ytd after i reach home.. wanted to blog about churchwide BS but then i guess i was too tired le.. anyway, it was awesome.. being in God's presence is something that nothing can exchange it for..

today Hotel 2 again.. hmm.. but dunno if i didnt prepare well or wat.. starting wasnt really good and i actually blasted at some of the ushers.. i felt so bad.. but then i actually called for a debrief and apologise too. :) if you are one of the ushers that i scolded and you are reading this.. once again.. sorry.. shouldnt have blasted? haha. ops. but still i was very happy about today's duty.

Trinity really stepped out of the comfort zone.. haha.. it is like 2 weeks ago when i was hotel 2 and she was doing alpha.. whenever i ask her questions... she couldnt answer and need to find her ushers to check out and stuff.. today.. not only she can answer any questions that i post and plus i heard her like asking her ushers... you confirm.. you wan to double check?? then i was like WOW!! I was totally impress!!

after service, went to meet Shannon to talk about "Lost in Ubin" cool!! back to my 3nd place i called home... then after tat went to do Oscar.. by the time we finished... we are already starving.. and before that.. wan yun called me.. so some oof them will go jurong point to queue up first :) then we will join them after tat.. then Aloy called me.. but then by the time i ended, guess cg has gone off so didnt call them... then drove 81(Adeline), Jasmine, Kenrus, Yoong Tian, Emily, You Mei to Jurong Point.. then we went to meet up with Wan Yun, Yong Hui, Alan, Liang Kai, Xin Yi at Lai Lai Beef Noodle.. at first was just normal chatting.. then i dunno how did the topic went on to Logis.. then it is asking how come i am still not in Logis?? haha.. then Yong Hui went to ask You Mei for approval of me and Layhwa to go Logis dept.. hmm.. then after tat, as we were talking about Logis stuff..saying Kenrus dun have the logis look and i have the logis look then

81(adeline): wait.. i dun remember her(pointing at me) in logis.
me: i am not in logis ar..
Emily: HUH!! you are not in logis??
me: no.. i am not in logis.. haha..
Yong Hui & Alan: see, you have the logis look
*everyone started laughing leaving me with the -_-''' face*

then after tat we started to talk about BLTC.. how much we have really enjoyed those lessons.. and i didnt realised that Jurong is named the "Cry Babies" haha.. cos everyweek, we simply knee and cry when we are in God's presence.. feeling so loved by Him once again. Praising Him and worshipping Him are things ushers cant do during service especially SET holders? Only during BLTC, we can forget everything beside us and just focus on Jesus. Becos Ushers being Ushers, even if we are sitting, not serving, we will help out or just help around?? haha.. Then they were saying that maybe will have ALTC (Advance Leadership Training Course) and we are all very excited.. yippy!! then i was like introducing Alan.. pointing to Wan Yun, this is my UM1 CGL(non-exist).. haha.. then Yong Hui was like but UM1 this CG really did exist before... so then Kenrus suggested USH1.. haha.. then Wan Yun will be our CGL..haha..

then we are like saying.. actually sometimes, we really hope to be in the Ministry CG because of our heavy commitment in our ministry, we hardly meet up with the CG, let alone sitting with them. Moreover, during service, we will be serving? So at times, we really felt tired and left out no matter how much we try becos we cant be there to fellow with them. Some will then start to feel dry. We chat alot but some i forgot le.. haha..

then Wan Yun was saying tat G12 will have a "Group Leaders CGM".. then i was telling wanyun dun abandon me.. becos maybe You Mei not free?? haha.. then she was like okie.. cos i am still a
growing tree, I need nutrients too.. haha..

today supposed to wake up in the morning to go for SOT and meet up with Rhys and Kenneth at marine square de? but then i think ytd.. not enough food in my stomach to contain the liquor... i was up with my stomach stirring.. pain pain.. so drank some hot tea and went back to sleep...

by then too late so in the end.. didnt go down.. then drove down to SP to pick up xinyi and went to suntec mac to fellowship... we started to share some secrets... ops.. haha.. while waiting for 6.30pm to meet the rest for a big feast.

we had lots of fun at our big feast.. and we went wild.. haha.. for the first time having dinner with beatrice.. it seems fun and not stress at all.. and I guess it's BLTC that had changed all.. now that we dare to approach them better rather than only when we serve or only when it's necessary then we talk to them.. the amount of food we ate were crazy... haha.. and it will shocked people too?? haha

here are some of the photos... glam.. unglam..

