hmm... what should i blog today??
had a weird dream last nite... i dreamt about my godpa and guess wat?? he was like sitting with us during dinner table and enjoy talking together with us.. and he was like very happy and seems even happier than before.. then sometimes he appear to us.. then he disappear.. haha.. though i still miss him and his voice.. but then i know he is always here with us...

today seems to be happier le.. haha.. at least no longer moody at work... but had lots of fun at work.. haha.. it was like everyone is talking about stocktaking.. and i was like suaning my HOD.. haha.. :P but then super impressed with my talking.. i can actually persuade a customer buy 3 DVDs that cost total of about $124.. but then i dun get any commission.. haha.. maybe i should change job soon.. haha..

thirdly, went down to find my ngee ann lecturer ytd.. MS POON!! haha.. rememer telling everyone that i wanted to get into UOL Information System of Management.. then ytd was discussing with my lecturer.. and guess wat?? she dun agree with me.. haha.. she wanted jac and i to take UOL Business instead so that from there to move on to ERP and SCM is much easier for us.. haha.. and she actually stated all the Pros and Cons.. so in the end.. we decided to listen to her and apply for UOL Business with Shelin together of course.. so now waiting for Uni to start in Aug.. must study hard le.. and you know what Ms Poon said.. "you ar.. must quit your part-time and concentrate on your studies.. if not like 3rd year.. can get A then essay anyhow write become B cos of work.." whahaha.. ops..

anyway, just read Rach blog.. looks like i am not the only one missing the life in 4S5.. not the current but the past... of course i know all of us have to move on.. and many of us or almost all of us are leaders... but sometimes, we just miss the life as a normal usher.. haha.. rach has wrote the whole details out.. haha.. I MISS EG!!! the ONES WHO ARE ALWAYS THERE TO GIVE YOU THIER HANDS WHEN YOU FALL..

hmm.. dunno wat to blog le.. anyway, tml nite going to meet Marcus.. so maybe gt photos to post?? haha

it is 2.16am in the morning.. but then somehow i cant get to sleep... haha.. my mind is thinking about how to really bond the section up.. how did 4S5 did it?? then i decided to go back and look through all the photos.. and honestly i can say.. my photos with 4S5 simply crazy.. it took up 4.05GB of my computer space.. so guess how many photos i had with my ex-section... used to have those laughter.. and songs that we used to sing... hmmm..

someone ask me how we did it...
honestly, i dunno...
through weekly KTV sessions??
through our favourite Chicken Rice??
through Anderson ice-cream??
through accompany each other for BS??
through meeting almost everyday??
through doing support together??
we used to do so many things... till i also dunno what bonded us till today though we might no longer be as free as we used to be in the past.

wat has made us so close to the extend that we will always say "once a 4S5er, always a 4S5er.."
how did we turn from friends to name ourselves as 1 family??

want to know the song for our 1 & only 4S5 lovely SL - Huiming??
this is the lyrics..

我听见你的声音
有种特别的感觉
让我,不断想,不敢再忘记你

Usher里有一个人
常常会让我心动
她的名字就叫作，huiming

我愿意为你改变
因为你让我发觉
笑容是我们的calling这个永远不会变
不管support多么久
我们都会在里面
我们会大声地对全世界说
对你说

4S5， 爱huiming
就像老鼠爱大米
你是哪么kawaii
是我们心中的唯一

4S5， 爱huiming
不管你都么的凶
我们都会陪着你
你是我们的
天下第一

this is our 1 & only 4S5 Section song.. the 1st Generation of 4S5..

We've built a section with our hands
The toil of ushers from a different zones
Strangers when we first began, now we're a family
Let's reach out for more ushers, join our fun forevermore

Chorus:
One Group 4, one Section, one 4S5
That's the way that we will be forevermore
Every usher, every team,
has its vision, has its dream
One Group 4, one Section, one 4S5

And when the time comes for support
We will stay until 3 O'Clock
We'll be united, hand in hand
We'll finished all our bulletins
And gather for fellowship, join our fun forevermore

( Repeat Chorus x 2 )

One Group 4, one Section, one 4S5


this is our 1 & only Group 4 song..
dun have the lyrics.. but still have the video..


sometimes, it is just good to see these memories photos... better go and sleep le.. if not tml morning cannot wake up to bring my grandparents go giant for shopping.. haha..

and lastly.. today really enjoyed fellowshipping with fellow usher leaders... more outing should come!!!

today, went for JW usher leaders so called CGM.. haha.. you know why?? cos gt word and prayers and praise and worship.. haha..

actually, there are some weird feelings and thoughts but then today during worship... i really felt the strong presence of God.. and it is drawing me back to serve him just as I used to.. then was talking about the different type of leadership pressing in to our leaders..

