hmm.. sometimes this week... i think i receive a sms from you mei to announce who is going to take wat team.. when i saw my name there taking a team alone.. i was shocked.. guess this is too fast for me.. i really dunno if i am up to standard to really be ready to take a team..

at the same time, i was quite upset about it also cos i seems to miss my team though those that are going to JW in my team previously are in my team but then i still kind of miss them... haha.. i miss the section somehow... with peifen, michelle..

well, tat day, peifen talked to me.. she feels tat i might be affected somehow.. but it is true la.. that i might be affected somehow also la.. then we chat about alot of things lo.. but then i really thank her for all the opportunity she has given to me to allow me to take up more responsibilities and do the things for her.. though it is only 2 months but then i guess i will still miss her somehow la. my SL in JW.. haha..

now tat i am taking the team... guess there are alot of things from me to learn from the rest... and how am i going to set a good example to them.. (maybe should bring my 4S5 garang-ness to them.. haha) dunno la.. but kind of excited too..

G11S1C
G11 -> not the bottom but the top
S1 -> shine above all others
C -> Chiongster above all

hahaha... guess i am just thinking too much :P

no matter wat, just wan to thank some people during these 2 months:
Pei Fen - giving me lots of opportunity to show myself and showing me how one can really show the love and concern in many other ways.
En Yun - teaching me many things that i might not have learn before
Michelle - really enjoyed doing welfare with you even though it is just 2 months.. but then at least we have build a friendship there =D

ever since sch reopen for this sem.. i think it is really a struggle for everyone of us.. i think all of us are really super amazed with ourselves.. we are rushing the assignment like there is no tml.. we just kept doing and doing and meeting all the deadlines.. since jan 3rd.. when we started school.. i think most of us didnt really sleep at all la.. for me.. i guess i have never so relax sitting infront of my lap top and knowing that i am able to sleep on my cosy bed tonite.. haha.. for the past 25 days.. somehow everynite... we are rushing assignment until i dunno how i know... but only know that the next morning... i find myself on the sofa.. and there were few occasions that i will wake up suddenly and continue with my assignment but the feeling is like i didnt sleep at all.. haha.. i guess all crazy le..

throughtout this 25 days... many things happen in our class... almost got into big arguments and lots of stuff but guess everything is over... come to think of it... suddenly i felt so free almost i still gt 1 more class assignment coming up.. but then there is a certain sadness within us... for the next 2 weeks will be our final chance to really sit in the class.. joke with our classmates and then we will go into our separate ways le.. whether we will still keep in contact, it is still a question mark... i know i will miss my class alot... the fun we had.. we can have unhappiness but then everything will resolve when assignment ends.. haha.. through this 3 years, we went through alot.. with them... rushing assignments at home... conference to keep each other awake.. staying in school all the way until 11pm to rush assignments... argue over assignment... spend overnite outside to chiong assignment... i guess today will be the mark of such things as we have submitted the so call final assignment at 27 Jan 2008 at 1159... FREEDOM for now..

i guess all of us really enjoyed and suffered alot.. enjoyment is when we see how we struggled so hard and at the end of the day, we still can complete our work.. suffering is all the sleepless nites..
well, we still have 2 more weeks left to come to class.. let's enjoy this 14 days ba.. before we are going to chiong for our last 2 exam papers in poly..


P.S: To all Bukit Batok Pri School (1994 - 1999), there will be a gathering on 29th feb at minds cafe from 8pm to 1am.. after tat, wan to continue also can.. so if you are coming.. pls let me know.. :P

At last, WDD assignment is cleared.. i think this assignment has really made many of us drained out... We are only given 2 weeks for this assignment.. and we are supposed to create a website and instead of using hard coding that we usually do, we are put more coding into the database which is the SQL.. this method can prevent from people to hack into the system easily...

