for Lost In Ubin... initally aiya.. dun wan to talk about it... tired of commenting.. on the shuttle bus to Changi.. i sat with Bryna.. then she was like talking to me.. about balancing myself in both Usher and CG ministry... I can still aim to be a Usher Leader and as well as being a PCGL.. hmm.. honestly.. i dunno if i have this capacity?? then after tat she asked me for my number.. then she put in her phone..

Vanessa - FCGL.. -_-''' then she showed to felicia... i was like wa.. win le lor.. this is best of all le.. use hp to proclaim.. haha.. then after tat, we played the game.. i think i really enjoyed the game... it is really like amazing race... you just kept going.. no matter how tired.. we just kept going.. and wat's more.. there are alot of bashing in to do and i think i am somemore crazy or wat... i love bashing in... but then also ended to have lots of cuts on my legs.. *sobs sobs* then ricky wasnt feeling well.. so i try calling shannon and wuay boon but both didnt pick up the phone.. so i decided to call Bryna for help..

Phone: *toot toot* *toot toot*
me: Hello, Bryna
Bryna: yes, future CGL
-_-'''

i didnt know i have changed my name... then after tat yu zhen was like laughing all the way la.. all bully me... haix.. then after the whole game.. we took photos..

i didnt know that my CG is so big now.. haha..

my CGLs..

after tat... i went to join sharon's CG cos E-Lis is there and she wan me to join her for dinner then go back with her after tat cos she told Eqward Granduncle that she is with me? haha.. win le lor.. but i also told my dad that i will be having dinner with E-lis.. so yup.. so went to eat Nasi Lemak and Mutton soup.. wow!! seems like in heaven le.. haha..

This week going to be MY BUSY WEEK..

Monday
- Morning Prayer Meeting 7am - 8am (reporting at 6.30am)
- SOT Romans & Galatians Lesson 8.45am - 1pm
- Website meeting 7.30pm - 11pm ?? TBC (no news from eugene yet)

Tuesday
- Morning Prayer Meeting 7am - 8am (reporting at 6.30am)
- Work 11am - 9pm

Wednesday
- Morning Prayer Meeting 7am - 8am (reporting at 6.30am)
- SOT Romans & Galatians Lesson 8.45am - 1pm ?? (TBC)
- Evening Prayer Meeting 6pm - 7pm
- Leader's Meeting with Alex something de. 7.45pm - 10pm (should be serving?)

Thursday
- Morning Prayer Meeting 7am - 8am (reporting at 6.30am)
- Work 11am - 9pm

Friday
- Morning Prayer Meeting 7am - 8am (reporting at 6.30am)
- SOT Romans & Galatians Lesson 8.45am - 1pm ?? (TBC)
- Meeting Xinyi in the afternoon to do up something
- Song Of Solomon Churchwide BS 7.30pm - 10.30pm (reporting at 6pm)

Saturday
- Send E-lis and Sharon off to Hong Kong for attachment @ 5plus
- JW Service 1 3.30pm - ?? (serving till oscar)
- Fellowship with usher leaders till??

Sunday
- Take bus to Genting lo... back on 17th June..

Time to Let Go

2009-06-06T01:58:00.003+08:00

ytd.. went out with EG.. it was great meeting up with the people we called family.. we still love to fellowship with each other so much.. and ytd.. xinyi joining EG for the first time then she was well-blend in le.. still can join them in suaning me.. -_-''' win le lor.. haha..

when i say i am very low profile in Jurong de lor.. no one believe me? so sad.. anyway, after that we went down to Timbre.. it was a great time of fellowship and gathering... just friends.. from everywhere... as least we know once we are all ushers... haha..

anyway, since last nite i was really thinking whether I should let go??? i have been holding on for so long... though i know i will not be able to see results??
Davis told me this: "Let go, let God. Sometimes God calls us in the most inconvenient time.."

guess... maybe i shall let it go...

today, i was really blessed by the message... It seems like going back to SOT for lessons and it is so much for us to learn and study the bible.. I really felt that wa.. i mean I just want to be in His presence more?

there are so much to think about... and another question for me to think... when should I quit?
my heart tells me before July 15
my brain tells me July 15
people tell me asap
God, what will you tell me??

Colorgenics Test

2009-06-04T12:15:00.001+08:00

i just woke up and i was too bored.. and after reading Fangming and Xiuli's blog.. i decided to give it a try too.. haha.. since nothing to do.

Name: Vanessa
Date: 6/3/2009
Colorgenics Number: 51437026

You are longing for some love and affection at this time - not that you have been deprived of tender loving care - but there are times when everyone needs to try something new or to go 'somewhere' else to perhaps experience that little extra 'understanding'.

Of late, everything seems to be going so slowly - far slower than you anticipated - and this is causing you much anxiety and frustration. It would appear that there is little you can do about the series of events that now seem to be taking place. In spite of the fact that you feel like 'giving up' - don't. Take a deep breath and start over again and you will find that eventually the expression 'All's well that ends well' will have an extra special meaning for you.

Compromise is the name of the game at this time and it is the only way you can avoid being deprived of the love and affection you so rightly deserve -so soften up a little, be flexible.

You are trying to prove yourself - not only to yourself but also to everyone around you. There is much that you would like to say and do but the situation warrants self-restraint and that is the last thing that you have on your mind. It would seem that you have an unsatisfied need to ally yourself with others whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to stand out from the crowd. This is subjecting you to considerable stress but you tend to stick to your attitudes despite lack of appreciation. Of course, you are finding the situation uncomfortable and would like nothing better but to break away from it but you don't like the idea of compromise. Your main problem is that you are unable to resolve the situation because you continually postpone making the necessary decisions. You feel that if you make the wrong choice this would lead to such opposition that you would not be able to command the esteem of others. It is essential that those around you are prepared to comply with your wishes.

You are greatly impressed by individuality and have interest in people who have outstanding qualities. You try to imitate those people that you admire and their characteristics, hoping that you will be able to display similar qualities in your own personality.

CGL's Wedding Anniversary

2009-06-03T23:10:00.000+08:00

ytd as i was working so i cant go down to meet the CG at 9.30pm at level 4 for the Leader's meeting to end.. so i was telling myself.. if by the time i reach jurong and the leader meeting has ended, i shall not find my CGLs and CG le.. i will go home straight.. but then when i reach Jurong.. i called Kelvin.. then he was like Leader's meeting has not ended.. so went to church level 4 to find my CG..

W360 with Wuay Boon's car.

the surprise we did and we left it on the wind screen and went to hide..

while waiting for our CGLs at B2.. haha.. ushers support area.. and we decided to be ah lians and ah bengs. :P

cool rite? ha

we waited till dunno wat to do le... haha

target 1 appeared..

look at my leaders' face.. they are totally caught and totally surprise.. haha.. you know why?? the leaders' meeting ended like 11plus and we are still there.. haha.. and of course.. they also wondering how come we know the date?? haha..

Shannon is giving the wow!! this time i am really surprised by you guys.. haha.. cos there were a few times that we tried to surprise our leaders but then somehow i dunno how it happen.. they know it.. -_-''' so finally our CG has succeeded..

W360 with our CGLs.. this is not the whole CG.. there are still others not there..

then after tat.. Jasmine, Kelvin, Taige, See Kiang and myself went over to 2nd best to fellowship with my CGLs.. the rest left cos they need to work the next day and stuff cos very late le.. so we went to eat supper.. wa.. sinful lo.. but then lucky not everyday :P anyway, our CGLs blessed us the supper.. hee hee.. then after tat, went home.. bath and playing FB again while waiting for shelin to call me.. then went down to collect the office key from her.. cos she brought it home and we chat at my place downstairs till about 2plus lor.. haha.. then went home KO!!

Ubin Cycling

2009-06-02T01:40:00.003+08:00

today went to ubin with a friend.. it's has been a long long time since i actually cycled for so long after myknee injury?? and today it's like i tried my best.. till certain slopes i cant conquer due to my knee.. but then if i will try first.. if not then i will stop halfway...

oh ya.. i rented this new mountain bike that has speed.. and i really love to ride the bike.. so i told the uncle to help me to reserve and i will come and get it on sunday.. hee.. book my bike first.. anyway, tested already :P

today, i covered cycling ubin and found not only shortcuts but also alternative routes to other places.. example.. from South.. there is a shortcut to cut to west?? haha.. and the weather was super hot today?? till now.. i still can feel my face burning?? haha.. ops.. this time round.. i realised i have no mosquito bites but instead lots of cuts?? haha.. dun even know where did i get them... but nvm la.. doesnt hurt at all?? haha..

our first stop... Pekan Quarry

then we cycled up to noordin.. and then we went to this place... my ex-home..now that i have already passed the age.. dun need i can ever get a chance to step into this place.. my campsite.. i miss it lots..

then we headed to Chek Jawa to feed cookie.. then stayed there for about 30mins.. then we continued our cycling...

then we headed to Mamam Beach.. where we see the white rabbits.. and from there when we exit..

then we cycled up Ketam Mountain Bike Park.. and we actually need to pass MCC.. and i was like wow!! this is my childhood favourite place to play.. but then when i grow older.. i couldnt find the place and i found it again.. haha.. :P

then after tat, went to my grandparents' place for dinner...
i thought i was really beat tired but then i wasnt.. haha..
it's 2am and i am still awake.. haha.. guess must be becos I was talking to Nikki on the phone just now.. that why.. haha.. she made me awake.. haha..

better go and catch some rest.. tml still gt to work :)

G1112 Fellowship

2009-05-31T01:53:00.003+08:00

ytd after i reach home.. wanted to blog about churchwide BS but then i guess i was too tired le.. anyway, it was awesome.. being in God's presence is something that nothing can exchange it for..

today Hotel 2 again.. hmm.. but dunno if i didnt prepare well or wat.. starting wasnt really good and i actually blasted at some of the ushers.. i felt so bad.. but then i actually called for a debrief and apologise too. :) if you are one of the ushers that i scolded and you are reading this.. once again.. sorry.. shouldnt have blasted? haha. ops. but still i was very happy about today's duty.

Trinity really stepped out of the comfort zone.. haha.. it is like 2 weeks ago when i was hotel 2 and she was doing alpha.. whenever i ask her questions... she couldnt answer and need to find her ushers to check out and stuff.. today.. not only she can answer any questions that i post and plus i heard her like asking her ushers... you confirm.. you wan to double check?? then i was like WOW!! I was totally impress!!

after service, went to meet Shannon to talk about "Lost in Ubin" cool!! back to my 3nd place i called home... then after tat went to do Oscar.. by the time we finished... we are already starving.. and before that.. wan yun called me.. so some oof them will go jurong point to queue up first :) then we will join them after tat.. then Aloy called me.. but then by the time i ended, guess cg has gone off so didnt call them... then drove 81(Adeline), Jasmine, Kenrus, Yoong Tian, Emily, You Mei to Jurong Point.. then we went to meet up with Wan Yun, Yong Hui, Alan, Liang Kai, Xin Yi at Lai Lai Beef Noodle.. at first was just normal chatting.. then i dunno how did the topic went on to Logis.. then it is asking how come i am still not in Logis?? haha.. then Yong Hui went to ask You Mei for approval of me and Layhwa to go Logis dept.. hmm.. then after tat, as we were talking about Logis stuff..saying Kenrus dun have the logis look and i have the logis look then

81(adeline): wait.. i dun remember her(pointing at me) in logis.
me: i am not in logis ar..
Emily: HUH!! you are not in logis??
me: no.. i am not in logis.. haha..
Yong Hui & Alan: see, you have the logis look
*everyone started laughing leaving me with the -_-''' face*

then after tat we started to talk about BLTC.. how much we have really enjoyed those lessons.. and i didnt realised that Jurong is named the "Cry Babies" haha.. cos everyweek, we simply knee and cry when we are in God's presence.. feeling so loved by Him once again. Praising Him and worshipping Him are things ushers cant do during service especially SET holders? Only during BLTC, we can forget everything beside us and just focus on Jesus. Becos Ushers being Ushers, even if we are sitting, not serving, we will help out or just help around?? haha.. Then they were saying that maybe will have ALTC (Advance Leadership Training Course) and we are all very excited.. yippy!! then i was like introducing Alan.. pointing to Wan Yun, this is my UM1 CGL(non-exist).. haha.. then Yong Hui was like but UM1 this CG really did exist before... so then Kenrus suggested USH1.. haha.. then Wan Yun will be our CGL..haha..

then we are like saying.. actually sometimes, we really hope to be in the Ministry CG because of our heavy commitment in our ministry, we hardly meet up with the CG, let alone sitting with them. Moreover, during service, we will be serving? So at times, we really felt tired and left out no matter how much we try becos we cant be there to fellow with them. Some will then start to feel dry. We chat alot but some i forgot le.. haha..

then Wan Yun was saying tat G12 will have a "Group Leaders CGM".. then i was telling wanyun dun abandon me.. becos maybe You Mei not free?? haha.. then she was like okie.. cos i am still a
growing tree, I need nutrients too.. haha..

Buffet Dinner at Kushinbo with G1112 & Trainers

2009-05-29T01:15:00.011+08:00

today supposed to wake up in the morning to go for SOT and meet up with Rhys and Kenneth at marine square de? but then i think ytd.. not enough food in my stomach to contain the liquor... i was up with my stomach stirring.. pain pain.. so drank some hot tea and went back to sleep...

by then too late so in the end.. didnt go down.. then drove down to SP to pick up xinyi and went to suntec mac to fellowship... we started to share some secrets... ops.. haha.. while waiting for 6.30pm to meet the rest for a big feast.

we had lots of fun at our big feast.. and we went wild.. haha.. for the first time having dinner with beatrice.. it seems fun and not stress at all.. and I guess it's BLTC that had changed all.. now that we dare to approach them better rather than only when we serve or only when it's necessary then we talk to them.. the amount of food we ate were crazy... haha.. and it will shocked people too?? haha

here are some of the photos... glam.. unglam..

The pens I made for them :) long awaited.. now G1112 has new notebook and a new pen :P

Me and wan yun

we are enjoying our crabs and i am simply obsessed with it le.. haha

Jasmine's started her crab feast too...

Beatrice enjoying the food :)

jermaine, sharon, xinyi.. find this photo quite nice..

trinity, jasmine(MRG), Jermaine(piggy)

Me, wanyun and Beatrice.. whahaha

outside Kushinbo...

then as we are almost finishing the food.. we started talking about ministry and stuff.. and asking wan yun to be CGL.. haha. then we came up with an invisible CG name.. UM1.. haha.Beatrice commented that I ate too much till wire sot le.. haha.

we were like imagining.. Future Usher Ministry Pastor will be Pastor Beatrice.. haha..
then we can have UM1..
CGL: Wan Yun
Members: Xinyi - volunteer to take games
Sharon - volunteer to take offering msg, say grace for food (praying to be UM2 CGL)
Van - volunteer to be CGC to collect forecast
Pin De - Get him to be our guitarist
Trinity - our treasurer
Layhwa - volunteer to be birthday cordinator & fellowship refreshment..

super funny la.. Beatrice and wan yun was like the way you all say it as though it is like happening.. haha.. it was just for fun la.. quite fun leh.. haha.. then
Beatrice said :
Jasmine make refreshment
Pei Fen take refreshment
Wan Yun eat refreshment

hahahahhahahaha... lots of funny funny jokes... then i was like requesting for week 4.. when i serve in Expo for Song of Solomon BS.. can i serve stage usher?? haha.. i promised to go early to wash tumblers.. then she say can.. you can go early to help to wash and prepare.. then get your set for Charlie 1 or Charlie 2? -_-'''

then after tat, can you imagine my car squeeze in Pei Fen, Jermaine, Trinity, Sharon, Xinyi Layhwa and myself as the driver.. haha. wow!!

anyway i felt that BLTC has really not only allowed me to get to know more friends.. and our friendship got closer and eventually now going out together to fellowship.. knowing each other better and even sharing secrets.. I simply just made me miss BLTC even more.. hoping for a Part 2.

~ looking forward to 2 weeks later, we are heading for TIMBRE ~
this time brothers are allow too :P
for now, looking forward in meeting EG on 4th June!!!