A leader knows how to lead and manage a team but a manager only know how to manage..

i need to start to think and time to go back to the ministry soon..

then after the "UM-CGM", jermaine and lay hwa say they dun wan to join Group 12 they all to for dinner together cos they say they group 12 then we group 11.. a bit weird so group 11 should go out more often.. haha.. then decided to go jurong point.. then when about to reach jurong point.. both of them changed their mind.. so in the end.. cos i was driving ma.. so i drove to boon lay shopping center to meet up with the rest lo...

we had.. Alan Hong, Xin Yi, Wan Yun, Cass, Li Zhi, Lay Hwa, Jermaine, Wan Xiu, Liang Kai, Karen Hui and me...

while eating, we had so many jokes and things to take about la.. super funny... i really enjoyed the fellowshipping lo.. haha.. from wanyun's orange wedding gown to the groom's red suit.. haha.. then we talked about flamingo.. then we talked about parrot to sparrow... sparrow sent.. haha.. alot of rubbish.. :P then we talked about depts then we talk about asia conference experiences.. we had lots of laughter and fun.. it's has been quite a long time since i had so much laughter and fun.. and guess wat?? liang kai, wan xiu and i loved the same type of beer.. ...

then after tat, liang kai insist of driving so he drove Jermaine home then he drove himself home.. then i took over the wheel and send Lay Hwa home then i drove home...

oh ya.. i told someone that i going to post her photo with a picture of flamingo.. but shall not post her photo if not she going to kill me if she read this post.. haha.. so decided to post this flamingo only.. haha..
so this is the photo.

today, went to my cousin-in-law's shop again.. then today, i need how to cook nice bbq chicken.. haha.. including how to make it nice and how to cook.. haha.. going to try it next time.. yummy!!

anyway, on 2nd Feb... went for a reunion with my ex-usher section when i was in expo.. being in this section 4S5.. taught me to grow.. was there will be through those thick and thin times when i wasnt doing well.. my friends... soon turn into my family called EG... though we might be busy with our own lives now.. but i know the friendship that we had before will always be part of our memories.. we know wat we are thinking.. we cried together... we laughed together..

these are the photos that we took together...


me and terence..


ruixiang and me...


yongquan, ruixiang, celest, van and terence...


hey.. suddenly.. i realised something..
TEAM C vs TEAM E..whahahaha


Used to be 4S5A...


used to be 4S5B... but Jingxuan has left the ministry to be CGL :)


used to be 4S5C...


it is us again.. wow!! BELINDA!!! MY PRETTY TL!! WHERE ARE YOU???


used to be 4S5E...


this is just like our family photo.. all the past 4S5 family.. though almost 90% of us are no longer with Huiming Jie.. and 4S5.. but to our family...Once a 4S5er, Always a 4S5er..


my 4S5 family again... with our lovely Da Jie - Huiming.. miss those time serving together...


as long as you belong to 4S5 before.. you belong to this photo.. :)


Old 4S5er + New 4S5er = 4S5 Family that LOVE, CARE, CONCERN...

sat night.. went out with jac, cherie and hanxiang... then we went for dinner le.. back to our usual place.. this time round.. all tried different types of drinks...

i drank Tom Collins and guess wat?? it tastes like lime juice but when the kick comes... wow!! it is real fast.. haha..

since sat nite... i told myself that i need to change and of course i need to stop hurting myself... i have already gone beyond the line by doing something which i told Jasmine on sat... arrggg.. so i cant do it again before she going to start her story on me le..

so sunday and monday, i decided to really stop thinking about other things.. and to concentrate on work.. and i really work till i going crazy lo..haha.. but then i was amazed with myself... how did i managed to finish packing 50 cartons of cds today... :P okie la.. need to go and sleep le.. cos tml going to send mary off.. she is going back home.. and we will miss her...


another thing.. ku-mummy ask me to think of something to write on ah-tio papa tomb stone... cos she said that the one i wrote in the rememberance book.. she find it very touching so wanted to write something similiar... but then to think of writing it already make it feel sad.. haix.. when i finish the actual one then i will post it ba..

Thinking cap on pls...

today, like i said ytd.. confirm will get high.. haha

just now just before work... some of us were high le.. woW!! after work... we went to NTUC to buy beer and drinks.. this time round.. we are even more crazy... haha.. we are drinking more than before.. and of course more people joining us this time... we bought..