this morning was awaken by Dorcas cos Jennifer will be going down to SOT to solve some problem then then i went down and Jennifer actually explained the whole system to me.. and so that i can do changes to the program.. thurs shall go and finish what i miss out :)

went to watch Angels and Demons with Fang Ming and Xiuli just now..


it is a very interesting movie.. Looking at how Romans are like and wat Catholics church are like.. it just made me want to go and read up more about Catholics.. i felt the whole topic very interesting.. how the arrows and the symbols.. maybe shall go and read up more on it.. haha..

anyway, then went to eat Long John Silver.. and we had a great time laughing... all the jokes and everything all out... our weird thoughts... weird defination.. haha.. then after tat, we decided to go PageOne.. going there to see if we can get any interesting book.. but i guess.. when you go with book lovers to such place... wa.. you are prepared to spend a bomb??? haha.. we simply bought books tat are super weird?? haha.. not novels.. but more about other things like science and mathamatics?? hahaha..

after tat, we realised that it was 8pm already so we quickly made payment and rush down to MPC to get our book covers.. haha.. it was super interesting lor.. then after that they were like.. wa.. 3 of u come down just to get book covers?? haha :P ya.. and we spend about $300 on those books... me being me... i cant dun spend on clothes but i cant dun spend on books? :P

anyway, thought of reading but then i guess i should go and sleep le.. my eyes are closing... guess not enough sleep cos i couldnt sleep last nite..

As today was our last lesson for BLTC and I thought of making something for my fellow classmates that went through this 6 lessons with me.. We cried together, had fun together, fellowship together. I reallyed enjoyed those time and just felt want to do something unique to bless them and remind them we are once in this class together. So I bought notebooks and did this.. I got Layhwa to take a photo of it and send it to me cos I forgot to take before I gave them just now.. Though I didnt sleep the whole nite to rush through these books but then i believe they worth my time. :)



I did it for G11 and of course G12.. lovely Sat JW Usher :P

Today, our trainer was none other than Beatrice... As today is our 6th Lesson and also marked to the end of the course but we are still having 3 months of probation.

Today, we learn how to be a Happy Leader?

LEAD WITH A SERVANT HEART
EQ
ATTITUDE, ACCOUNTABILITY,AVAILABILITY
DETERMATION AND TENACITY
EAGER TO LISTEN
REFRESH DAILY IN THE LORD

As Leaders, we should also
1. Learn how to manage our expectation towards the ushers.
2. Focus on the Positive
3. Be Confidence in ourselves

Taken from John 13:1 - 5

Jesus Washes the Disciples' Feet
1 Now before the Feast of the Passover, when Jesus knew that His hour had come that He should depart from this world to the Father, having loved His own who were in the world, He loved them to the end.
2 And supper being ended, the devil having already put it into the heart of Judas Iscariot, Simon's son, to betray Him,
3 Jesus, knowing that the Father had given all things into His hands, and that He had come from God and was going to God,
4 rose from supper and laid aside His garments, took a towel and girded Himself.
5 After that, He poured water into a basin and began to wash the disciples' feet, and to wipe them with the towel with which He was girded.

today just before the lesson ended, Beatrice was sharing about Jesus washing the feet of the Disciples.. and then.. pails and pails of water came in. They were going to wash our feets today as Jesus has washed the feets of his disciples. Beatrice started washing the feets of Jurong SL.. after that followed by us..

G11 -Beatrice
G12 - Wan Yun
G15 - Ivory
G16 - Pei Fen

Though this passage is very familiar to me.. but I have never expected a ACU(Assisant Chief Usher cum church staff) to wash my feets and today she really did. I felt so much like the disciples. It takes so much of their prides down just to do that? When Beatrice was washing my feets, she told me lots of things and one part was "sometimes, I am really trying very hard but let God be God" thought Beatrice is not in Jurong serving with us but then I am amazed by the things she knew. As she was speaking, tears simply flow down my cheeks.. and when she hugged me.. I guessed I really wet her shirt? haha.. she was still encourging me "Vanessa, you can do it". After tat, I knee brokenly before God weeping for there are so many times that I wanted to give up because I am tired because I am feeling discouraged but He has never let me go. For some reasons, tears just flow.. then after tat, the trainers prayed to impart us and when Ivory was praying for me.. tears just flow again.. when she was praying for my family. Yes.. i did have some arguement with my parents but I have not shared with anyone except for my ai ren.. but today God showed me how real he is once again.