Angels and Demons

2009-05-27T01:16:00.003+08:00

this morning was awaken by Dorcas cos Jennifer will be going down to SOT to solve some problem then then i went down and Jennifer actually explained the whole system to me.. and so that i can do changes to the program.. thurs shall go and finish what i miss out :)

went to watch Angels and Demons with Fang Ming and Xiuli just now..

it is a very interesting movie.. Looking at how Romans are like and wat Catholics church are like.. it just made me want to go and read up more about Catholics.. i felt the whole topic very interesting.. how the arrows and the symbols.. maybe shall go and read up more on it.. haha..

anyway, then went to eat Long John Silver.. and we had a great time laughing... all the jokes and everything all out... our weird thoughts... weird defination.. haha.. then after tat, we decided to go PageOne.. going there to see if we can get any interesting book.. but i guess.. when you go with book lovers to such place... wa.. you are prepared to spend a bomb??? haha.. we simply bought books tat are super weird?? haha.. not novels.. but more about other things like science and mathamatics?? hahaha..

after tat, we realised that it was 8pm already so we quickly made payment and rush down to MPC to get our book covers.. haha.. it was super interesting lor.. then after that they were like.. wa.. 3 of u come down just to get book covers?? haha :P ya.. and we spend about $300 on those books... me being me... i cant dun spend on clothes but i cant dun spend on books? :P

anyway, thought of reading but then i guess i should go and sleep le.. my eyes are closing... guess not enough sleep cos i couldnt sleep last nite..

~ i cant wait for thurs.. sisters dinner ~

BLTC Lesson 6 - ACU washed our feet?

2009-05-25T00:59:00.009+08:00

As today was our last lesson for BLTC and I thought of making something for my fellow classmates that went through this 6 lessons with me.. We cried together, had fun together, fellowship together. I reallyed enjoyed those time and just felt want to do something unique to bless them and remind them we are once in this class together. So I bought notebooks and did this.. I got Layhwa to take a photo of it and send it to me cos I forgot to take before I gave them just now.. Though I didnt sleep the whole nite to rush through these books but then i believe they worth my time. :)

I did it for G11 and of course G12.. lovely Sat JW Usher :P

Today, our trainer was none other than Beatrice... As today is our 6th Lesson and also marked to the end of the course but we are still having 3 months of probation.

Today, we learn how to be a Happy Leader?

LEAD WITH A SERVANT HEART
EQ
ATTITUDE, ACCOUNTABILITY,AVAILABILITY
DETERMATION AND TENACITY
EAGER TO LISTEN
REFRESH DAILY IN THE LORD

As Leaders, we should also
1. Learn how to manage our expectation towards the ushers.
2. Focus on the Positive
3. Be Confidence in ourselves

Taken from John 13:1 - 5

Jesus Washes the Disciples' Feet
1 Now before the Feast of the Passover, when Jesus knew that His hour had come that He should depart from this world to the Father, having loved His own who were in the world, He loved them to the end.
2 And supper being ended, the devil having already put it into the heart of Judas Iscariot, Simon's son, to betray Him,
3 Jesus, knowing that the Father had given all things into His hands, and that He had come from God and was going to God,
4 rose from supper and laid aside His garments, took a towel and girded Himself.
5 After that, He poured water into a basin and began to wash the disciples' feet, and to wipe them with the towel with which He was girded.

today just before the lesson ended, Beatrice was sharing about Jesus washing the feet of the Disciples.. and then.. pails and pails of water came in. They were going to wash our feets today as Jesus has washed the feets of his disciples. Beatrice started washing the feets of Jurong SL.. after that followed by us..

G11 -Beatrice
G12 - Wan Yun
G15 - Ivory
G16 - Pei Fen

Though this passage is very familiar to me.. but I have never expected a ACU(Assisant Chief Usher cum church staff) to wash my feets and today she really did. I felt so much like the disciples. It takes so much of their prides down just to do that? When Beatrice was washing my feets, she told me lots of things and one part was "sometimes, I am really trying very hard but let God be God" thought Beatrice is not in Jurong serving with us but then I am amazed by the things she knew. As she was speaking, tears simply flow down my cheeks.. and when she hugged me.. I guessed I really wet her shirt? haha.. she was still encourging me "Vanessa, you can do it". After tat, I knee brokenly before God weeping for there are so many times that I wanted to give up because I am tired because I am feeling discouraged but He has never let me go. For some reasons, tears just flow.. then after tat, the trainers prayed to impart us and when Ivory was praying for me.. tears just flow again.. when she was praying for my family. Yes.. i did have some arguement with my parents but I have not shared with anyone except for my ai ren.. but today God showed me how real he is once again.

During lesson today, we decided to have brothers sitting first row while sisters take 2nd row and it is so used to it that we LOVE squeezing?? haha
can you imagine Beatrice was teaching halfway.
Beatrice: Vanessa, are you very cold
Me: no
Beatrice: then why you all squeeze till like that when there are still some more seats
Me: we simply love each other too much and we cant squeeze during service. haha
Beatrice was like 你们赢了.. then continue teaching

After tat, we showed the leaders a special video by Jurong Ushers and then followed by celebrating Beatrice's Birthday today!! I used to think that she is very fierce but after getting to know her in BLTC.. it seems like she is more approachable. After we left the room, when we are in level 4 cafateria area, we started to sing song to Beatrice and enjoying ourselves till we started singing "Tat's what friends are for" when all the trainers joined in together with us. Then we sang ‘对面的Beatrice看过来” and then we started singing "You are my sunshine" to the trainers.. guess all of us really enjoyed those lessons and we are simply who we are.

A Usher family that is having fun together. Having the same goal and vision.
Having the same golden rule "SMILE!"

then we went to 2nd best for last sinful time of fellowship...
we had Laska, Fried Oyster Egg and Rojak.. haha.. see.. sinful rite? But then we are only sinful like on Sunday nite after a long crying sessions... Worshipping sessions... finally to 2nd best to enjoy ourselves?? haha.

Below is something that I would like to share and some message to the fellow trainers if they ever get a chance to read: -

Honestly, when You Mei first told me that she didnt sign me up for the class but I can go there and be a special student for the first lesson. I went. I thought it was going to be operational so just to go there to have fun but when Jeff shared the message, I was blown away. In order to have JOY - We need to put Jesus, Others then Us. I told You Mei i wanted to attend the classes and I promised that I will take the lessons seriously and in fact, I kept my word, I went for every single lesson without fail. These lessons not only renew my life but also changed my mindset. Every single lesson was explosive, encouraging and simply always remind us no matter what we do, always look back to Jesus. What's more? I believe that if you know that as Ushers, we hardly had time to Praise and Worship during service let alone Leaders but during BLTC, we simply come together as ushers to Praise and Worship God. To stay in God's presence. Allow the Holy Spirit to show us our dreams and visions again.

To Ren Jie:
When you taught about Unity in Lesson 4. I was shocked because that very week, I was actually feeling disappointed and I told Layhwa that I am tired. I just feel like giving up welfare and thoughts of giving up unite-ing my section and group because it's tiring. I dun have anymore energy. And you shared about Unity, about your section 7. It then remind me of 4S5. My first section, we are so much like a family and it's because someone took the lead and the rest followed and bring in more ushers to join us. God then showed me once again why i am placed in Jurong to impact and let another section be so close like a family. God loves unity and only when there is unity, then will bring teamwork. It just encouraged me to carry on trying till I sucess. Thank you.

To Pei Fen:
Last week's sharing session was indeed a good one. When I was feeling low and lost when my godpa went back to the Lord, at that time even though I wasnt really close to you or in fact you are my SL for a few weeks and at the same time you just lost your father but you actually came to share your story with me and even spend time to talk to me and help me to stand up on my feet again. Pei Fen, thank for all the sharing and for the whole week, the words that I kept deeply in my heart is "keep on walking and keep on walking".

To Beatrice:
Thank you for all the encouragement that you have given to me for the past 6 weeks. And today, when you washed my feets, so much of me wanted to say I am not worth for you are a ACU? But yet, you still did. It's hard to wash the feets of others especially when we are not the same level but you did. I am lost for words but then Every word that you said, I will keep it in my heart. I know each time when I feel discourage, your words will appear to me.

Though BLTC has ended but then it's just another begining of our usher life. :)

I just want to thank all the trainers for always rushing down from expo and I truely enjoyed all the lessons. Tranforming Lessons.. Always felt refresh and recharge after every lesson :)

Li Zhi 19th Birthday

2009-05-22T03:10:00.003+08:00

well.. let's talk about ytd.. went to seoul garden to celebrate li zhi's birthday... then somehow ushers being usher.. cannot sit down de leh.. must walk here and there.. wat's more she is sitting in front of me.. keep moving.. aiyo.. then after that.. i was like hmm.. i give you 5 mins minutes and i will remove the empty seats.. haha.. then after tat, xin yi came.. so layhwa change seat then i sat with xin yi... and now worse.. continuously for 2 hours.. li zhi has been saying she wan to be stage usher till xinyi and i were like..

Xin Yi(Hotel 1 alpha): Hotel 1 alpha to Hotel 1
Van (hotel 1) : sent
Xin Yi(Hotel 1 alpha): Hotel 1 ar.. can you check wat is outside the hall making so much noise
Van(hotel 1): roger that.
Van(hotel 1): hotel 1 to hotel 4
Layhwa(hotel 4): sent
Van(hotel 1): hotel 4, can you check what is behind the door, how come i hear alien sound?
Layhwa(hotel 4): roger tat
Xin Yi(hotel 1 alpha): Security security
Jun Xiang(security): security off net.. not free

we kept changing till li zhi cannot tahan.. but she still continue and i have no choice.. i called wanyun instead.. haha.. guess she got wat she wanted.. stage usher.. haix..

there are some of the photos.. lazy to post all cos it is like 3:22am?? :P

with li zhi's friend.. cg member.. all mixed le la..

even taking the photo.. xinyi is still holding her self made ice-kacang.. ready to find time to eat the moment she has a chance..

you have seen people using cup.. glasses... but then how about going back to the older days.. when we are using bowls?? hahaha..

just now after work.. supposed to head home.. but then in the end.. halfway, called nat and she say she will be going down to Ray's grandma's wake so i went to cityhall to meet her.. then we went to fetch eugene... then went down to the wake.. we chat for quite a while till about 12plus le.. then rachel send us home.. then send me home.. cos i wanted to change before meeting them again.. while they waited for me downstairs.. then when i reach home.. my mum was like.. did you call home? then i was no?? for wat? then she nag she cannot sleep and stuff... then supposed to meet ray and rach for supper and stay over at their place.. becos not possible le.. haix.. but then still talked to Ray alot?

It is always great fellowship with them cos when i am down, i know they will be able to encourage me.. just like wat i feel about my team.. just like a JUNGLE!! and guess, i just need to let God lead me through.. :)

another thing that i heard da jie will be leaving 4S5, apart of me felt sad and lost... each time when we talk about 4S5, da jie will be associated with it.. now, no longer the same... haix... to be continue somewhere... and someday it might be reveal...

some thoughts

2009-05-20T01:37:00.003+08:00

i guess i am tired and i had a great time having conference call with my CGC just now.. after praying... we simply started to share our daily life and though it is only 2 days.. but i really start to feel the bond.. that we want to talk to each other and share... Communication is always the key to start off... and today.. our connect group actually fasted for 12hours.. and the night before.. they were like say oh ok... and just now when we were having conference call, actually they commented that they hope i didnt ask for 12hours fast cos they always have gastric pain halfway so could not fast all the way.. but then I prayed that God will take away all the temptation that we are going to have.. and help us to lean on His strength and not our strength.. guess wat? i am proud to say.. my connect group completed the 12 hours fast.. hee hee..

Actually, when Ren Jie shared about UNITY last week during BLTC.. there is a burden in my heart.. how can i make my section close?? and if fact our section is so small then how to make G11 close? at times, i really lost ideas... honestly.. before sunday's BLTC lesson... i really have thoughts of giving up whatever I am doing?? I always feel that no matter where we are.. we need to have unity.. but then i dunno how others feel?? even till now... i am thinking how how how??? but then again? maybe i am been too ambitious about it?? I should have start off with my team? and holding on too much... i may lost my balance?? haha.. I dunno la.. *hidden words in my heart... wonder if these words will be revealed? but then i guess i will keep it to myself till then..

arrgg.. dun feel like writing already.. the more i type.. the more i am getting frustrated.. nah.. dun wan to think about it le.. nites.

Back to work after MC for 2 Days

2009-05-19T01:14:00.003+08:00

today, finally i am back to work.. but then guess the medication was really strong... i felt super sleepy at work.. cos partly nothing to do?? so after dinner.. i ended up went to english dept to help Dino instead cos i was really too bored and i was almost falling asleep in the receiving room...

just now my cgc called me and we had our conference prayer time and our sharing session.. it seems like we had lots to share.. our experiences and wat we went through.. then halfway, i receive a mms from ku ku and i open the file.. guess wat?? it's E-Jean xiao ku's baby.. she just came birth.. so now i have a OFFICAL ANG MO cousin and she will be coming back to Singapore and I will be able to see my ANG MO cousin.. so excited la.. haha..

is my cousin cute?? looking at him... he is sleeping so peacefully.. no worries.. wonder if he will look handsome as he grow older?? hahaha..

okie la.. better go and sleep le.. cos my medication is taking it's effect.. means i will feel sleepy..

BLTC Lesson 5

2009-05-18T00:14:00.004+08:00

today will be the 2nd last lesson on our BLTC before we graduate the course.. today was really a great session and i realise as we see each other week after week.. we really became closer...

today's lesson was taken by Jeff.. about love and hope..
honestly, during the worship... i dunno wat happen.. i simply dun feel anything but then i know myself.. there is something within me that stopping myself from moving forward.. in fact.. spiritually.. i am starting to feel dry... after the message.. i decided not to focus on the music.. but just on Jesus alone.. and soon.. tears simply flow...

as Beatrice was praying for me... God seems so real as He really know everything.. it was so accurate of my thoughts and my dry-ness... in fact.. i realised that after working in popular.. i seems to be so busy that sometimes i dun have time for long prayer or bible reading becos by the time i reach home.. i am drained and worn out le... i really cried alot tonite.. God is even more real than before.. as i didnt share anything about this struggle part of my life.. but then yet.. when Beatrice prayed.. seems like getting bull eye for every shot..

after the class has ended.. Pei Fen talked to Jermaine, Layhwa and myself and she wan to encourage us.. and when she talked about her Father passing away and people around her the supports.. and i realised that how much fellowship we need and friendship we need from our peeps.. it is only then we can help each other stand up when one falls.. then after that 3 of us had our own sharing sessions.. and it's simply great.. then having our dear jermaine who starts to feel hungry was screaming away of wanting to eat oyster egg and rojak.. so we went to 2nd best to carry on our fellowship... then sharon and xinyi and lizhi called.. so they came to join us for fellowship and dinner..

this is how sinful our food is... haha.. but after a great cry.. we will naturally feel hungry... haha.. then and we are going to have a sisters BLTC outing soon.. plan by us.. haha.. ;P looking forward to it.. and i realised i really sharing alots of thoughts and things to the 2 Js.. haha..

actually after we left 2nd best.. wanted to continue to fellowship but then when i reach home.. i realised i dun have the car at home to send both of them back.. so aiya.. shall walked them back and fellowship...

hey.. we should have more sharing sessions k?? even after we end BLTC.. we should continue to share?? (you know who i mean de la)

after i reach home.. i had a long conference call with my cgc.. and it was a great time of sharing and it just encourages me again... like how i encourage them.. so i believe we can do it.. and if my leaders can do it.. SO CAN I!!