1 tiger beer, 1 Hen, 1 erlinger, 2 volka rasberry, 1 volka green apple, 1 bercadi rum lime, 1 carlberg... haha.. ops.. so many.. so how many of us?? me, li hui, shelin, ro ting, dino, andy and sze shian... then halfway, ro ting high lo.. she started to sing and dance at east coast park cos we went there to drink... with the sea breeze..

then after tat, i did something that i know i shouldnt do... but then at that time, i dunno why... i just did it... wat i did?? that is for me to know and for you to guess?? cos.. i am not a attention seeker so i dun need to tell anyone or report to anyone anything...

then after tat, the 4 girls shared cab home.. of course we sent ro ting home first.. cos she is high plus she vomitted abit le.. then i was the last to reach home...
then come home le.. argue with my dad over my sis... then he passed me a pen knife... after scolding me.. then my mum came out to stop.. she say.. both of us.. drink so much.. so wan to see who win go.. then keep asking my dad to go and sleep...then when they went back to the room.. i took the pen knife and almost cut myself when my mum came out.. and scratch the knife from me.. haha.. i did it again..

maybe you can say i am drunk but to tell you.. if i can write my blog now.. i am perfectly okie.. just that.. my mind is not working.. and i am going to drive myself crazy very soon..
i know i will let many people down.. but then sorry.. i am not as strong as you guys see.. so take it as i am a attention seeker.. since my parents told me tat too.. from now.. i will not say anything.. if you wan.. you can always take it as i am invisible.. that all..

i am tired of all the rubbish around me... i start to ask myself whether i am really attention seeker.. and my conclusion is... as long as i stop people from walking into my world.. i will be saved from all the unhappiness... create my own fences... and be on my own.. then i will be able to save alot of trouble for myself.

today, went to work.. wa.. super busy these few days lor... but also good la.. so that i dun have time to anyhow think of things.. haha.. anyway, ytd.. went out with shelin.. wa.. siao!! both of us spent about 1k lor.. sounded crazy?? haha.. dunno leh.. but very long didnt shop le.. haha.. now cannot shop le.. must work more le.. so that next month can go and shop again..

anyway, today after lunch, then wuay boon called me.. cos Pastor wanted to show concern.. ya.. thanks Pastor.. actually there are also alot of things in my mind.. but then.. i also dunno leh.. sometimes i am okie.. sometimes i seems to lose my direction.. haix.. but then i know wat Pastor trying to tell me... though it is also wat some of them tell me but then dunno why... i dun seems to get angry but really listening to wat he say... maybe it is really the respect for him ba.. then he prayed for me over the phone... flashes of all the things came back... and my tears just flow... then after talking to wuay boon for a while... i went back to work.. but then the feeling is already weird so i sat there the whole time just doing my new stocks.. also managed to get myself back during dinner time... then after dinner... went to eat dou hua with Andy, Sze Shian and Shelin.. cos Andy treating.. haha.. so until 10pm then left the place...

tml night.. we going to ENJOY!!! hahaha..

ytd.. after work... i was really thinking of not going to the airport cos i dunno why.. just dun feel like going.. then andy wanted to drink... so we ask people lor.. haha.. so in the end.. with ro ting, andy, rhys and li hui... we went to NTUC to buy beer after work.. then went back to near our store there to drink... haha.. below are some of the photos...

anyway, what happen while we are drinking... let's stay there...


our drinks..



me and ro ting..


rhys


andy after drinking 2 bottles of beer.. still can do lo.. power!!

after that, decided to go airport to send maiko in the end.. so i reach there at about 11 like tat.. then we took photos.. saying good bye to her.. and of course we will miss her cos she is going back to Japan already.. then after tat, went to eat supper.. at prata house... haha.. then i reach home at about 3am.. wow!! but guess wat, this morning i still can wake up early to go to work lor.. haha..

today, after work.. rush down to suntec to meet jac.. cherie and hx... haha.. cos they say i MIA too long le.. and in fact it is true... so time to get out of my MIA state.. to meet them le... so in the end.. we went to pub lor.. haha.. 4 of us always somehow will end up in pub during late night..


just take for fun... haha..

wat i drink??? beer?? NO WAY!!

Cherie = Bercadi Rum + 7-up
Hanxiang = Volka + 7-up
Jac = Tequlia + 7-up
ME?? = Gin + Tonic ==== GIN TONIC.. haha..

tat's all forks.. stay tune for more surprises tat you dunno the side of me.. whahaha.

this morning.. ku mummy msg me to tell me that frandi kor kor need help in his store.. so this morning.. i woke up then went down to his store to help lo... whahaha.. like family business like that.. actually my godpa supposed to go and help after his recovery but then he dun have any more chance... haix.. the whole day super tired and super busy lor...

the shop was at sunshine plaza #01-23.. haha.. sarah's place... haha.. then frandi kor kor cooked for me to eat.. then i saw bryan.. haha.. my primary school friend went there to eat also.. haha..

on sat... i wasnt supposed to serve.. but becos there wasnt enough leaders so i decided to help you mei to be Hotel 2 for the day... i think it was really a bad day... but thanks to Ming Lee, You Mei for covering alot for me on that day... at least in the end.. i managed to cover alot la..