on Friday, had WISP presentation and Lawrence was impressive with our work.. heez... then after tat, we started to start on WDD assignment le.. and it was somehow crazy because we are having not only 1 assignment on hand but a few and the worst part of it is tat, the deadlines are super near.. that is real crazy.. anyway, we chiong until sunday, hx's class is meeting at jurong east mac... then before that i was with him ma.. the whole day, i couldnt solve my error so actually, i am about 90% to give up the whole assignment le.. then hx ask me to go with him to find his class then do together lor.. then at first i dun wan.. eventually i went la.. haha.. had lots of jokes created.. shelin supposed to meet me lor.. then in the end.. she slept until morning. -_-'''

so i stayed with them until morning.. then gerrard, tim, augs, cynthia, crystal went off first cos they going back to school to hand in then go home first.. then the rest of us which consists of hx, me, sandra, shi ying, jolene, sara... then we give up le.. cos really very tired and it was whole nite throughout... so we had done our best then just leave it le lor.. then we had mac breakfast.. then super funny things all out le.. maybe all of us too tired then creating some jokes.. haha.. then went to school.. wanted to hand in and go home to sleep de.. but then my class wan to go for SCM class.. so no choice lor.. went to 31 square to find them..

then ks having viva yesterday ma,, so i took his lap top and help him add comments into his codings lor.. so that if he need to explain, then he will know how to explain cos he dunno some terms.. haha.. then jac also having viva.. then after tat, ate our lunch then i dropped dead.. sleep le.. then went for SCM class.. i couldnt concentrate, sat there and fell asleep... and the whole 2 hours lesson, i was really sleeping la.. couldnt take it le la..

okie le la.. need to go and prepare and go to school le..
pray tat on thurs, when i do the demo for this assignment, i dun need to redo.. ~ scared ~

as every week, sunday service is always very packed.. so they are going to start sat service in JW... haix.. just when i started to really learn to love my new team, my TL, my SL... dun tell me it is going to happen again... hopefully no ba... cos i start to love my section le... and really enjoying the presence of them... haha..

ytd was the day for ICT in-house and IAP students to hand in their project reports... so all coming back to school.. then i went to class in the morning.. then instead of doing my assignment.. ks came to chat with me.. haha.. so throughout my whole lesson... i was msn-ing with him.. haha.. then after class... jac, peg, ning and jj came to look for me.. since i already took breakfast in the morning, so i didnt join my class for breakfast.. then we sat at square to chit chat until my class come back to go for our next lesson lor..

then after my lesson... went to find them cos we going out ma.. then hor.. we went to central de japanese restaurant to eat.. then peg wanted to drink sake.. so either we drink there.. if not then we go pub in the later part.. wa.. so jac and i no choice? haha.. ordered sake.. my class de jac also gt go.. haha.. so gt 2 jac.. :P then my class de jac want to go home le.. then the rest of us decided to go novena cos i need to go TTSH to visit Terence ma..

going there = die... dunno when did peg and jac already say hao le.. pull me into a shop.. make me try 2 dress.. then in the end.. make me buy the 2 dress okie.. faint.. they say i look very good in it.. but then hor.. so weird la.. haha.. dunno la.. then we went to look at shoes.. then i bought a 5 inches high heels.. haha.. so i spend about $150+ lor.. haha.. i also bought mask.. wa.. spend alot la.. and i am broke.. haha

then after tat went to meet changyan at TTSH while waiting for Ray and Rach to come.. then we went to see Terence... hope tat he will get well soon.. then went home with Lynn... Terence's gf.. then we chat alot on the bus lor.. haha.. virus vs bacteria... then she also study about hash message then we started to say some common terms.. haha.. after she alight.. then i concuss le.. sleep on the way to jp..

need to go for class soon.. try to find time to blog again ba

i really dunno what is going on in my life... suddenly my whole life is in a mess... and the worst is that i dun even know what is going on.. there is too many things happening around me.. have been feeling this for quite a while but then decided not to write it out.. cos each time when i tried to write it out... there is always some people out there at the same time to cheer me up... now.. i dunno what is going on... seeing my results for common test, i really have no mood for everything.. things are coming so fast then i dun even have time to breathe... before we know it, we are receiving more and more projects.. at the same time... people around me are facing problems.. but how can i actually really just concentrate on myself and leave them alone??? it is really nt me lor.. but wanting to help and dunno what to do is really a big headache.. haha.. have been thinking quite a lot.. but aiya.. dunno la.. hope everything will be fine when we end all the projects and all of us will be back to normal again... each time everyone is so stressed up, there is always lots of unhappiness around..