Passed Hotel 2 lo

2009-05-16T23:09:00.002+08:00

today was MC from work.. after sleeping through.. i still think i should go church? so went to church.. today?

hotel 2 today... when we are preparing the hall.. then hotel 1 com me.. how come your alpha bulletins not laid.. and i was shocked and guess wat? my reply was.. roger roger.. i go and check it out now.. and this is exactly the same thing in our script?? haha.. then after tat, i heard someone comming hotel 4.. how come the curtains still not hooked.. then again.. i was like -_-''

but then today was a great service and i asked you mei.. she say ya.. consider pass le.. haha.. yippy!!

then after service.. went for oscar then went to Ivory's place downstairs to eat... actually wanted to go IMM de.. since we have 2 cars.. jia sheng and myself.. but then IMM's carpark too many cars le?? so we went to Ivory's place there to eat lor.. wa.. not bad leh.. the food.. quite nice.. and we only paid about $11 per person?? and it was a great time hanging out.. and Jasmine, Jermaine and i drank teh peng.. omg!! it has make the matter worse.. cos we get high?? haha.. so in the end.. we started to go alittle crazy?? :P

oh ya.. forgot to mention.. the people who were there..
- kenrus
- trinity
- layhwa
- jermaine
-you mei
- joshua
- emily
- jia sheng
- xinyi
- myself..
10 of us... haha.. we had lots of fun..

looking forward to our next serving together... :P and fellowship.. tml going to have BLTC lesson again.. yippy.. but at the same time sad as tml will be the 2nd last lesson le..

haix.. going to sleep to go for service tml.. nitez..

tired of working

2009-05-16T00:19:00.002+08:00

hmm.. for the past 2 days.. to many unpleasant things are happening at work place.. and i am really considering whether to tender my resignation earlier?? i dunno what is wrong with me.. but then i start to feel the sian-ness going to work everyday?? imagine having to meet irritating customers that the things are in front of you and you still gt the cheek to ask where is it??

to face the irritating manager that talks about 1 stuff but in the end do anything thing.. and when he is not happy with you.. he simply finds fault with you the whole day?? whether you are sick anot?? HQ talks about TEAMWORK! my foot ar.. where gt teamwork? i only see teamwork within the staff in shopfloor.. you people only sit inside the office to drink coffee.. read newspaper and watch CCTV.. have you ever tried handling these customers yourself?? i bet no..

now i get it.. no wonder all the customers have the same style.. if i cant get what i wan.. just ask to see the manager and confirm i can get it.. haha. so managers are the angels.. and the shopfloor are the devils.. becos you told us cannot.. we tell customers cannot.. customer request to see manager.. wOW!! from cannot also turn into can..

this is how service line in Singapore is??

Cycling at Ubin with Fang Ming & Xiu Li

2009-05-13T01:21:00.005+08:00

today went to Simei to meet up with fang ming and xiu li to go Ubin for cycling.. wa.. it has been so long since i have been to ubin to cycle.. on the bus... i think xiuli saw something very funny.. so we started laughing and somehow the topic was then side track...

then went to rent our bikes then started to cycle.. i guess i really need to exercise alot le.. since i started to work in Marine Parade Popular.. i hasnt gt anytime to exercise and it seems like today it proved it all.. for simple slope.. i still able to cycle but then beyond that.. i will have problem cos i guess not enough stamina le.. haix.. getting old.. then we went to chek jawa and walked down the path to mangrove but then halfway only.. and we just sat there for quite long to stay under the sun and to watch the plane fly past.. and some talks... oh ya.. and i actually used water to splash fangming after something she said.. haha..

then we decided to go and find cookie.. and heard from Raj, the security... within this week, there will be people coming to actually put cookie and max to sleep but then max is taken care by the night guard le.. so only left with cookie and he doesnt want to leave the information kisok.. even though i tried bashing in... and chase him off.. eventually he came back... though i dun see him often.. maybe once in a blue moon when i go to ubin but then as a dog lover, you simply feel super lousy?? knowing that he is a nice dog and healthy but yet we cant do anything to help him to escape to have a longer life.. after xiuli heard about the news... she cried.. and disappeared.. so fm and i went to find her... but then both of us.. our hearts are heavy... we tried to help but our ways are limited and seems like cookie knows what is going on... he wouldnt allow anyone to go near to him..

today, i think most of the time we are like sitting down near the sea.. then after tat, decided to head back as we need to return the bikes by 6pm.. then we cycle back.. halfway, i was attacked by wild boar la.. idiot.. so i had scratches on my leg but then still not that bad la.. then when we reach Npark hub.. xl's friend asked if we wanted to drink coconut so he can ask his contractor to like cut it for us.. so ended up we are like each one a coconunt to drink...

my ai ren's unglam photo.. haha :p

she was like competing with me to see who can finish the coconut drink first and i was like okie lor.. in the end. she lost.. and she blame that it's not fair becos her coconut is bigger than mine.. -_-'''

then we took the ferry back to mainland.. on the boat, there was this couple that was standing at the end of the boat.. then the girl was in front and the guy was standing behind her.. holding her.. the first time i told fm and xl is titanic... then fm added on should we like on the music for them.. then we started to say some funny stuff.. dunno if the couple actually realised that we are talking about them?? haha..

after tat, took 9 back to east point cos there is MRT there.. then as we had drink too much coconut, we wanted to go EP for doctor.. when fm trying to come into the EP, the door actually closed.. so we were like fighting over who will be alien and who will be the monster.. haha. :P and does the door dun like monster or alien... anyway, going to sleep le.. and i had fun today.

BBPS Gathering

2009-05-10T23:53:00.003+08:00

I had Primary School Gathering on 8th.. which is last friday.. wow!! it was power!! i mean i have known some of them for like 15 years?? haha.. cos we have been in the same class for since Primary 1... anyway, we went for sakae dinner and headed down to OBAR after dinner... i was quite tired de.. but then decided to go anyway cos it was like Primary School Gathering.. and i dun think they will let me off easily?? haha.. so ya.. yesH! i dun deny that we drank and dance... haha.. and of course we took lots and lots of photos..

you know something... some of us graduated from this class called 6 Hope.. and on our 1st paper of the PSLE in 1999... there is this malay teacher walked in and scolded us for being noisy just before the paper and guess wat? the next moment she said "6 Hope ar? really no hope already" if you dun believe ask people in this class.. haha.. but yet.. too bad.. all of us did had hope... in fact.. most of us are Diploma Holders already... and we said that if we see her one day.. we will tell her.. we are once the hopeless students that you called.. haha

I have 2 glasses of Shots and I cant actually remember how much I drank but then one thing i am sure was that i wasnt drunk... i was still super alert? i think everyone was okie except for Daphe ba.. but i guess she is okie cos Colinn send her back...

as there are too many photos.. therefore.. if you wan to see those photos... you can go to my facebook.. haha.. i have post all the photos there :)

BLTC Lesson 4 & 1st BLTC Outing

2009-05-10T22:59:00.005+08:00

today, we had BLTC lesson 4.. though i guess i said more than once.. but then i still wan to say it.. I did not regret going for BLTC... today's lesson was taken by Yong Hui and Ren Jie.. there are 1 thing that i actually got tired of doing and I was telling Layhwa not to tell anyone ytd.. but then i guess God was there?? hahaha.. and today's msg was indeed wat i was discouraged on?

Yong Hui's msg was what i really need to think about and think over certain things.. but today i was like woW!! Ren Jie was talking about Unity today whether in a team, Section or Group..

Unity can never be based on individual strength..

How to build Unity:

1. Takes Effort
- Spending quanlity time
- Efforts can be seen
- it takes 2 hands to clap

2. Sensitive
- we need to be sensitive to others' needs
- relationship is fragile just like unity.. once there is a cut or a wound, it takes time to recover

3. God needs to be in the picture.

As Renjie was sharing about his section 7.. how not united and belong united... i was already controlling my tears not to flow... cos i thought of 4S5.. i came from a not united section which become the whole united section that we call ourselves family... every week going for support was a enjoyable... serving together seems great... i was never complaining about having to wake up at 5am to reach expo at 7am to serve because i was to meet 4S5.. my SL - Huiming, my TL - Belinda, my 4S5Charming, most of all EG... flashes simply kept appearing in my mind... as we move into worship... i just knee down before God and simply cried becos tat's how real our God is.. i have never told anyone that I am tired of being welfare IC.. becos of some reasons which i will kept it to myself.. but then yet.. i only told Layhwa ytd.. today I was encourage to PRESS ON!! let it be my new GOAL once again!!

GOD HAS PLACED ME IN GROUP 11 FOR A REASON
LET 4S5'S GLORY & UNITY BE A MEMORY TO ME
&
LET 11S1 BE MY NEW FAMILY THAT UNITE AS 1 SECTION

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Ytd was our first BLTC outing.. and i think all of us enjoyed it.. if there is a chance... i will post our video up here.. haha.. cos even if i paste our script here.. i dun think you will understand unless you watch it.. :) oh ya.. we gt the BEST PERFORMANCE AWARD!!
haha.. i guess it's really the effort that all of us put in together as 1 group :)

WE Serve

Group 11 BLTC and 84.. I guess not for being in 84's "chui" team, i dun think i can just say chui so well lor.. haha..

us and Yong Hui... our BLTC Group 11's mentor... really thank him for the great ideas and make the whole serve musical a even better one.. :)

BLTC Lesson 3

2009-05-04T01:42:00.003+08:00

YESH!! it's Sunday and I am back blogging about my lesson.. haha.. honestly, I really wan to thank God that I made a right decision to go for this series of lessons.. every single week.. the SLs never fail to encourage us... After the class, you simply felt so refresh and woW!! this is like the times when i was having SOT lessons.. it's lessons that you look forward to every week... yes.. some of the things i might have have known but then it' always when we get busy, we start to nelgect those things.. and God refresh my mind today and he show me my inital plan for my ushers.. going to do something for them.. hee.. wat is it?? for me to know?? :P

it's always good to bless rite? :P
What does H.E.A.R.T means: where is your heart?? Helper Effort Accountability Revelation Team management

and today it's about communication... Communication is two-sided. It consists of emotions, feelings etc.. so you cant be possibly keep talking about yourself and forgot about the other party.. been a listener is good.. but how to be a good listener??

To be a good listener you need to:

1) Focus on the person
2) Unclog your ears
3) Listen Aggressively
4)Listen to understand
5) Reassure the speaker

then after lesson, group 11 gathered to talk about our performace... then we told Yong Hui about it.. then he was like okie.. quite interesting and we are going to practice on tues!! haha.. oh ya, i guess i might not be really music talented but then seems like i am able to write songs?? hahaha. it's a SECRET!! :) then after lesson, went to 2nd best coffee shop to eat.. with Layhwa, Jermaine, Jia Sheng, Kenrus, Trinity and Liang Kai... then we ordered Laksa, fried Oyster, Indian Rojak, Rojak, Poh Biah... everyone was eating happily but then at the same time we are complaining sinful.. hahaha.. cos it's like 10plus and we are like really enjoying ourself with the foood :P

here are some pictures.. doubt some of them know that i took the photo.. hahaha.

Our sinful food...

Is this China apple tea or just BEER?? haha

thinking carefully... wat to eat?/haha

2009-05-03T01:36:00.002+08:00

i think i say too much tonite le.. if you guys ever read this post... just pretend that wat i say just now is nonsense... that makes no sense okie? i will not elaborate further... cos i will feel guilty in the end.. so ya.. maybe i should just shut up and be silence till..... i..... think..... i..... can..... control..... myself..... or maybe i should disappear from you all then i will stop all the saying.. haha..

guess i am also tired le. nites.

Minds Cafe with CG today

2009-05-01T21:07:00.003+08:00

today went Minds cafe with my CG.. Wuayboon, Shannon, Giselle, Soo Eng, Penn, Raymond was playing 1 game.. then CK, Edward, Kelvin and I were playing another game.. then after tat, it came to playing taboo.. then we had really lots of laughter and jokes that went around.. then actually only 4 of us playing then ended up we decided that all of us should play together and decided to play taboo 2..

Group 1:
Wuay Boon
Shannon
Soo Eng
CK
Van

Group 2:
Yie Ping
Kelvin
Raymond
Giselle
Edward
Penn

it was a 5 vs 6.. so the first one we send out to describe was wuay boon...
and wuay boon cannot really act out the words and such.. then shannon got so "pissed off" in a funny way la.. then of of us are laughing out hearts out lor.. then they decided to send out Kelvin.. and Kelvin is good la.. so he managed to help his team get 9 points.. then after tat, i cannot take it le.. how can my team lost?? haha.. so i say i will do it.. and guess wat? power la.. i help my team to score 14 points?? haha.. then CK help our team score another 9 points?? and we won the game?? hahaha.. power rite? 14 points = 14 cards? hahaha.. Giselle was like you are super fast... hahaha..coming to games i can go crazy de la.. but then sian.. forgot to take photos today when i have camera in my bag.. -_-'''

okie la.. good nite.. time to sleep le.. cos tml cashier.. and all the best to my rebellious girl for Traffic.. i will pray for you de..

had fun today

2009-05-01T00:22:00.002+08:00

this morning woke up at 9am.. then was too tired then went back to sleep.. then till i receive ai ren's msg then i woke up and it was like i think 10 plus or wat le.. cant remember and i meeting my colleagues for movie today cos all of us are off today??

so went to meet them... there were like 9 of us?? power rite?
Dino, Suki, Rhys, Li Hui, Chiew Ling, Ro Ting, Xiao Ling.. we went to watch 17 again..

the show is quite nice and actually i wanted to watch it sometime back but then nvm.. i still managed to watch it in the end.. :) the show is comedy but yet at the same time touching on how he decided to walk the same path he has chosen to walk when he was 17.. and when he was 17 again.. he still walked the same path and did not regret it..

maybe even if we regret something... dun think about it but move on.. and look forward...

then after tat went to bbc.. wanted to disturb lihui and another HOD i guess from text dept de ba.. haha.. then went to walk around bugis new shopping centre then i left first cos going to kenrus's place.. :)

today supposed to meet G11 BLTC group 11 at kenrus's place.. which includes of 8 of us?
- Kenrus
- Trinity
- Berwin
- Pin De
- Lay Hwa
- Jermaine
- Jia Sheng
- Me

but then Pin De, Jermaine and Berwin cant make it.. but we still have to go on with the discussion.. we had a great time talking.. crapping.. coming up with the skit lor.. haha.. and honestly till now.. still very funny... guess with them... no matter whether i am in a lousy mood or not.. you guys can really still make me laugh.. and ended up.. we composed our own song.. haha.. super funny..

oh ya.. tml will be going to mind's cafe.. yippy!! hope going to be another fun day too :) well.. shall go and type of the skit and send to everyone ;)

~ no point forcing others what others dun wan to do cos it will only hurt the friendship ~

busy day!!

2009-04-28T00:38:00.003+08:00

hmm.. actually today i managed to do those things that i am supposed to do.. but been delaying them.. haha.. woke up super early like 9plus.. cos of msges coming in.. hmm.. actually i am quite a light sleeper so even if i am going to put vibration.. i will still wake up and reply and back to sleep.. unless i am really KO.. then i will wake up read and back to sleep.. and reply when i am awake.. haha.. so the best part is.. i dun feel irritated by friends who actually prank calls on me in the middle of the night to go toilet?? -_-'' but pls dun do it la.. i need my sleep.. haha..

anyway, this morning.. i send my C905 to SEH(Sony Ericsson Hospital) cos it was been mute for the past 1 week?? haha.. i think need to see psychologist.. haha.. lame.. cos my speaker is spoilt.. then went back to MPC.. off 3 days.. went back.. seems to be like as though having small meeting and sannie was complaining tat if shelin and i going to leave MPC in july.. she cant imagine her aug.. haha.. but then we need to study?? so dunno leh.. haix.. i can say.. she is one of my kindest supervisor ever?? though my sat and sun can be burnt due to the roadshow and stuff.. then she was telling me that dwarf has been complaining to her that among the part-timers.. sannie has the 2 best part-timers of all.. -_-''' pls la.. not so kua zhang?? dunno la.. tml going to have new ear-piece coming in.. maybe should ask boy to come and see.. haha.. my god-brother cum cousin.. haha.. he is just like my little brother... but then i want to complain... my dad is NOT FAIR!!! i gt nothing for my birthday and boy gt a NEW DESK TOP for his birthday.. -_-

then after settling my stuff.. went to bugis to find rhys, andy and roting.. haha.. i think first time going out with roting lo.. then they were at the arcade.. so then went out to call fm.. cos i was bored?? haha.. so was chatting on the phone with her?? while they are like walking around the whole bugis street trying to find a ATM?? haha..

we watched Friday the 13th.. and since i was on the phone.. so i didnt know what is the show about except that it's M18.. and i am supposed to buy the ticket.. but after watching the show.. i think it should be rated R21 instead.. haha.. the killing is just like house of wax but then the sexual part.. hmm... and rhys is like under age?? ops.. am i at fault? cos i bought the ticket?
i guess the show is not really nice afterall? the killings are predictable?? and he dun appear suddenly? you know where he is?? so i guess i will only rate it 1.5 out of 5?

then after the movie.. rhys and andy were hungry again.. so went to nearby coffeeshop to eat then headed home..

oh ya.. i forgot to mention.. Song Wee msg us today!! haha.. finally?? that we are going to have our first Primary School gathering for 2009 on 8th May.. yippy.. i simply miss them.. haha.. ya.. i am still very close to my pri sch friends.. amazing rite?? it has been like 10 years since we graduated from pri school?? and some of them.. has been in the same class since pri 1 so i have knew them for like 15 years and we are still so close.. hee.. May our friendship stay as long as ever.. :) maybe our teacher will be surprise that we are still keeping so close contact.. and you may say that aiya.. not a big deal.. maybe just few of you.. but then.. haha.. each time we meet up.. wow!! we can form a class le.. haha.. at least 20 will turn up? :)

okie la.. shall sleep early today.. good nite..