then after service.. went home.. then saw my godma.. then i hugged then i realised how come her eyes are so red?? so i asked her if she cried then she just smiled.. so i went to take my dinner.. since everyone is also eating their dinner.. then i saw if my godma has taken her dinner then she say she dun wan to eat.. then ask me help her pour a glass of chivas.. so i pour myself a glass too.. then after tat, we change to frankliko... then we change to a sweet whiskey but i dun like it so i change back to chivas.. then i was talking to her.. trying to get her eat something.. then i know that she didnt eat her lunch too.. then i was in tears already but managed to hold it back.. using wine to make myself forget... then i drink with my godma.. then she still refused to eat so no choice... every 30 mins or so.. i will pinch something finger food and feed her...

then on monday... i meet up with ku mummy for lunch cos if not she will not eat her lunch.. then ytd... i actually bought auntie annie for her cos i was in the earlier shift for lunch.. so i bought her something so that she will eat or else she will skip her meal again... it is so heartache for me to see her not eating.. :(

Name: Vanessa Tan
Bdae: 16/03/1987
Status:Single
School: SIM - UOL
Course: Bsc In Business
Highest Education: Diploma in IT(Major: E-Biz)
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E-mail & MSN: van.tan87@hotmail.com
Got Saved: 28 March 2005
Join Usher Ministry: 22 March 2006
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21st Birthday celebration: 15th March 2008
Ngee Ann Poly Graduation Ceremony: 27th May 08
SOT Graduation 2008: 23th & 24th Aug 08

Bukit Batok Pri Sch(1994 - 1999)
1Q, 2Q, 3Q, 4Q, 5Truth, 6Hope

Jurong Secondary Sch(2000 - 2004)
1C, 2C, 3B, 4B, 5A

Ngee Ann Poly (2005 - 2008)
0508 (IT course)

Bible Training Center (April 2008 - August 2008) SOT Team 23

Usher Ministry
G4S5C - Welfare & Helper
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Personal Achievement:
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LAST UPDATED PROFILE:18th JULY 2009

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♥ her loves

CHattiNg oN pHonE
Cycling
Daydreaming
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Friends
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SENTOSA
Shopping
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* Just Follow Law - 27th Feb 07
* Meet the Robinsons - 9th Apr 07
* SpiderMan 3 - 1st May 07
* Pirates of the Caribbean, At World's End - 24th May 07
* Shrek 3 - 6th Jun 07
* Fanastic 4 - 13th Jun 07
* Transformer - 30th Jun 07
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* The Simpsons Movie - 27th July 2007
* Rush Hour 3 - 12th Aug 2007
* Ratatouille - 1st Sept 2007
* 881 - 28th Sept 2007
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* Unrest - 29th Oct 2007
* Enchanted - 24th Nov 2007
* Tattooist - 30th Nov 2007

* Kung Fu Dunk - 3rd Feb 2008
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* Meet the Spartans - 07 Mar 2008
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* Superhero Movie - 30 April 2008
* Iron Man - 2nd May 2008
* The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian - 29th May 2008
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* Kung Fu Panda - 13th Jun 2008
* Meet the Zohan - 27th Jun 2008
* Money No Enough 2 - 24th Aug 2008
* Wall-E - 29th Aug 2008
* Boys over Flowers - 19th Sept 2008
* Big Stan - 6th Oct 2008

* Red Cliff 2 - 12th Jan 2009
* Marley and Me - 06th Mar 2009
* Coming Soon - 12th Mar 2009
* Unborn - 27th Mar 2009
* Friday the 13th - 27th Apr 2009
* 17 Again - 30th Apr 2009
* Angels and Demons - 26 May 2009
* Terminator Salvation - 15 June 2009
* I Love You Man - 30 June 2009
* Where got Ghost - 16 Aug 2009

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♥ WALAU SERIBU REBAH

我从来不曾 怀疑过
到底你有多么爱我
我生命里的每一分钟
都有你看顾着我
有的时候黑暗临到
有的时候巨浪狂风
我心依然满有平安
因为有你看顾我
我的主

不管前面道路有多困苦
耶稣你永远是我的帮助
只要有你在我生命中
永远看顾
我必能一路永跟随
我的主

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♥ MOTIVATION & REFLECTION

To succeed is to stay focus on 1 thing at a time.

Never run away from a problem. Face it or it will haunt you.

Every Morning, when I wake up, I treasure the innocence of being able to enjoy each day.

We can disagree with each other but we must never doubt each other.

I dont need people to decide for me, I will decide my own pathway.

~Teaching~
Proverbs 15:1
A soft answer turns away wrath, But a harsh word stirs up anger.

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