i am tired.. real tired..

to my class:
this is our final lap le.. let's go through this together fast once and for all.. we still have our assignments and exams to go... let's put in our best and though we have lots and more sleepless nights to go through.. but look at the brighter side ba.. after tat, we are free!!! haha..

love you guys.. post my class photos when i am free ba :P

after so long.. finally i saw my cg... hmm.. cos ytd gt appreciation lunch treat from my CGL.. so all have to go... then actually i gt ministry de but then becos of it... i think i should leave early so i actually requested not to stay for the recycling and the meeting... then jasmine wanted me to take a clip of myself and stuff.. but honestly, dunno why i wasnt in the mood and when i saw everyone doing it.. i was like dunno leh... haix.. maybe just dun wan to do it alone.. fine.. dun really bother also.. cos maybe as times goes, they will just forget me as their member... haha.. but anyway, went for the lunch.. but wasnt really in the good mood and i was feeling kinda of left out and couldnt really flow with them...

then after tat, i was thinking very hard to whether to go with them to settler or to go and find hi5 at sentosa?

raymond fetch me to the bus stop, then whichever bus that comes first, i just board it... when i was in the bus... my mood was even worse to the point then i actually msg zhen wei that i will not be joining them le.. then i msg hy to apologise cos i told her tat i will go.. then i call jayme, but then she didnt pick up cos actually wanted ask her if she wan to go pub anot.. haha.. all of the sudden just feel like going for a drink..

then i off my phone.. and fell asleep on the bus... the next moment when i wake up.. i realised tat i was at vivo city and i was like wa.. already say dun wan to go but in the end still appear in front of vivo city.. then i alight lor.. then i called hy see where they are..

here goes our conversation:
me: you all still at sentosa ar?
hy: ya.. 你要来吗？
me: 不要啦
hy: 你在哪里？
me: vivo city
hy: then 你要来吗？
me: 不要啦
hy: 你要回家啊〉
me: 不知道，看先
hy: 你到底要不要来的？
me: *faint* i come over now..

so went to take the monorail... then very fast jiu reach le.. then they are eating sushi... after tat, zw wanted to play zhong ji mi ma so we started to take sushi... actually celestine and i dun wan to eat de.. but then zw keep on asking us to eat.. and ks was still hungry so okie lor.. play lor.. then after tat, celestine kena le.. then she become hungry liao.. haha.. funny la... actually find them still quite moody de.. then in the end.. dunno what we say then jiu yue bian yue high.. haha.. then when playing.. all enjoyed and having fun.. then zw and i played that if

he comes with a number, and i kena, ks have to feed me with the sushi.. if i come out with the number and zw kena, then hy have to feed him.. haha.. then after tat, zw keep on kena, then we add the stake higher to be no care who give the number, as long as zhen wei get the number, huiying has to feed him and when huiying get the number, zhen wei have to feed huiying..
then zhen wei dare me with the same rule between me and kaisheng.. faint.. then okie lor.. just play for fun only ma.. haha.. then in the end.. hy feed zw 7 times lor.. super funny la..

the best part was that, i was sitting opp ks then after tat i was telling him the numbers tat the person who is giving the number.. i guess wat is the number.. and so many times, i actually gt it rite.. faint.. i think i can dun be in IT le.. i go and become fortune teller.. haha.. then we went to watch song of the sea together... super nice.. though i watch dunno how many times le.. but with different people, the effect is definitely different de la.. had lots of fun..

thanks to them tat my day was brighten up...

okie le la.. have to go back to my stupid coding.. which for the past 1h 30mins.. nothing gt into my head that why i am blogging now? haha..