~ Jesus, make me your servant, an usher who serves everyone whether in church or outside church.. not to choose who to serve but to accept everyone that comes by my life ~

BLTC Lesson 2

2009-04-27T00:55:00.003+08:00

today we went through the D.I.S.C test and i realised that i was a high I and high S.. haha..

High I:
- Influence others through talking and activity and tend to be emotional.
- Described as convincing, magnetic, political, enthusiastic, persuasive, warm, demonstrative, trusting and optimistic.

High S:
- want a steady pace, security and do not like sudden change.
- Calm, relaxed, patient, posssessive, predictable, deliberate, stable, consistent and tend to be unemotional and poker faced.

then today, we finally know who will be our mentor? and for group 11.. our mentor is going to be... *drum roll*.. YONG HUI!! haha.. wow!! expect the unexpected to come.. since he is going to be our mentor.. going to really take this opportunity to learn as much i can from him.. his details and knowledge on things can really blow you off.. haha.. but also means that i need to humble myself and let go of all the pride and ego and to be teachable..

today i receive a msg from you mei to ask if i really want to attend the class.. then i was like abit of want and dunno.. but then finally i made a decision to go for the classes.. i lose nothing but then i will be able to gain things that i cant gain outside and of course gaining more fellowship :)

as jeff was talking... it is wat i called Group 11 + 12.. the love of taking photos is out.. haha..
here there are... we are going to take more and more photos.. yippy!!

with wanyun..

the sisters in the toilet.. haha.. we are simply amazing.. we can just take photos anywhere :P

"What are you born to do?"

2009-04-26T05:26:00.002+08:00

I have not slept yet at this time becos of certain reasons.. well.. wat is the reason?? nvm.. dun need to know.. dun need to ask.. take it as i am an owl ba.. :P

and since i cant get to sleep le.. since it' like 5:28am??
i decided to do a quiz on facebook...

What am I born to do??

THIS IS MY RESULT:

Hero

Now, we are not talking about becoming a super hero... but you were born to help others and put others in front of your needs. You are caring and that is your biggest strength. You will do really well in fields where you have to help others, like a social worker or a doctor... the options are many!

somehow i understand what Shannon told me one day... the things that I went through might one day come in need to share to another person... just like how she share hers to me??

P.S: sometimes i do wonder... why i am always giving "discipleship/couselling" in the middle of the night??

Disappointment turned out to be Enjoyable

2009-04-26T00:13:00.003+08:00

hmm.. today i took only training so after service thought of going for steamboat with ushers but then in the end.. decided to fellowship with my cg.. then supposed to go have dinner with them but then somehow split up leaving Raymond, Kelvin and me going to Best for ban mian and the rest went somewhere else.. i was like kind of disappointed cos such a rare chance that i can go out early and fellowship with cg but then in the end.. haix.. nvm.. had a good time with laughing with Raymond and Kelvin.. and of course went back to support my leader by buying 2 belts.. :P anyway, i cant blame my cg.. most of the time.. i was there with them too.. so maybe that why.. but it is okie la.. see when i can join them again?? 1 month later or 2 months later?? haha.. see how ba.. ;P

oh ya.. then there was a lucky draw.. if you spend $15 then you get 1 draw.. if you spend $30.. then you get 2 draws..so i have already spent $25.. so i went for the draw.. but yu zhen dun wan to let me draw.. ask me to spend another $5 then come back.. faint.. so in the end.. decided to buy some motivational cards from mikki.. then guess wat.. went for the draw.. then wat i spend at mikki's stall was then blessed back to me as vouchers?? haha.. power rite? :P

then i was enjoying myself with zone people la.. till Jermaine came to find me.. and ask if i wan to go jp to find layhwa.. then i was okie lor.. go lo.. so then stayed till about 8pm then went over to jp to find layhwa and lizhi..then edward and soo eng came back.. then say why i leave so early.. then i was like.. hmm.. i have already fellowship with the cg.. so time to fellowship with the ushers?? haha.. that is called balanced??

had a great laugh with jermaine, layhwa and lizhi at long john silver today?? but then dunno why 3 of us always say till i very scary like tat.. and always wan to argue with me -_-''' but also come to think of it.. when you feel down and tired.. there are always the few ushers that will appear in front of you somehow to brighten up the nite for you.. haha..

thanks to my little piggy.. my rebellious girl and li zhi.. really enjoyed fellowshipping with you..

special note to my rebellious girl:
honestly.. i feel tat hor.. you can really argue with me leh.. hahaha.. but then nevertheless.. try your best k? i know how you feel about the whole thing... feel awkward.. then tell me la.. haha.. fellowship with me.. next time bring you Jurong Bird Park.. haha :P

so GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME and ALL THE TIME GOD IS GOOD

2009-04-23T01:37:00.004+08:00

this morning.. somehow i was super high?? that i actually created a msg to send to both ai ren and yvonne.. hahaha.. 24 smiles.. wan to know more?? haha.. maybe 1 day i send it to you :P

anyway, today nothing much to do.. so most of the time.. i was discussing with shelin on dept stuff and added in our salt and pepper?? haha..nothing much happen today???

then fm came down to find xl... but then she was LATE meeting her.. i think her dictionary really has this word.. and it must be printed in BOLD.. tat's why she is always late.. hahaha.. ops.. hopefully she doesnt see this?? but then again.. i doubt she ever reads my blog.. so nvm ba..

then when both shelin and i were serving this customer... then i decided to continue to wrap my cd.. till i thought i saw a customer that is walking to my direction and about to ask something.. then i realised it was my ai ren.. faint.. haha.. so in the end.. for the last 30 mins.. shelin, me and her stood at cd-rama talking?? haha.. no law le la.. :P

then after work.. went to borders with xl and fm? then was talking to fm.. abit of "heart to heart" talk?? while xl went to search for her books.. and i cant buy books anymore?? at least before i get my own room and own books shelves?? if not my books are lying everywhere??? then after tat, went to mac to eat supper?? hahaha.. then about 11pm.. we headed home?

actually after work supposed to go out with nikki de?? to go Happy Hour again?? but then hor.. ai ren is there and plus i think if i go agAIN... i am going to kind of pissed her off?? haha.. and i also promised her le?? so in the end.. didnt go with nikki lo.. went with fm and xl instead?? haha..

and now it's almost 2am and i already feeling that i am losing the battle to the zzz monster?? hahaha.. okok.. good nite.. tml morning shall wake up early to go and help in SOT.. felt guilty this morning.. actually can wake up de.. but then i decided to sleep on?? BOOOO..

Am I just tired or becos of something else?

2009-04-22T01:07:00.002+08:00

there are 2 people have been commenting tat recently i am weird.. haha.. they know who they are la.. hmm.. actually i have been thinking too.. am i really weird?? or maybe i am really very tired le?? work and work and work... dunno la.. maybe i really need to day to let go of everything.. and the best place is in the water.. well.. thinking should i go swimming or kayakking on my own on thurs?? or should i go for air rifle.. wa.. later i shoot myself..haha.. okie.. not funny..

today i think before 5pm i was normal..this morning's briefing was crazy la.. John asked if I will be staying till July.. then I simply smile at him only.. saying nothing.. then he added on May is mystery shopper.. so sabo before you leave.. then i blur for a while.. so i ask if i am supposed to sabo before I leave pop?? haha.. after tat, everyone tell me tat their future are in my hands.. haha..

then i was bored and i found a MPC with popular logo on the the chop then i chopped it on my hand.. then i went around asking if popular can accept tatoo.. then they were like i dun think so.. then i showed them my hand.. with the chop.. all say crazy.. yong ni jie ignore me lor.. haix.. so sad.. bad bad director.. cant remb la.. but i know i did quite stupid things today and i was running around.. maybe tat's why my energy tank fall so fast.. but after 5pm.. i was on silent mode le.. haha.. anyway, i quite high today.. sannie was telling me tat during the meeting MPC was brought up to talk about.. cos the cds are all nicely arranged.. and guess wat?? my idea of making sample of ear sponge was an great idea to promote those ear sponge.. and it was shown to all the outlets... haha.. quite proud of it.. :)
then sannie was telling me that wendy actually commented tat wa.. so nice ar?? all so neatly arranged.. then sannie replied with of course la.. you must see who are my 2 staff leh.. faint.. haha.. ya happy.. at least we receive good feedbacks??

okie la.. go and watch tv le.. my energy tank was just filled up 2 people who in the end go and sleep first.. oh ya.. almost wanted to do something just now.. but then ya.. promised my ai ren tat will not touch le.. so in the end.. good gal.. came home straight after work.. haha ;)

Not By Design BUT By Choice

2009-04-19T22:26:00.005+08:00

went for the Basic Leaders Training Course just now.. though I do not need to go but then I decided to go and take a look in the end..Honestly, I was blown off by Jeff's msg...

firstly, whatever we do..
it always this way...

Thoughts -> Action -> Habits -> Character (Commitment) -> Passion (Lifestyle)

Jeff was sharing about putting Usher into my lifestyle how we serve people and I realised actually without realising.. that is what i am doing everyday?? While working, I am still serving people??
Sometimes I do wonder how on earth can I be so patient with irritating customers but then I realised that it wasnt from anywhere or anyone who taught me but during Usher Ministry that I learnt Customer Service, Patient and Putting it into my everyday life..

If you love something, you will just do it before complaining anything at all and you just loving doing it.. HOW??

When you join Usher Ministry.. we have been taught.. golden rule of USHERS is to "SMILE"..and constantly,we are thinking of how to improve ourselves as an usher..this is our THOUGHTS... as each time we serve and greet people.. this becomes our weekly ACTIONS.. as we are serving week and week out.. no matter where we are... it has turned into our HABITS.. then soon.. we will nuture it into our CHARACTER.. becos we are always meeting people and like for myself, in a part-time retail line... it has turned in my LIFESTYLE.. with PASSION..

When we serve others, we need to have JOY.. but with irritating people, sometimes we just simply cant keep our cool.. how to have JOY.. Jeff came out with this...

Jesus Others You

some might ask why?? this is what i interpreted in.. Jesus is son of God who simply serve others without complaining... he has never put himself high up but then He serve people like you and me.. so if Jesus can do it.. we should be able to do it too?? as long we let go our pride and ego?? :)
2. If we can put others first before us... this is all serving is all about... not on ourselves but others first..
3. after serving others, and you realised that maybe a few has appreciated your service... then you are happy with yourself which all in all added up = JOY!!

Just now... I just simply wept not becos I am sad.. but then I just felt Joy of why I am being placed in the Ministry... sometimes I do feel tired and asked.. why am I serving week in, week out.. I am tired too.. i wan a break too.. but then each time when I am tired... Jing Jing's words will just appear in my mind..

"this ministry is really the ministry that makes the most friends but not just friends but family.. it's people that when you are tired at the end of the day but you are encourage to do more becos of the people surrounding you. Usher Ministry is a ministry for work and work is always there but it's who you do the work with can really makes the difference and all your friends that really made the difference."

the song we called it our own.. belongs to Group 4..

这些年Group 4里
风也过雨也走
有过泪有过错
还记得坚持甚麽

真爱过才会懂
会寂寞会回首
终有梦终有你在心中

Usher一生一起Serve
那些日子不会变
你的笑给了我
你的爱陪着我
朋友不曾孤单过
因为有你在身旁
不管你在哪里
我都会想着你

sometimes, I do miss serving in expo... serving with EG whom i called my family.. the days and time that we spent together is too much... we just encourages one another to keep going... but since i am here in JW.. then it is a CHOICE that I have to make to change to form and help my SL to build a section that one day, we can call ourselves not simply just friends but FAMILY that loves each other's company... and serving will become what we loves to do...

anyway, took some photos with my cellgroup.... some quite stupid i think.. haha..

ricky, giselle, me, jas and jane..

W360..

me, felicia and jasmine... at church level 4..

very random... haha..

hmm.. actually i not sure what we are trying to do too?? haha.. artistic photo?? :P

the guys trying to form how monkey turn into a real man... faint.. but quite funny leh. haha

maybe it's just afterall

2009-04-19T01:09:00.003+08:00

woke up with a super heavy head this morning.. then decided to sms shelin tat i cant report for work then went back to sleep le.. haha.. cos i cant even drag myself up?? haix.. then tried calling 01 but she didnt pick up.. then went back to sleep.. but then i realised wa.. it's 11 not am.. but PM le.. -_-'''

hmm.. let's talk about wat's Pin De and You Mei's crazy plan for me for my duty for service??

You Mei's plan.. me to be Hotel 3.. at the same time take traffic while Lay Hwa understudy for traffic.. and i am supposed to teach her how to use the net and set and be ready to pour offering and do Oscar??

Pin De's plan.. me to be traffic alpha.. then teach Lay Hwa till service starts then go and be stage usher then go up and pour offering and then do Oscar??

in the end.. guess Pin De's plan more logical?? haha.. cos i doubt i can be like Hotel 3 send and Traffic send.. and wat? Hotel 3 to Traffic.. then i send myself?? faint..hahaha.. so ended up using Pin De's plan for me.. hahaha..

oh ya.. my dad is back?? yippy.. but then only for a few days?? :(

hmmm... had a time to fellowship with Ming Lee and You Mei.. my rebellious girl and my piggy?? haha.. (rebellious girl and piggy - they proclaim themselves??) but then when i get suaned.. 4 vs 1.. not fair.. hmm.. some people tell me "yes" some people tell me "no" but if you ask me.. i dunno? maybe it is just false alarm?? till the day that the truth is out.. then maybe i will have an answer??

i remember hearing on the radio 933FM..
"不管你的是跑车还是普通车，只要是塞车，你就是不会动的车"
find it quite interesting?? haha.. so decided to put as my msn nick?? :P

okie la.. guess need to sleep soon?? if not later tml cant wake up for work?? :(

Drinking Session

2009-04-17T07:24:00.002+08:00

wa.. now is like in the morning.. and i just woke up with a super heavy head la.. -_-'''

past few days nothing much happened?? except work and work and work??? haha.. soon becoming workaholic le?? actually not really la.. but then morning will be working.. then by the time i reach home.. i will be rushing the attendance for Dorcas for SOT.. so in the end.. really no time to blog lo.. hahaha..