today actually dun feel like going to work de.. cos past few days didnt really sleep well.. anyway, had a long talk with shi en last nite... haha.. full of craps.. but in the end, i still went to work la.. then after tat, whole day was quite peaceful... then went for break with guo hua, kor kor, yi qian... super funny la.. dunno since when i become so close to yi qian.. the new cashier... haha.. but now she also like me le la.. from cashier going to multi media.. haha.. then after dinner... saw Eugene and Yong Jun.. both of them came back together to collect their pay.. but then in the end.. didnt get cos Esther went off le.. haha.. sad.. then hor.. both of them came at about 7pm.. then they really walked around popular but most of the time when i go, they go la.. to chat with me.. then they wanted to wait for me until 9.30pm, the time i end work... Eugene say stay to accompany me.. cos with him and yong jun, i very ke lian... then after tat, i think auntie eat wrong medicine... keep on finding fault with me.. then yong jun say becos he was there.. haha.. dunno leh.. maybe lor.. then she some more complaint to lay hsia.. haix.. dun care... then after tat, i tell jie jie and kor kor that i want to quit on monday then i going to tell john on monday... then eugene and yong jun asked me dun be angry le.. haha...

then after tat cos closing le.. then both of them cannot be inside.. so they went out to wait for me.. then when i went out rite... eugene passed me a bottle of coke... both of them bought for me to drink de.. haha.. then they also asked vincent to go for supper together.. then in the end.. i pulled yi qian to go with me... hee hee... smart..

then in the end, decided to go to food court to eat... then saw john there.. then he treat us to drinks.. then i complaint to him about auntie complaint about me.. then he response was like... aiya.. AUNTIE!!! haix.. then i say i dun wan to work le... then he tell me "dun tell me tat sentence" wa... yi qian and i looked at each other.. faint.. he dun wan to let me quit... haix...

then after tat, decided to go home.. then yi qian accompany me take green line.. haha.. then we were crapping on the train.. all the way until jurong.. super funny la.. but then though i was angry with auntie... but then becos of them... all the anger is gone.. but my anger is short term only.. haha.. anyway, enjoy talking to yi qian.. haha.. she kena bullied by me also.. but then had fun with her though i didnt really talk to her until today... talk alot lo.. haha.. :P

okie la.. now.. back to chionging of assignment..

slept until quite late then get ready to go and meet hy and celestine at vivo de.. then my mum dunno wat is wrong with her la... keep on calling me to find fault with me.. haix.. until the whole day mood also going to be spoilt le.. by then, thanks for celestine and hy... we went to Toy R Us then end up... we started to play until we went crazy... with all the animals... with celestine and her giraffe.. and i again get sabo.. haix..

then we went to the roof top then many people walking inside the water... then celestine and hy wan to walk but then i dun wan to get wet cos i was wearing jeans.. then celestine said "are you part of S.H.E? if yes, then come.. " wa.. threatening.. haha.. so i went down into the water eventually la.. then we started to walk to the other side then sat down to chat.. then dunno why we started to splash water on each other.. and hor.. both of them attacked me together.. ended up, i was super wet la.. haha.. but then it was like forgetting everything and just play with water.. it really reminds me of the times whenever i had problems... i will hide myself by going swimming to forget everything... to be in the pool where no one can contact... i miss the time to enjoy swimming..



3 of us in the water...


in the water...


me.. celestine.. huiying..


can you see how wet am i? culprit? 2 of them lor.


we are soo wet la..


me and celestine...


celestine and huiying..

then after tat, i went off first cos need to settle somethings.. then went to meet my family for dinner la... then hor.. i was there early.. then wait there for them lor.. eat seafood.. then happen that my dad actually called my mum... then dunno why.. i started to feel upset.. so i went out.. as i was going out... my tears was rolling down.. then came back.. my mum keep on pressing on wat happen that in the end.. i just kept quiet... then in the end... she pressed until my tears just roll down.. then went out with estee... she was trying to console me but then i was crying even harder... i suddenly just miss my dad... every year we have him with us.. bt not this year... i thought i was already okie... but then i didnt know that inside of him.. how much i miss him but refused to admit it... but anyway, after the dinner... we decided to go back home cos all tired le.. and i wasnt really in the mood also..

anyway, to all..

Happy New Year!!! ~2008, new chapter new beginning ~

Name: Vanessa Tan
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