Orchard MRT gathering?? haha.. Joey, Nikki, Vincent and ME!!

ytd Vincent suddenly ask if i wan to East Coast Park to walk after work.. then i was like huh? for what?? pls.. not alone.. so dun let your mind go wild.. haha.. there are still other colleagues.. then after tat, i ask Vincent to call Joey in SK.. cos very long didnt meet her le.. and we are used to be from Orchard MRT Popular ma... so then we called Joey if after work.. wan to go out?? then surprisely she agreed immediately.. and i was surprise cos normally she will say she wan to go home de?? then since say go out le.. i cant go back on my words.. cos Joey very upset about her Operation Manager?? so went to Nikki's friend's pub lor.. wa.. and happened that her friends were there.. and they are power lor.. they ordered 1 tower and 2 martel.. the moment we reached.. they start to pour for us?? then Nikki got it first.. then Nikki sabo me la.. she was like telling her friend.. didnt intro ar?? then her friend.. took a glass martel + beer on the rock.. then say.. drink... must finish.. faint la.. then her friends kept making me drink.. till i was like wa!! going to get high anytime... haha.. but then i was super alert?? so not tat bad?? then after tat, stupid Vincent make me play dice with him.. then i kept losing lor.. and the punishment is drink again??? wa.. by then, Nikki stopped le.. cos she cannt take it le.. haha.. then i also start to get high le.. so i changed the game from playing dice to guessing game?? then in the end... Vincent lose till quite jialiat... so after tat he also i think abit gone le?? hahaha.. then about 1.30am.. i say i need to leave le la.. cos today have to wake up very early cos need to go down for the stupid HQ meeting?? super sian when today is my official off day?? :( then vincent left with me..

actually i was thinking wat has got over me that i went drinking ytd?? hahaha.. ai ren questioned me?? and in fact i dunno?? hahah.. ops.. ok la.. hmm.. dun get stumble that I actually do drink la.. but then i know my limits... so dun worry.. but honestly.. i have not been drinking since Feb 12.. and now again?? wa.. normally i dun wake up with a headache but today i actually do?? haha.. guess too long didnt drink le?? but then i really had fun last nite.. cos it has been since quite long that i actually played till so wild?? haha.. BUT THEN, I STILL VERY INNOCENT DE LOR .. haha..

oh ya.. Joey was telling me Esther was super high cos i think she cant do paper work or something la.. then for dinner.. she wan to eat KFC... haha.. so i actually sms her.. "Beautiful Manager, you went to eat KFC then you didnt ask me to join you?" haha.. it was meant to play with her de?? guess wat? she replied me... "ok la, next time i will ask you along".. hahha.. Esther was my ex-manager when I was in Orchard Manager.. she is super nice, good?? so far, after seeing so many managers, i still think she is the best lor.. hahaha.. that i will do as long as she wan me to do.. cos AT LEAST she SET EXAMPLE for me to see.. unlike..........

okie la.. need to go and prepare myself and go down to MPC le.. :)

Amazing Easter

2009-04-11T23:55:00.002+08:00

this Easter is super amazing.. today i did Traffic and i think not really very challenging position but then like what Yong Hui Daddy say today.. we should always think how we can improve the service and not be comfortable and take it as just normal duty..

did i actually mention that i lost one of my phone?? then i was like whole day complaining to ai ren.. haha.. and of course to kenrus, dion.. etc... cos as long as i am not doing anything.. i start to think about the phone.. and guess wat? i was like super silly.. knowing that the phone is not at home... i went around the house searching every possible corner??

this morning.. i was like.. haix.. almost 2 days le.. and i doubt the phone can be found back.. but still i decided to leave my phone to Jesus.. and i make a deal with Him, my abba Father.. and stop thinking about it.. and like wat Zac say.. serve wholeheartly.. so i decided to really serve the service.. and just now the taxi driver actually called me and told me he picked up my phone and ask me to go and collect it.. i was like wOW!! i prayed this morning and told God that I will pray till it happen.. then in the end.. i got my phone back.. hahaha..

then they say it is like Jesus rose again on the 3rd day.. haha.. cos i actually lost my phone on thurs.. and i actually lost hope le?? i mean after 2 days that i cannot find the phone.. after calling the phone for 2 days still no reply or anything.. then on the 3rd day.. which is today.. my phone appeared when the taxi uncle found my phone... and guess wat?? the best part was that my phone was flat and the uncle actually had a sony erission charger and he charged the phone for me!! hahaha.. Praise the Lord!!

okie.. finally i can have a good sleep tonite le.. :) need to sleep le.. tml morning need to work..

oh ya.. ai ren say she going to learn how to cook and cook for me to eat!! hahaha.. we shall see wat she can cook next time?? hahaha..

Happy Easter Day!!

2009-04-11T01:16:00.002+08:00

today is Easter.. today i was serving as Alpha IC for Usher Ministry.. guess it was the few times that i was not on net.. and guess wat?? dunno why.. i dun seems to be as stress as i am on the net.. and i was happily serving.. haha.. and i hit my goal today... all 3 zones are filled without any loopholes at the end of 1st praise.. haha.. yeah! but then dunno why my rebellious girl so stressed lor.. haha.. i also not stress.. she seems super stress?? ops.. but then okie la.. guess need to think her how to be alpha IC without stressing herself too much??? if not i have zone ushers for wat?? haha.. :P i think the drama was really great... i was moved by the drama team too.. each year, they never fail to surprise us with new thoughts and new ideas..

after service... dwell as logistics area.. waiting for logistics to clear up their things to go for foood... we are hungry.. but then thanks for lizhi and my rebellious girl's cheese cake.. since we are hungry.. we ate them.. haha.. they were great.. then after tat, we went to best coffee shop to eat.. cos there were too many of us.. we split tables of Grp 16 1 table and Grp 11 + 12 one table.. and our table we had Liang Kai, Karen, Kenrus, Wan Xiu, Michelle Leong, Xin Yi, Sharon, Pin De, Alan and me... at first we are just talking and crapping around.. then came to all the funny jokes of end time and when we die... how we fly up and xinyi is scared of height.. how she wil fly down and how Jesus will come back on clouds?? then the way we describe it seems to be more like sun wu kong lo..hahaha.. then there were many leaders wearing green today.. then Wan Xiu commented that reason being cos "everyone served service 1 and 2.. running here and there.. all serve till Mian Che Che" -> Face turned Green in Hokkien.. haha..

then after tat receive msg from layhwa whether if i am still at best.. then whether do i wan to go JP to find her and lizhi.. then i was thinking whether to go anot... or stay to fellowship.. then happen that Kenrus and Pin De wan to go off too.. so we left together... then went JP to find them.. oh man.. i felt so guilty today la.. it was like li zhi was sick and i thought she was like playing with me??? then she was having fever and still serve?? i felt bad.. so i went to buy Honey Lemon for me.. then shui bian buy it for Layhwa too.. cos all looked so tired...

thinking whether tml i should go and find my kinder surprise anot??? or should i sleep longer?? hahaha.. got scolded crazy by ai ren.. haha.. cos i seems to love to wake up early but sleeping very late at nite?? hmm.. not really la.. i can sleep as and when i wan to sleep?? haha..

oh ya.. Ivory asked me to take a quiz on facebook "Which Zodiac sign will I be more compatiable with?" and I did it.. this is the result:

You are most compatible with SAGITTARIUS! I'm sure most of your friends are Sagittarians! Together you're going to rock! Sagittarians have a positive outlook on life, are full of enterprise, energy, versatility, adventurousness and eagerness to extend experience beyond the physically familiar. They enjoy travelling and exploration, the more so because their minds are constantly open to new dimensions of thought. They are basically ambitious and optimistic, and continue to be so even when their hopes are dashed. They are honorable, honest, trustworthy, truthful, generous and sincere, with a passion for justice. Sagittarians know how to be outspoken and exactly what expressions will hurt their adversaries most. They are strong-willed and good at organizing, a combination that gives them the ability to bring any project they undertake to a successful conclusion.

okie la.. tat's all for today!! need to go and sleep le.. cos both my ai ren and rebellious girl have asked me to sleep early.. and since i replied with OK.. i shall do it..

~ Thank You Jesus for dying on the cross for us 2000 years ago ~

thinking of packing locker

2009-04-06T23:32:00.002+08:00

welll... guess not many people understand my title ba.. hahaha.. it's hidden message ;p

sometimes, i simply cant figure out what is wrong with me?? 1 period i can be so noisy.. and the next period.. i will be so quiet that no one know that i was there... till they saw me?? haha.. i dunno if i am really getting tired of the nonsense happening... or wat? but i guess i am seriously thinking of packing my locker...

today, not only i am alone at cd-rama, i have to cover customer service... and help in cashiering when one goes for break and cover rhys for multi when he goes for break.. this is going to drive me nuts soon.. somehow i am getting quieter and quieter during work... even if 06 is working.. i dun seems to be as high as before... haha.. today had lunch break with 06.. and dinner break with yvonne.. haha.. so power.. 2 in 1 day..

i was like super sian at work.. then suddenly i was like how come my phone will ring at this hour.. and which stupid person will call me at this hour?? haha.. ops.. hopefully she dont see it.. then i hid back to my cd-rama receiving corner and realised that it was my ai ren... ops.. i feel so dead.. but then didnt tell her wat i thought.. and i actually happily rebelliously picked up the phone and talked till i reach office? hahaha.. anyway, going to be my lunch break le.. so dun care la.. she called to tell me she really saw 7 vans.. but cannot find where is the chicken feet.. haha.. well!! hee.. she was telling me.. can feel she really enjoyed.. and i miss that place.. a place that i called it my second home...

supposed to go kayakking with my kakis on the 11 but then i cant make it.. arrgg.. if not i will be able to enjoy!! my sea which is in ubin!! no matter wat, i want to return back this year.. whether for NPCC or not.. need to visit my second home.. hahaha. :)

okie la.. gtg le.. though it is a off day for me.. but then still.. i have to wake up early to morning call my ai ren.. good nite..

~ let each day be a day full of surprises and a day full of happiness and not saddness ~

Laughing our head off

2009-04-06T00:57:00.004+08:00

replies to tag:

van - lizhi: wa.. i didnt know that i look so AP de..haha.. but then after knowing me.. impression change le rite??hahah

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today seems to be a better day for me?? guess everyone will tink that i am anormal if i am very quiet.. haha.. okie.. fine.. i admit it.. emotionally, i am somehow not okie? but then with all the ga dai-ing.. i think they simply to manage to make me talk? haha.. can you imagine that i actually ignore my ai ren last nite when she tried talking to me?? haha.. ops.. eventually, i gave in and talk..

nothing much happened today except Jason came down today?? haix.. super sian la.. the whole time was so weird with him around.. especially he was saying 01 and 02.. and wat's more.. it is at counter 2.. and the only cashier was like nyssa and xiuli.. and i cant expect to go out rite? so i stayed in the counter to help lo and to do customer service while geok suan went for dinner break.. the feeling is super weird?? but then anyway, okie la.. guess, i just do wat i am supposed to do and do wat i need to do.. shouldnt be a problem.. :) so overall, quite pleased with my performance especially i am not rebellious today?? hahaha..

after work.. fm and andy came down to find us... then xiuli, yuqing, andy, rhys, fm and i went to mac for ice-cream... haha.. yeah!! i won a ice-cream today becos of a deal that i set with fm..but then lucky we didnt have a deal today.. haha.. but not much la.. cos both of us lost today no matter wat?? anyway, we had a great laugh over andy going to sell chicken rice and have to cham ka cham qiu.. then laughing over yq calling xiuli lao po.. haha.. guess after a tired day with irritating and unreasonable customers.. it is all these sessions that kept us going day after day??
anyway, this morning ai ren actually argued with her father over some matters and i know her concerns.. for me?? guess after sec school, i have learnt how to make my own decision of what is my next step especially when i hardly see my dad?? 1 year 365 days... i dun even know if i actually see him 100 days?? and wat's more.. we are communicating through emails?? hahaha.. weird?? father and daughter?? guess... maybe becos of this, fm is guilty becos instead of appreciating her father, she exploded?? but then i do flare at my dad too when he is back.. haha. ops.. but trying not to.. trying to be guai.. :)

Email from my dad:

Darling,

I am gald that you have received th acceptance into SIM for your degree pursuance.

Which course will you be studying and what is the duration?

Do you need to take entrance examination or Math subject like last year?

I wish that you take one step at a time, that is to obtain the degree and plan for your master and so on.

Anyway, I wish that you work extra hard in your degree pursuance with a 1st Class Honour degree, I hope you can achieve it. Don't spend too much time on other matters, your diploma result shown that. You are a big girl and should be matured to think about your future.

I will be back on 24 April.

When are you expected to start your lesson in SIM? and when are each semesters' holidays?

Have to end now, I will talk to you the next time.

Bye Darling, love you.

Daddy

guess becos of how i was brought up ba.. it has forced me to be really independent on my own... haha.. sometimes, when i am serving customers, they are with their father, shopping... there seems to be a feeling of envy-ness??

okie la.. shall not think too much.. tml will be a better day? anyway, need to sleep le.. cos promised fm that i will sleep early.. and Dion that once i finish blogging.. i will sleep?? so shall keep my words then.. hahaha

anyway, recently having been hearing this song till i start to fall in love with the song:

許茹芸 + 阿穆隆- (男人.女人)

爱爱爱爱了几回
也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着谁能出现

伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈
我却还是学不会狠心对谁

男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生

男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
不会再让我(你)心疼一等再等
你就是我等的那个人

男人男人
女人女人
多么希望你是对的人

2009-04-03T23:30:00.002+08:00

today, finally last day of morning prayer meeting.. everyday is a challenge for me to wake up but then it simply felt so great in the morning after praying... seems so refreshing.. but then if i have nothing to do.. then i will feel tired le.. hahaha.. weirdo..

then today... nothing much at work... irritating and stupid customer is just too normal for us.. nothing very special?? haha.. recently, i guess have been eating the same shift as Yvonne then we shared alot of things... hahaha.. hmm.. will someone be jealous?? hahaha.. but dun think she reads my blog.. so nvm.. haha.. but anyway, i felt that my creativity is getting better each day.. i can think of all kinds of stupid lame sms and emails.. what i really have in my mind??? haha..

today, didnt go for SOT cos need to work :(

oh ya.. i found this online which i find it quite interesting.. and today we were talking about it..

说了又不听，
听了又不懂，
懂了又不做，
做了又做错，
错了又不认，
认了又不改，
改了又不服，
不服也不说.
该怎么办

actually, dunno why.. i wonder what is others first impression of me? haha.. interested to tell me??

Dwelling

2009-04-03T00:14:00.002+08:00

today... i woke up like 6am?? after layhwa called me at 5.38am.. i went back to sleep... hahaha. .then went down for Prayer Meeting... wow!! everyday seems to be such a great day going for PMs.. it seems like i am a battery and i am feeling weak and PM is like the charger.. it actually recharge my battery... hahahaha :P

then went to 2nd best after everything.. with layhwa, you mei, aaron, pin de, jia sheng, someone else.. cant remember who.. haha.. anyway, i didnt know i actually owned a piggy cos someone actually sms me to say she is my piggy.. haha.. but then super cute la she.. sleep till she dropped her hp on the floor.. and guess wat? her battery came off so she was uncontactable.. wa.. so power la.. hahaha... then after tat, went back to church with Pin De and Lay Hwa then went back to stone and to chit chat.. till about 11plus then they left then i proceed to artist room.. where my work began.. i am so amazed with myself... hahaha.. my access is getting better each day.. i actually just use 10 mins to solve a problem in the attendance program.. haha :p

then actually i was praying about whether is SOT really the place for me to rise up?? And if yes, i need a signal... cos ytd Dorcus actually asked if i wan to be part of the team and be like taking care of IT.. hahaha.. then today sister Cindy talked to me.. and next week or the following week will be meeting pst Bobby..

today i was at artist room the whole time.. had lots of fun, laughter with Dorcus and Amber... we were laughing non-stop till end up not doing our work.. but chatting.. hahaha.. but i had lots of fun though i realised that my work on the table is getting piled up.. haha..

okie la.. i need to go and sleep le.. cos i promised my rebellious girl - Jasmine Toh Layhwa that i will sleep once i finish blogging.. goodnite..

April Fool's Day

2009-04-02T00:55:00.003+08:00

this morning.. went for prayer meeting.. then went to work was a great struggle.. just dun feel like going to work.. cos i was super tired la.. but then nevertheless.. i still went.. then met some stupid and irritating customers.. who simply cannot take NO for an answer that we are out of stock for that item... we are a store.. not your doramon store.. you wan it.. you can get it anytime.. if we are doramon store.. then why does the person who writes dictionary invented the phrase call "out of stock"?

but then i was once again rebellious today.. not really but then i complaint to my ai ren about the idiotic customers la.. haha.. then after a while.. i am okie le.. :P but shelin was still super angry and irritated by them la.. today at counter 2... wa.. i was pissed off lor.. i belong to CD-Rama.. not everything.. take cashier.. multi.. customer service.. CD-Rama... you think i wat? 1 person 4 dept ar?? siao de lor.. all thanks to 02.. only know how to sack people... then get people get so slow... no wonder my colleagues all the mood all super bad as the days pass..

since today is april fool's day.. the whole day i was thinking how to disturb my ai ren.. and guess wat? i thought of it.. then yvonne was like.. huh?? later she angry how?? haha.. hmm.. then i didnt really bother le.. april fool leh.. great opportunity to disturb her..

sms...
Me: hmmm.. wat if i tell you that today is my last day in popular and i will be leaving singapore tonight and not coming back le.
Fangming: are you kidding?
Me: do i look like i am kidding? i didnt tell you cos i dunno how to break the news to you..
*phone immediately rang*
she kept asking me why why why why i only tell her now?? she should know earlier.. then kept asking me when i leaving.. time of flight.. going Perth izzit?? hahah.. then i really felt bad bullying her.. then i ended the whole thing with "HAPPY APRIL FOOL!!"
she shocked.. haha.. -_-'''
then in the end.. got said by her.. cos i disturb her ma.. she say i scare her.. hahaha.. ops.. you listen to her on the phone.. really feel like laughing la.. hahahaha.. ops..

to fangming: thought i promised you le.. if i ever decide to leave... you will be the first to know?? and cant leave le?? cos i promise you over the phone just now le? hahaha

i was super tired la.. after work... hmm.. okie la.. gtg le.. cos i promised: -
1) my ai ren i will sleep at 1am.. and now like 1.13am le.. so i kinda of broke the rule le.
2) yvonne that i will sleep before 2am today... looks like i am going to keep this agreement.. hee hee.

oh ya.. we celebrated Yvonne's birthday in popular today.. and these are the photos.. :P

Yvonne's cake

she and her cake

making a wish.. make a wish.. make a wish.. haha

blowwing the candles

cutting the cake

1st Day of morning prayer meeting

2009-03-31T23:55:00.003+08:00

this morning was indeed a great challenge... after sleeping so late.. i was kind of struggling with my inner self to sleep on since i am so tired.. but then thank God, You Mei called me.. haha.. tat call was like.. hey.. you say you going then you should go.. so managed to pull myself up to get ready and went to church this morning...

after i prayed.. i simply felt so refreshing and it seems like i am so energetic.. with only 3 hours of sleep yet i felt so great... so after prayer meeting.. went to level 1 to help Dorcus in scanning the SOT students attendance.. cos i need to teach them how to use the program.. haha.. it was not a big thing but then i felt i had great achievement... i have not touched programming for like almost a year yet i can remember them.. haha.

then after tat, Jermaine called to ask where was I so went to meet up with Jermaine and Jasmine(Layhwa) at level 1.. then we went to the bus stop.. halfway, we saw Alan Hong.. and then dunno why is Jasmine so high..and she seems to attract to metal today.. either she almost bang into the lamp post.. or if not.. on the bus.. she actually was hugging and rubbing the metal bar.. as though it will give her energy.. hahaha.. we had a great laugh.. but then too bad.. i gt to work today.. if not can just simply spent my day fellowshipping with them.. haha..

ohya.. they were telling me that they did something to my laptop.. and i was searching for it.. and guess wat? i found them.. and shall post a few of their photos.. win le lor.. both Js.. my lap top turned into your camera le ar?? hahaha

both of them are wanted??? hmm.. they had self-declared wanted.. i didnt say.. :P but then wanted by who??? hmmmmmmmmmm..... i.... think.... i.... know.... who....hahaha

i dun remember having rabbits in Logis areas.. maybe they are the new species :P

there are so some more pictures.. but then not going to post all.. cos if they read this post.. with my comments.. haha.. i dunno if i can still survive on thurs when i meet them after morning prayer meeting.. haha :P

helping out in SOT 2009

2009-03-31T00:54:00.002+08:00

this morning had a hard time getting myself to wake up.. cos dunno why.. but then i was super sian and tired.. actually i dun feel like waking up but then i was telling myself.. i have promised brother Kim Hock that i will go down and help in SOT and now i am going to sleep and forget about the promise?? that's is definitely not i was taught.. so i struggled till 6.45am then i dragged myself out of the bed.. to get ready..

today was pastor Phil's preaching.. and it was wow!! great message and though i was helping out.. i managed to catch some great points.. going to get the notes from Jing Xuan.. hee.. but honestly.. i realised that i can be very tired but when i stepped into church.. it seems so different.. i feel so empowered once again... Jesus is just so great.. i help till about 4pm then i left cos need to go down to MPC to find xiao ling cos going to accompany her to shuzhen's father's wake.. cos no one can accompany and since i am off... okie lor.. but then i didnt go in.. cos i cant?? then stayed outside while xiaoling go and pay respect.. cos it was a private house estate.. then after tat, talk to her for a while.. then we left..

on the train.. i was thinking of whether to go back to church a not?? cos before i left Doucas told me that they will stay quite late cos they have not done the file for clocking in.. so since i stay so near.. went back to church to help.. but then junxian and i had a hard time cos we dunno where the starting and ending point.. then it was like almost 10.30pm le and i promised someone that i will go and help but then i will reach home by 10.30pm and junxian had to leave too.. so i decided to take up the challenge.. brought the whole lap top home and do.. haha.. and i am blogging now.. but becos i have finished doing it.. but becos of the stupid lap top.. it hanged.. -_-'''

but at least i have solved the hardest problem.. i guess i know wat mistake i made le.. so once i cleared that mistake?? haha.. i can sleep le.. for the rest.. next time then settle la.. hahaha.. too tired le.. tml still need to report at 6.15am in church for morning prayer meeting?? wow!! challenging..

oh ya.. today i was super pissed with fangming's company la.. she is sick and having fever le.. still ask her to go and work.. are they crazy or wat?? lucky she is ok.. even yvonne was like saying are they crazy?? no brain de lor.. sick leh.. not going out to play.. sick also cannot take MC arrrgggg!!!!! I WAN TO COMPLAIN MINISTRY OF MANPOWER!!!!

love 06.. haha

2009-03-29T23:47:00.004+08:00

guess wat? this morning.. i think i quite power? i can actually morning call fangming at 7am then went back to sleep.. and only wake up like 8am?? and i felt so dead so it seems like i am going to be late for work if i delay any more time?? then i managed to left my house at 8.40am.. hoping that i will not be late for work?? haha.. on the train.. super cannot tahan la.. then i just sleep then miracle actually happened.. i reach my workplace like 9.50am?? when i am supposed to reach like 9.30am?? but then i left my house so late and i still managed to reach before door open la.. haha.. and still in time for briefing.. hee..

today actually super sian de.. but then when i went to work.. i saw my break time schedule.. i am eating with 06-Ivy.. wa.. my mood brighten up la.. super happy.. haha.. but i also dunno why.. she seems to be like my sister lor.. just simply love to eat with her?? hee..

but then today my ai ren came down to eat lunch with me so didnt eat with 06... so went to eat with fangming and weiping.. haha.. had lots of fun.. then after lunch.. stupid john la.. talk to customer ask the cd.. in the end.. also tell me the wrong one.. hai wo.. run around the whole store like mad dog.. to and fro from cd-rama to office.. -_-'''

with Nyssa at counter 2.. simply power la.. we can high together.. talk rubbish only.. and hor.. the stupid john today.. dunno why.. seems on picking on me.. say wat.. why i put nail polish.. why i gt 2 handphone.. he nothing better to do today lor.. then after tat, i kinda bully by lily, lihui, jia jia.. and etc... all say i and SS gt something going on.. i almost fainted la.. explained also they dun take my answer.. but when going home.. lily said.. but then no matter wat, i will not approved.. wa!! faint le la..

then dinner time.. dunno why.. really dun feel like eating and i was getting super emo.. about something.. which i dunno what is it... dunno if it's becos i am tired.. but then anyway, ordered mee suan with fish.. i guess i managed to finish all ba.. cant really remember.. cos Ivy was asking me to eat a little even if i dun feel like eating.. then after tat, heard dorothy's ringtone.. i high for a while.. then back to low le.. then accompany 06 to NTUC to buy water.. wa.. she buy me this water..

she know that i am also sick.. so she bought me this drink.. my 06 so sweet rite?? hee..

after dinner break was crazy for me.. i cleared all the cds that i wanted to do today.. and i still have time to do other CDs..my mind wasnt with me.. all i was doing was wrapping cd after cd..
then till almost closing.. i still can challenge Dorothy see who can finish wrapping first?? haha.. then after tat, went to pack up..

actually wanted to go off le.. then 06 ask me to wait for her.. cos they coming out soon.. so i waited for her.. then we went to take bus together..

waited for 06 to take 36 together.. whahaha..

2009-03-29T01:21:00.003+08:00

Like i say before.. tag dun like me.. people can tag.. i cant.. haha.. so reply here..

van - Jermaine: leaders are all unity as 1 heart.. so maybe all decided to sabo you.. haha.. :P
van - peggy: relinked le.. :)

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ytd.. went out with MPC colleagues? ex-colleagues??

PResent: Yuqing, Sze Shian, Rhys, Li Hui, Jia Jia, Fang Ming, myself

at first we went to vivo to watch unborn.. hmm.. not really scary la.. just simply okie lo.. but i gt frightened by 1 part which i cant remember which part was it.. but then the girls that are sitting behind us were giving funny comments and when they screamed.. it was piercing sharp la.. hahaha.

then after tat, we went to bugis.. wanted to eat steamboat but guess it was too tired so the guys and girls split up to go shopping.. end up, the girls went to take neoprints.. haha.. wa.. guess the last time i took neoprints was like when i am still in secondary school?? hahaha.. then after tat, we went to eat steamboat cos sze shian complaining that he is hungry?

we went to the $18/pax.. then my table with me, fangming, yuqing and lihui... the pot is full of Meat.. and no veg.. wa.. faint.. and the problem is whoever that leave the table will actually come back and find that their place has turn into a mountain of food.. hahaha.. and guess wat?? fm wanted mushroom so being kind.. i went to take then come back with my place super full?? and i think i lost count with the number of mushroom and fishball that i have eaten.. hahaha.. and i ate till i was bloated and the awful feeling of wanting to vomit... then we decided to walk around.. rhys suggested to go clark quay.. then we walked from bugis to clark quay to boat quay before finally settling down on a bench with 5 of us sitting and listening to songs... then love songs.. then emo songs.. and sze shian was like kind of entertaining us.. haha.. then we sat till about 10plus then we left cos late le..

then went home.. supposed to sleep early but then ended up writing a note to you mei and layhwa cos they are using my lap top today for attendance.. went to work today, and guess wat? i actually fell asleep standing till my phone vibrate.. guess it was fm's sms ba.. then the whole day was kind of boring but then i was listening to all the songs that i like.. hahaha..
finally i am eating with 06(ivy) again.. hahaha.. dunno why leh.. maybe i have always been in the same shift as her.. so kind of miss eating with her.. so went to eat together.. yippy!!
then after work.. went to 2nd best to meet up with you mei, kenrus, trinity and enyun for a while before all of us headed home...

and i gt the letter from SIM le.. i am accepted le.. provided i go and do all the paper work before 13 april la.. hahaha

and when i open the letter that i left for layhwa on my lap top.. she actually wrote something.. whahaha.. yeaH!! at least i know i didnt skip that hour of sleep for nothing.. hee..

From LayHwa: Thanks alot vanessa!! Thanks for your encouragement and motivation! Your effort has not gone to waste! Love ya! :D

okie la.. need to go and sleep le.. if not tml someone going to say me again.. asking me to sleep early but then i still sleeping at 3..haha.. dunno if she will see.. but nvm.. still need to go.. need to keep my promise.. :)

lastly.. dunno why.. i starting to fall in love with this song..

梦醒时分歌手:陈淑桦

你说你爱了不该爱的人
你的心中满是伤痕
你说你犯了不该犯的错
心中满是悔恨
你说你尝尽了生活的苦
找不到可以相信的人
你说你感到万分沮丧
甚至开始怀疑人生

早知道伤心总是难免的
你又何苦一往情深
因为爱情总是难舍难分
何必在意那一点点温存
要知道伤心总是难免的
在每一个梦醒时分
有些事情你现在不必问
有些人你永远不必等

JW SAT USHER MINISTRY CHALET

2009-03-23T16:37:00.006+08:00

Due to some error to my tagboard.. i cant tag on my own tagboard so can only reply from here.. haix..

van - Layhwa: can de la.. your next duty.. you aim ok? if i can do it.. so can you :)

van - xiuli: haha.. you can also go and watch more movie de. find your friends to watch with you can already.
van - Jermaine: i where gt always sabo you?? but i quite good de rite?? alpha leh.. you confirm can de lor.. i trust you :)

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on 16th March - 17th March... we had Jurong West Saturday Usher Ministry Chalet.. of Group 11 and Group 12.. we had lots of fun..

our aloha chalet..

these are our dearest ushers..

on the 16th afternoon, went to meet up with liang kai to collect the car that we rent then we went to fetch, Kenrus and his sister.. then drove to fetch Karen.. then after tat, went to Emily's place to collect the documents then send them to the chalet first then we went out again to fetch Wan Xiu.. then after tat.. when we went back to the Chalet.. i was starting to feel weak but didnt really bother.. then still pull Jermaine to go with me to go and fetch Gerrick.. then after tat, pull her along again to go and fetch Stanley.. haha.. then after tat.. come back.. then feel even weaker.. then i realised that i was starting to have fever.. wa.. then i think You Mei realised but cant remember who say de.. then i think Beatrice heard it.. then hor.. wa..

while the ushers are having great fun playing games...

look at the ICs.. all of them are busy bbq-ing for the ushers.. :)

that's me.. cant bbq cos having fever so i am not around to go and bbq or play.. :( Jermaine?? haha.. so use me as a excuse not to play.. so bad..

Beatrice: You sick still come.. and you cannot eat all the BBQ food.. curry.. the most you can only eat the mee hoon.. Liang Kai, can you take some bee hoon for her..
*van ended up eating bee hoon but thanks to Liang Kai got a bit of BBQ food la.. if not so blurt*
Beatrice: Poh Tian, Heard that when you are in JW, dont have Hotel 2 or Hotel 3 de ar? only gt Hotel twtree..
*i almost choke on the bee hoon i was eating then i was looking at You Mei then she gave me the not me look.. then i look at Beatrice, hoping she dont continue*
You Mei: Wa.. Beatrice, you wan hai si JW ar?
*all of us are laughing lo*
Beatrice: Van, you do Hotel Twtree before?
Van: ya..
Poh Tian: of course she did, last week, she just "chui" only wat.. and she going to continue to chui till she pass..
Van: -_-'''
*i faster finish my bee hoon then i run off le.. so scary there la*

then after tat, i went to tell everyone that we kena sabo le.. haha.. then after tat, suddenly Liang Kai gathered everyone.. cos he say he got something important to announce.. then all gathered lor.. then after tat, he say he wan to announce that it is "Vanessa's birthday today!!".. i was super pai sai la.. cos so many people.. somemore You Mei bought a cake.. but really thank her.. enjoyed the whole day.. then during my speech.. alot of the leader's secret..scandals all out le.. haha..ops.. but cant state here.. hee.. if you are not there.. then your loses ba.. remember to join us next time :P

when they celebrated my birthday with the birthday cake :)

then after tat, we played a game.. cant remember what they name it but then all of them supposed to be blind-folded.. then we are supposed to lead the first person while the rest all the back will follow then some of the are actually suppposed to disturb them with leaves or things.. but then in the end.. we decided to use water.. so we started getting normal water.. to ice water.. to ice.. then i was also playing with water wetting them.. then dunno who started to wet all the ICs.. then happen that i think i splash water on Berwin then he actually splash back.. then after tat, dun care le.. then play lor.. though i was having fever.. haha.. then i took the cup then splash on jermaine.. haha.. then after tat, i didnt know You Mei standing behind me.. then she took the whole pot of water and pour over my head. -_-'''

then after tat, i went to the kitchen and took a pot of water but then you mei already ran off with liang kai le.. haha.. then in the end.. we played until super high lor.. ended up that i the birthday girl is not as wet as Jermaine la.. haha.. she really like my little small sister when i wake her up in the morning.. haha..

then the next day, went to K box with Yong Hui, Wan Yun, Liang Kai and Jermaine.. sing till we super tired lor.. haha..

anyway, had lots of fun during the whole chalet..

Group 11 with 84

Group 12 with 84

the "chui" gang.. the past and present Hotel 2 and Hotel 3..

it's us again.. we are "chui" by our dearest 84.. haha.. so you see all of us with the fingers of 2 and 3 except our 84 with the number 4.. haha

the next morning.. see all super sian and tired like tat.. haha.. like whole night didnt sleep.. haha..

dunno how did they become our parents during the chalet.. haha.. our Daddy and Mummy.. haha :P Yong Hui and Wan Yun..

My East Duty

2009-03-22T02:37:00.002+08:00

wow!! today super amazing la.. today i was east IC.. haha.. so long since i was not as set le.. :P had a great time... i told the ushers that our aim is to close my zone before worship so must jia you ok? haha..

then hor.. before that.. Jeff was Ruixiang runner today... and ruixiang was Hotel 2.. so then i was like aiya.. relax.. haha.. the moment the bulletins came.. then my usher automatic le.. then Jeff keep telling me remember to collect my buckets.. then i was like relax.. can de.. then hor.. i went to collect then come back give out.. then 4 of my ushers came back to me.. saying.. "FINISH" then i see alpha not done yet.. then i say go and help alpha.. lay bulletins or buckets or whatever.. then i tell ruixiang east is ready for door open.. then after tat, i gather them to talk.. then slowly assign them to where to stand and remind them what to do??

amazing la.. the moment door open.. i was still smsing.. and guess wat? my zone did feel and when praise started.. i was also jumping up and down.. haha.. and i gave Wanyun, Liangkai, Wanxiu, Ruixiang a shock when i told them that East close during my last praise... they were like huh?? hahaha :P then left with 1 hole here and there.. then fill them lor.. then after tat.. i realised i still gt 3 holes in the end when all settled down. :( not good enough la.. haix..

but then not bad le.. heez.. to think that i also didnt really do much.. haha.. except jumping up and down and enjoy praising God.. haha.. then they are like saying that the chalet highness still there lor.. haha..

then during the sermon.. cos some of us going for sun also.. so we started to talk.. then Pin De was like saying next week's allocation.. then dunno who to put for Alpha, East and West.. then i sabo Jermaine's name for Alpha.. no overseer.. then he was like.. a.. okie leh.. can can.. haha.. then after duty.. i saw Jermaine.. then i told her that she might be alpha for Phil Pringle's service.. and i was the one who sabo.. wa.. she chased me from Wally all the way to logis lor.. amazing rite?? hahaha.. :P when she see this.. she going to scream again.. hahaha..

then after tat, went to opposite 2nd best to eat with You Mei, Kenrus.. then after a while Pin De come and join us.. hmm.. now thinking.. should i go JB with them the following week?? haha.. cos next wed.. i taken by Teacher Emily.. haha :P so high now

then after tat, rushed down to QL's 21 birthday.. so sorry.. took so long to reach there.. then went down to Pasir Ris to find Fangming and Rhys.. then went to Mac.. chat lor.. then after tat, sent them home then home sweet home..

wa.. die.. tml still need to work.. and i left 4 hours of sleep.. arrgg..
good nite then.. :P

nothing to d

2009-03-20T23:20:00.002+08:00

Birthday Month: March...
Attractive personality.sexy. Affectionate.Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented.Loves special things. Moody.

wa.. true?? this seems that i am super the bo-liao.. and nothing better to do

anyway, today supposed to meet zi ning and jac at marina square at 1.30pm and guess wat? i only woke up at 1.08pm.. hahaha.. power rite? then i was rushing and near suntec.. i almost gt into an accident la.. haix.. lucky managed to brake in time if not die ar..

then went to have japanese food.. then after tat cos i need to fetch my dad from the airport.. so i left first while jac and zi ning walk back to SMU.. cos i honestly dunno how to drive there.. haha.. sorry.. like wat liang kai commented.. i am a super Jurong person.. haha.. then i went around the whole marina and guess wat i found.. so many ice-cream store but no where sell yam ice-cream.. super unbelivable..

then after tat, went to airport and fetch my dad.. on the way to the airport, i was super tired already.. then i almost fell asleep while driving.. thanks for fang ming's sms came in in time which the ring tone woke me up and continue to drive... wow!! scary la.. then went to orchard to fetch my mum then went to my grandma's place.. wa.. i was super tired lor.. then trying to make sure i dun fall asleep by keep on changing the radio station.. haaha.

then after dinner in my grandma's place.. i fell asleep till fang ming called.. haha.. and i actually miss her sms.. ops.. then wanted to go ga dai de.. but then both fangming and i super tired cos last nite we went on the phone till 3plus am cos both of us couldnt sleep and becos of that.. she is late for work again.. despite morning sms her?

okie la.. need to go and sleep le.. if not i also cannot wake up tml le

sexy voice with desert temperature

2009-03-20T03:56:00.002+08:00

wanted to blog about the JW Chalet but then i haven get the photos yet so cant blog it.. nvm.. shall blog other things leh..

today.. guess wat? i off my alarm this morning and went back to sleep.. and the next timing i woke up was like 10am.. die!? late for work.. then slowly go work la.. no choice le wat.. haha.. then after tat.. went to buy herbal tea and get them to add medicine cos lily has been scolding me.sick still wan to work.. not good for the body.. of course i know but then my dept is short of manpower and wat's more?? 2 of my colleagues were fired?? arrgg..

and i dunno why.. i just simply lost the mood of working.. partly i am sick?? dunno?? but then obviously there are somethings that i felt disturbed.. anyway, i told myself that next week. time to get back into my workaholic mind le.. should not sms so much during work le.. if not the next to go will be me liao.. haix.. then sannie will short of staff..

oh ya.. fangming came down to return her uniform today.. she bought me 爱心凉茶haha.. then of course will drink la.. :P then after tat, when i went to do things, she disappear le.. then actually wanted to go ga dai but then didnt go cos Rhys askd 1003FM then she say her ai ren sick.. faint.. become my fault.. haha.. then after work.. left then i saw fangming downstairs then she say she is hungry cos she has taken her dinner.. so we went to roxy square to eat lor.. i mean she and xiu li ate but then i didnt eat.. then after tat, went home.. and hor.. i didnt stop sms them till i reach home lo.. wa.. my fingers are like in the past when i kept on sms-ing..

then came home watch tv.. then after tat, dunno why.. ended up talking on the phone with fangming.. haha.. and initally, she was jealous about something but then i assure that it will not happen.. haha.. we talked about alot of things.. actually, i wanted to end the call earlier cos she needs to work the next day but then she is not tired.. till i made her go and sleep at 3.30am cos very late le.. and she needs to work..

then my rebellious little girl talking to her.. hopefully, you are getting better and i am not pressurizing you...

okie la.. need to go and sleep already if not tml morning confirm cannot give morning call ..

Worst Hotel 2 duty ever

2009-03-14T23:10:00.002+08:00

today is my offical duty back to Usher Ministry and I was doing Hotel 2.. but it is also the worst Hotel 2 duty that i have ever done.. haix..

after service, i really felt super lousy about it..

1. be on set for so long... yet i cut 84 while he is com-ing.. biggest mistake that no one should ever cut chief usher..

2. when echo PIE chairs are laid, i wasnt there.. instead.. i needed jiasheng (hotel 3) to be there to help me...

arrgg.. i wanted to blog the whole thing down.. but then i am feeling so down to blog about it.. and i think it is also the first time that i felt that i did really so badly that i cried in the car when my dad came to fetch me for dinner.. cos they are celebrating my birthday earlier..

arrrggg.. i really felt super lousy about the whole duty today...

anyway, went to Jack's place to celebrate my birthday today with my family... though i enjoyed the dinner.. but my mind hasnt taken off the whole duty today..

oh ya.. CG celebrated my birthday today too.. wait for the photos and when my mood gets better then i will blog all my birthday things after my birthday ba.

okie la.. gtg le.. tml still need to work.. and going to take some time to reflect on my performance today..

Met up with my ai ren again

2009-03-14T01:20:00.002+08:00

this morning went to work with a super high feeling.. haha.. dunno why.. was thinking about last nite... all the funny things that we did.. and hor.. this morning.. should have called fangmin up la.. faint.. she really sleep until 9am as i predicted.. though will not happen but it did and she has to reach office like 9.45am...

then reach office le.. i am the first to reach today.. haha.. then after tat, when rhys and andy reached already.. we started playing.. until morning briefing starts.. then our mood wow!! 180 degrees changed... i became super sian and the most of it was i actually gt 2 hours to wrap 2 CDs only hor.. this is the worst of all.. then whole day dont really have alot of mood to do things also.. super duper the sian..

then if i can dun talk.. i will be super quiet la.. haix.. then the whole store like super quiet... unless about 8.15pm then andy came to my dept then we started playing till end of day then super high after that.. hahaha.. then waited for fangming to come and meet us.. then when she comes, andy scared her lor.. haha.. then after tat, i scare her too.. using Jeffrey's phone's lady scream.. then she almost killed me.. haha..

then we went mac to chit chat then andy bought 5 XS small coke then we chit chat till we finished our drink then went home le...

okie la.. tml going to fight a battle le.. better have a early night ba :)

Lastly, Happy Birthday to Changyi...
my wishing for you send to you as sms le..
to tired to type it here..

MPC Stock Take & Ai Ren's last day

2009-03-13T01:29:00.003+08:00

wanted to blog last night but then didnt cos i didnt come home.. haha.. went to ku mummy's place to stay... bedok.. :P last nite i also dunno whether did i really sleep anot? cos when i close my eyes, i kept dreaming about wrong barcodes, forgot to scan barcodes.. haha all type of funny funny things la.. then toss and turn till 5.30am then went to bath cos will be meeting the rest at marine parade mac for breakfast.. when i reach, only rhys, andy and korkor(yuqing) is there.. so went to wait till mac open.. meanwhile, peggy, roting and lihui came.. then when mac opens then fangmin and xiuli came.. so we decided to pack them back to popular to eat.. actually wanted to join the rest at the shiny counter but then aiya, dun wan la.. join my ai ren and the rest at the toy section la.. haha.. :P then alot of funny things we said but i cant remember what putting your finger on your lips la.. all the rubbish things, maybe partly i have not enough sleep then i become more energetic and "high".

then about 7.30am.. briefing started then we started to scan the cds.. wa... i going crazy.. what will i dream of tonight?? barcodes again?? hahaha.. then stock take till about 5pm then we open door.. wa the customer like dunno what.. all rushing in... -_-'''' then in the afternoon, after our lunch, while waiting for them to print the variation for us... the part-timers started to take photos.. haha.. these are the photos..

Part-timers with Kor kor, Chiew Ling and Ah ma..

part timers with Nancy.. who is she?? the one that is most outstanding la.. haha

i like this photo the most lor.. :P

rhys wanted to watch the movie "Coming Soon" then fangmin, rhys and andy waited for shelin to come back then i can go off.. then we went marina square to buy the tickets.. then went to eat subway... the movie coming soon.. nice show... i guess it was one of the scariest horror movie that i ever watch with lots of thrills.. and suddens.. haha.. during the movie, lots of funny things happened la.. haha.. but then shall not disclose.. later who knows if one day she reads my blog.. then i will die sia... haha..

oh ya, there was a part when the scene was repeated over and over again.. when this guy is running away from 2 man then happened that the cinema's lady open the door for people to exit and guess wat? one of the customer spilled pop corns on the floor.. meanwhile, that guy took the chance to run away.. then after that, 4 of us after the movie, we changed the story... :P

if N is the person that the 2 of other people going after, then same thing happen, the cinema's lady will open the door for the rest to exit after the movie, then one of the customer poured pop-corns on the floor.. then J will look at the pop-corn and start to eat..haha..

found this near esplande.. found it quite nice and unique so took a photo of it.. heez

after the movie, we were laughing all the way, from marine square to sun tec to esplande to clark quay... from TCC in marina square To STARBUCKS in central to BURGER KING in central... haha.. crazy le.. but then we really had a great laugh... then after that, we went home cos andy, rhys and i still have to work tml...

I AM going to miss my ai ren.. :(

Get To Know Yourself better

2009-03-09T01:07:00.002+08:00

i was reading rach's blog then since i cant to sleep.. so i shall try it.. haha..
this is the url: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx -> try it too..

this is my results..

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

guess wat?? under the right job for me seems quite true.. haha.. most of the job that i took before will burn off all my energy and hyper that i can have for the day and will return back home exhausted but still happy... and my true self.. whahaha.. okie.. i have to admit.. i can be unpredictable.. my mood does change from 1 min to the next min.. haha.. BUT BUT cant blame.. that's why i am unique.. haha :P hey but at least my mood do change back to good after a while ok? :P

got arrow-ed for Hotel 5

2009-03-09T00:35:00.002+08:00

went for service on sat... in the afternoon... went for support for communion.. then after tat i was happily and playing around... i mean after so long.. back to where i belong always seems to be comfortable just like i am Home.. also my first time that i am going to take recruitment.. though i took ownership of it.. but i hope i can really pass down what i learnt from 4S5 to G11.. to form a family in G11..

then after finishing the communion.. then you mei wanted to allocate people.. then hor.. Yoong Tian said "i need to take training, so after training then i come back" then i was like huh? You Mei, you take Hotel 5 rite? then she said "no, i going to take care of the back"
i blur le.. then i said "then who going to be hotel 5?" then you mei and yoong tian looked at me.. wa.. win le lor.. fine.. tat's not all.. i still can do sabo lo..hahaha :P

actually Layhwa suppposed to do external de.. but then hor.. i pulled her back for my communion.. haha.. Hotel 5 wat.. so i told You Mei.. Layhwa serve STAGE for my communion.. haha..then Youmei said "ok" then she asked me to serve A2.. of course i am okie with it.. then i shoot.. then Jermaine serve A2 FIRST ROW!! hahaha.. then she say ok.. power la.. hahaha..

but being Hotel 5 not bad to do la.. but then it allows me to actually take it as a practice to get used to be back on the net.. haha..

then after service.. went for WYZ zone meeting for a while then i rushed off for family dinner already.. and plus celebrating my godma's birthday in advance.. :)

Marley & Me

2009-03-07T03:53:00.002+08:00

today, was super de bored at work lo... cos i was the only part-timer.. haha.. supposed to be
working even harder but then end up.. dunno leh.. super sian.. haix..

anyway, after work.. went down to Marina Square to buy something then headed down to cineleisure to meet up with my cg cos we are going to watch Marley and Me together.. since i haven been going out or meeting my cg so meet them up... to slowly clear some awkwardness but dont ask me why i feel that.. i also dunno why...

anyway, the movie is very nice.. and the dog is also very cute but at times super irritating... but then i felt that it was indeed a great movie... in the end.. during the part then they have to put the dog to sleep, while the rest of the family members are recalling the days and time spend with the dog.. all the happy moments... that part, i really cried... tears just flow... see how sad they were and the kids... it was a touching story.. and at the last part it is true...

whether we are poor or rich.. the dog doesnt bother... all his bother is that when you give him all of your heart.. he will love you back with all of its heart...

then after the movie... some of my members actually wanted to go and eat de.. but then in the end.. didnt go.. cos some of them start to have ministry tml le.. and i will be also serving tml.. haha.. so better go home.. then i saw a msg from my dad not to lock the door.. then i sms him to see if he has reached home.. guess what?? he is still outside when i finished my show at about 1.40am.. haha.. then i wanted to take bus home with jasmine, kai yan and hui zhen de.. then my dad ask me to take cab then go and fetch him then go home together... haha.. so in the end.. i came home with my dad.. then chat with my sis on her results.. but then my cousins didnt do well..

okie la.. time to sleep or tml will be panda serving?? haha :P

ugly singaporean

2009-03-06T01:55:00.002+08:00

today, after work... went down to bugis with Dino, Andy and Sze Shian to play lan games.. then after tat, on our way home.. there are 3 empty seats.. then there was this uncle that sat down in the centre seat.. then i was like wa.. win le lo.. cant you see there are 2 of us.. then nvm.. then he still can say... "girl, you wan you sit down." then i was like fine.. so i sat down lo.. but then come on la.. if anyone see that you have a friend.. normally KIND-HEARTED people will just shift to let you sit with your friend.. then after Sze Shian alighted.. i listen to my Mp3 and fell asleep till my dad called.. then happen to be at Jurong East.. then he actually showed me middle finger not once, not twice.. which stirred up my anger.. cos i didnt do anything.. or say anything to him throughout the whole journey.. and wat type of attitude is this? as my Mp3 was very loud.. i cant hear wat he say.. but then i just simply shouted at him ''uncle, i didnt say or do anything hor" then he walked out.. cos it was the last train already.. if not i will go after him and ask what he wan?? by showing that, what he want??

Governments, parents, adults only tinks that our this generation of kids are all ah bengs and ah lians.. but pls.. look at yourselves before you blame us.. who are the ones who taught us all these.. if you want us to behave.. be a good example first..

i remember last time i saw this mother told the kid.. it is okie.. dun need to give up the seat.. just seat down.. haha.. wat a joke?? school teaches us 1 thing.. at home teaches us another thing.. no wonder now even you see elderly taking train, no one will offer that seat to them.. thanks to the WONDERFUL parental guidance.. but i know and foresee that these parents will soon one day be old and realised that no one is willing to give up the seat to them..

Want to be an ugly Singaporean or be a proud Singaporean? choose yourself.

i am coming back.. yippy!!

2009-03-03T01:05:00.002+08:00

wow!! i was thinking about something the whole day... why did i agree to meet rach today and not other days.. but to think of it.. it sounded kind of weird with like when i am on my way to meet rach, i met wanyun on the bus.. then after i feel rach.. then when we went down to city hall.. waiting for the person to come so that rach can pass the person something... i met ivory... then we went down to tanjong pagar to pass another person another thing.. and i met Ming Lee.. wOW!! seems to be all planned for..

then went to meet Eugene, Jean, Joseph, Melvin at AMK to go down to Tame's office for website meeting today.. then there are so much more requirements for us to do lo.. and guess what?? some of them seems so unreality.. but then of course we will in the end state our stand.. haha.. of course, we had lots of fun exploding the coding together.. seems to enjoy and oh ya.. today also the 1st day after so long going back for website meeting.. then Joseph lent me his program to install the latest Cs4.. wA!! that is wat i wanted for so long.. so whole night my lap top was install the program.. so i was thinking of the interface and helping Joseph with the javascript and trying to thinking of the bugs... at the same time, i was also doing my section stuff.. calling you mei to confirm certain things.. and of course to make sure i can get my recruitment team up by this week.. yeAH!!

i called you mei then guess wat??
you mei: "since you going to do recruitment so next week you will be serving le rite??
me: "huh?" (mind thinking.. i didnt say anything)
me: "orh.. okie.. "
you mei: "still remember how to use the set?"
me: "ya"
you mei: "B4 use which channel??"
me: "B4 use channel 6.. B1 and above use channel 5"
you mei: "haha.. very good.. then welcome back to the ministry.. miss you for so long le.. see you next week"

well... ok.. actually wanted to only go back to my ministry after my 22nd birthday but then i cant.. i declare 14 mar will be the day i am back on MAIN DUTY for USHER!! :)

kind of miss serving with all my ushers... and i am coming back.. thanks for all being so patient with me and taking up all my responsiblities when i wasnt able to do and be there.. :)

Yet another day has passed

2009-02-24T23:20:00.002+08:00

hmm... what should i blog today??
had a weird dream last nite... i dreamt about my godpa and guess wat?? he was like sitting with us during dinner table and enjoy talking together with us.. and he was like very happy and seems even happier than before.. then sometimes he appear to us.. then he disappear.. haha.. though i still miss him and his voice.. but then i know he is always here with us...

today seems to be happier le.. haha.. at least no longer moody at work... but had lots of fun at work.. haha.. it was like everyone is talking about stocktaking.. and i was like suaning my HOD.. haha.. :P but then super impressed with my talking.. i can actually persuade a customer buy 3 DVDs that cost total of about $124.. but then i dun get any commission.. haha.. maybe i should change job soon.. haha..

thirdly, went down to find my ngee ann lecturer ytd.. MS POON!! haha.. rememer telling everyone that i wanted to get into UOL Information System of Management.. then ytd was discussing with my lecturer.. and guess wat?? she dun agree with me.. haha.. she wanted jac and i to take UOL Business instead so that from there to move on to ERP and SCM is much easier for us.. haha.. and she actually stated all the Pros and Cons.. so in the end.. we decided to listen to her and apply for UOL Business with Shelin together of course.. so now waiting for Uni to start in Aug.. must study hard le.. and you know what Ms Poon said.. "you ar.. must quit your part-time and concentrate on your studies.. if not like 3rd year.. can get A then essay anyhow write become B cos of work.." whahaha.. ops..

anyway, just read Rach blog.. looks like i am not the only one missing the life in 4S5.. not the current but the past... of course i know all of us have to move on.. and many of us or almost all of us are leaders... but sometimes, we just miss the life as a normal usher.. haha.. rach has wrote the whole details out.. haha.. I MISS EG!!! the ONES WHO ARE ALWAYS THERE TO GIVE YOU THIER HANDS WHEN YOU FALL..

hmm.. dunno wat to blog le.. anyway, tml nite going to meet Marcus.. so maybe gt photos to post?? haha

how to bond a section with only 2 hands??

2009-02-23T02:01:00.007+08:00

it is 2.16am in the morning.. but then somehow i cant get to sleep... haha.. my mind is thinking about how to really bond the section up.. how did 4S5 did it?? then i decided to go back and look through all the photos.. and honestly i can say.. my photos with 4S5 simply crazy.. it took up 4.05GB of my computer space.. so guess how many photos i had with my ex-section... used to have those laughter.. and songs that we used to sing... hmmm..

someone ask me how we did it...
honestly, i dunno...
through weekly KTV sessions??
through our favourite Chicken Rice??
through Anderson ice-cream??
through accompany each other for BS??
through meeting almost everyday??
through doing support together??
we used to do so many things... till i also dunno what bonded us till today though we might no longer be as free as we used to be in the past.

wat has made us so close to the extend that we will always say "once a 4S5er, always a 4S5er.."
how did we turn from friends to name ourselves as 1 family??

want to know the song for our 1 & only 4S5 lovely SL - Huiming??
this is the lyrics..

我听见你的声音
有种特别的感觉
让我,不断想,不敢再忘记你

Usher里有一个人
常常会让我心动
她的名字就叫作，huiming

我愿意为你改变
因为你让我发觉
笑容是我们的calling这个永远不会变
不管support多么久
我们都会在里面
我们会大声地对全世界说
对你说

4S5，爱huiming
就像老鼠爱大米
你是哪么kawaii
是我们心中的唯一

4S5，爱huiming
不管你都么的凶
我们都会陪着你
你是我们的
天下第一

this is our 1 & only 4S5 Section song.. the 1st Generation of 4S5..

We've built a section with our hands
The toil of ushers from a different zones
Strangers when we first began, now we're a family
Let's reach out for more ushers, join our fun forevermore

Chorus:
One Group 4, one Section, one 4S5
That's the way that we will be forevermore
Every usher, every team,
has its vision, has its dream
One Group 4, one Section, one 4S5

And when the time comes for support
We will stay until 3 O'Clock
We'll be united, hand in hand
We'll finished all our bulletins
And gather for fellowship, join our fun forevermore

( Repeat Chorus x 2 )

One Group 4, one Section, one 4S5

this is our 1 & only Group 4 song..
dun have the lyrics.. but still have the video..

sometimes, it is just good to see these memories photos... better go and sleep le.. if not tml morning cannot wake up to bring my grandparents go giant for shopping.. haha..

and lastly.. today really enjoyed fellowshipping with fellow usher leaders... more outing should come!!!

JW Usher Leaders "CGM"

2009-02-23T00:14:00.002+08:00

today, went for JW usher leaders so called CGM.. haha.. you know why?? cos gt word and prayers and praise and worship.. haha..

actually, there are some weird feelings and thoughts but then today during worship... i really felt the strong presence of God.. and it is drawing me back to serve him just as I used to.. then was talking about the different type of leadership pressing in to our leaders..

A leader knows how to lead and manage a team but a manager only know how to manage..

i need to start to think and time to go back to the ministry soon..

then after the "UM-CGM", jermaine and lay hwa say they dun wan to join Group 12 they all to for dinner together cos they say they group 12 then we group 11.. a bit weird so group 11 should go out more often.. haha.. then decided to go jurong point.. then when about to reach jurong point.. both of them changed their mind.. so in the end.. cos i was driving ma.. so i drove to boon lay shopping center to meet up with the rest lo...

we had.. Alan Hong, Xin Yi, Wan Yun, Cass, Li Zhi, Lay Hwa, Jermaine, Wan Xiu, Liang Kai, Karen Hui and me...

while eating, we had so many jokes and things to take about la.. super funny... i really enjoyed the fellowshipping lo.. haha.. from wanyun's orange wedding gown to the groom's red suit.. haha.. then we talked about flamingo.. then we talked about parrot to sparrow... sparrow sent.. haha.. alot of rubbish.. :P then we talked about depts then we talk about asia conference experiences.. we had lots of laughter and fun.. it's has been quite a long time since i had so much laughter and fun.. and guess wat?? liang kai, wan xiu and i loved the same type of beer.. ...

then after tat, liang kai insist of driving so he drove Jermaine home then he drove himself home.. then i took over the wheel and send Lay Hwa home then i drove home...

oh ya.. i told someone that i going to post her photo with a picture of flamingo.. but shall not post her photo if not she going to kill me if she read this post.. haha.. so decided to post this flamingo only.. haha..
so this is the photo.

4S5 Reunion Dinner 2009

2009-02-19T23:58:00.007+08:00

today, went to my cousin-in-law's shop again.. then today, i need how to cook nice bbq chicken.. haha.. including how to make it nice and how to cook.. haha.. going to try it next time.. yummy!!

anyway, on 2nd Feb... went for a reunion with my ex-usher section when i was in expo.. being in this section 4S5.. taught me to grow.. was there will be through those thick and thin times when i wasnt doing well.. my friends... soon turn into my family called EG... though we might be busy with our own lives now.. but i know the friendship that we had before will always be part of our memories.. we know wat we are thinking.. we cried together... we laughed together..

these are the photos that we took together...

me and terence..

ruixiang and me...

yongquan, ruixiang, celest, van and terence...

hey.. suddenly.. i realised something..
TEAM C vs TEAM E..whahahaha

Used to be 4S5A...

used to be 4S5B... but Jingxuan has left the ministry to be CGL :)

used to be 4S5C...

it is us again.. wow!! BELINDA!!! MY PRETTY TL!! WHERE ARE YOU???

used to be 4S5E...

this is just like our family photo.. all the past 4S5 family.. though almost 90% of us are no longer with Huiming Jie.. and 4S5.. but to our family...Once a 4S5er, Always a 4S5er..

my 4S5 family again... with our lovely Da Jie - Huiming.. miss those time serving together...

as long as you belong to 4S5 before.. you belong to this photo.. :)

Old 4S5er + New 4S5er = 4S5 Family that LOVE, CARE, CONCERN...

it's all about work now

2009-02-17T00:48:00.002+08:00

sat night.. went out with jac, cherie and hanxiang... then we went for dinner le.. back to our usual place.. this time round.. all tried different types of drinks...

i drank Tom Collins and guess wat?? it tastes like lime juice but when the kick comes... wow!! it is real fast.. haha..

since sat nite... i told myself that i need to change and of course i need to stop hurting myself... i have already gone beyond the line by doing something which i told Jasmine on sat... arrggg.. so i cant do it again before she going to start her story on me le..

so sunday and monday, i decided to really stop thinking about other things.. and to concentrate on work.. and i really work till i going crazy lo..haha.. but then i was amazed with myself... how did i managed to finish packing 50 cartons of cds today... :P okie la.. need to go and sleep le.. cos tml going to send mary off.. she is going back home.. and we will miss her...

another thing.. ku-mummy ask me to think of something to write on ah-tio papa tomb stone... cos she said that the one i wrote in the rememberance book.. she find it very touching so wanted to write something similiar... but then to think of writing it already make it feel sad.. haix.. when i finish the actual one then i will post it ba..

Thinking cap on pls...

FINE!!! I AM AN ATTENTION SEEKER!!!

2009-02-13T01:11:00.002+08:00

today, like i said ytd.. confirm will get high.. haha

just now just before work... some of us were high le.. woW!! after work... we went to NTUC to buy beer and drinks.. this time round.. we are even more crazy... haha.. we are drinking more than before.. and of course more people joining us this time... we bought..

1 tiger beer, 1 Hen, 1 erlinger, 2 volka rasberry, 1 volka green apple, 1 bercadi rum lime, 1 carlberg... haha.. ops.. so many.. so how many of us?? me, li hui, shelin, ro ting, dino, andy and sze shian... then halfway, ro ting high lo.. she started to sing and dance at east coast park cos we went there to drink... with the sea breeze..

then after tat, i did something that i know i shouldnt do... but then at that time, i dunno why... i just did it... wat i did?? that is for me to know and for you to guess?? cos.. i am not a attention seeker so i dun need to tell anyone or report to anyone anything...

then after tat, the 4 girls shared cab home.. of course we sent ro ting home first.. cos she is high plus she vomitted abit le.. then i was the last to reach home...
then come home le.. argue with my dad over my sis... then he passed me a pen knife... after scolding me.. then my mum came out to stop.. she say.. both of us.. drink so much.. so wan to see who win go.. then keep asking my dad to go and sleep...then when they went back to the room.. i took the pen knife and almost cut myself when my mum came out.. and scratch the knife from me.. haha.. i did it again..

maybe you can say i am drunk but to tell you.. if i can write my blog now.. i am perfectly okie.. just that.. my mind is not working.. and i am going to drive myself crazy very soon..
i know i will let many people down.. but then sorry.. i am not as strong as you guys see.. so take it as i am a attention seeker.. since my parents told me tat too.. from now.. i will not say anything.. if you wan.. you can always take it as i am invisible.. that all..

i am tired of all the rubbish around me... i start to ask myself whether i am really attention seeker.. and my conclusion is... as long as i stop people from walking into my world.. i will be saved from all the unhappiness... create my own fences... and be on my own.. then i will be able to save alot of trouble for myself.

2009-02-12T00:35:00.002+08:00

today, went to work.. wa.. super busy these few days lor... but also good la.. so that i dun have time to anyhow think of things.. haha.. anyway, ytd.. went out with shelin.. wa.. siao!! both of us spent about 1k lor.. sounded crazy?? haha.. dunno leh.. but very long didnt shop le.. haha.. now cannot shop le.. must work more le.. so that next month can go and shop again..

anyway, today after lunch, then wuay boon called me.. cos Pastor wanted to show concern.. ya.. thanks Pastor.. actually there are also alot of things in my mind.. but then.. i also dunno leh.. sometimes i am okie.. sometimes i seems to lose my direction.. haix.. but then i know wat Pastor trying to tell me... though it is also wat some of them tell me but then dunno why... i dun seems to get angry but really listening to wat he say... maybe it is really the respect for him ba.. then he prayed for me over the phone... flashes of all the things came back... and my tears just flow... then after talking to wuay boon for a while... i went back to work.. but then the feeling is already weird so i sat there the whole time just doing my new stocks.. also managed to get myself back during dinner time... then after dinner... went to eat dou hua with Andy, Sze Shian and Shelin.. cos Andy treating.. haha.. so until 10pm then left the place...

tml night.. we going to ENJOY!!! hahaha..

2 days of drinking.. oh NO!!

2009-02-08T01:22:00.003+08:00

ytd.. after work... i was really thinking of not going to the airport cos i dunno why.. just dun feel like going.. then andy wanted to drink... so we ask people lor.. haha.. so in the end.. with ro ting, andy, rhys and li hui... we went to NTUC to buy beer after work.. then went back to near our store there to drink... haha.. below are some of the photos...

anyway, what happen while we are drinking... let's stay there...

our drinks..

me and ro ting..

rhys

andy after drinking 2 bottles of beer.. still can do lo.. power!!

after that, decided to go airport to send maiko in the end.. so i reach there at about 11 like tat.. then we took photos.. saying good bye to her.. and of course we will miss her cos she is going back to Japan already.. then after tat, went to eat supper.. at prata house... haha.. then i reach home at about 3am.. wow!! but guess wat, this morning i still can wake up early to go to work lor.. haha..

today, after work.. rush down to suntec to meet jac.. cherie and hx... haha.. cos they say i MIA too long le.. and in fact it is true... so time to get out of my MIA state.. to meet them le... so in the end.. we went to pub lor.. haha.. 4 of us always somehow will end up in pub during late night..

just take for fun... haha..

wat i drink??? beer?? NO WAY!!

Cherie = Bercadi Rum + 7-up
Hanxiang = Volka + 7-up
Jac = Tequlia + 7-up
ME?? = Gin + Tonic ==== GIN TONIC.. haha..

tat's all forks.. stay tune for more surprises tat you dunno the side of me.. whahaha.

working in my cousin-in-law store for the 1st time

2009-02-05T20:49:00.002+08:00

this morning.. ku mummy msg me to tell me that frandi kor kor need help in his store.. so this morning.. i woke up then went down to his store to help lo... whahaha.. like family business like that.. actually my godpa supposed to go and help after his recovery but then he dun have any more chance... haix.. the whole day super tired and super busy lor...

the shop was at sunshine plaza #01-23.. haha.. sarah's place... haha.. then frandi kor kor cooked for me to eat.. then i saw bryan.. haha.. my primary school friend went there to eat also.. haha..