During lesson today, we decided to have brothers sitting first row while sisters take 2nd row and it is so used to it that we LOVE squeezing?? haha
can you imagine Beatrice was teaching halfway.
Beatrice: Vanessa, are you very cold
Me: no
Beatrice: then why you all squeeze till like that when there are still some more seats
Me: we simply love each other too much and we cant squeeze during service. haha
Beatrice was like 你们赢了.. then continue teaching

After tat, we showed the leaders a special video by Jurong Ushers and then followed by celebrating Beatrice's Birthday today!! I used to think that she is very fierce but after getting to know her in BLTC.. it seems like she is more approachable. After we left the room, when we are in level 4 cafateria area, we started to sing song to Beatrice and enjoying ourselves till we started singing "Tat's what friends are for" when all the trainers joined in together with us. Then we sang ‘对面的Beatrice看过来” and then we started singing "You are my sunshine" to the trainers.. guess all of us really enjoyed those lessons and we are simply who we are.

A Usher family that is having fun together. Having the same goal and vision.
Having the same golden rule "SMILE!"

then we went to 2nd best for last sinful time of fellowship...
we had Laska, Fried Oyster Egg and Rojak.. haha.. see.. sinful rite? But then we are only sinful like on Sunday nite after a long crying sessions... Worshipping sessions... finally to 2nd best to enjoy ourselves?? haha.

Below is something that I would like to share and some message to the fellow trainers if they ever get a chance to read: -

Honestly, when You Mei first told me that she didnt sign me up for the class but I can go there and be a special student for the first lesson. I went. I thought it was going to be operational so just to go there to have fun but when Jeff shared the message, I was blown away. In order to have JOY - We need to put Jesus, Others then Us. I told You Mei i wanted to attend the classes and I promised that I will take the lessons seriously and in fact, I kept my word, I went for every single lesson without fail. These lessons not only renew my life but also changed my mindset. Every single lesson was explosive, encouraging and simply always remind us no matter what we do, always look back to Jesus. What's more? I believe that if you know that as Ushers, we hardly had time to Praise and Worship during service let alone Leaders but during BLTC, we simply come together as ushers to Praise and Worship God. To stay in God's presence. Allow the Holy Spirit to show us our dreams and visions again.

To Ren Jie:
When you taught about Unity in Lesson 4. I was shocked because that very week, I was actually feeling disappointed and I told Layhwa that I am tired. I just feel like giving up welfare and thoughts of giving up unite-ing my section and group because it's tiring. I dun have anymore energy. And you shared about Unity, about your section 7. It then remind me of 4S5. My first section, we are so much like a family and it's because someone took the lead and the rest followed and bring in more ushers to join us. God then showed me once again why i am placed in Jurong to impact and let another section be so close like a family. God loves unity and only when there is unity, then will bring teamwork. It just encouraged me to carry on trying till I sucess. Thank you.

To Pei Fen:
Last week's sharing session was indeed a good one. When I was feeling low and lost when my godpa went back to the Lord, at that time even though I wasnt really close to you or in fact you are my SL for a few weeks and at the same time you just lost your father but you actually came to share your story with me and even spend time to talk to me and help me to stand up on my feet again. Pei Fen, thank for all the sharing and for the whole week, the words that I kept deeply in my heart is "keep on walking and keep on walking".

To Beatrice:
Thank you for all the encouragement that you have given to me for the past 6 weeks. And today, when you washed my feets, so much of me wanted to say I am not worth for you are a ACU? But yet, you still did. It's hard to wash the feets of others especially when we are not the same level but you did. I am lost for words but then Every word that you said, I will keep it in my heart. I know each time when I feel discourage, your words will appear to me.

Though BLTC has ended but then it's just another begining of our usher life. :)

I just want to thank all the trainers for always rushing down from expo and I truely enjoyed all the lessons. Tranforming Lessons.. Always felt refresh and recharge after every lesson :)

well.. let's talk about ytd.. went to seoul garden to celebrate li zhi's birthday... then somehow ushers being usher.. cannot sit down de leh.. must walk here and there.. wat's more she is sitting in front of me.. keep moving.. aiyo.. then after that.. i was like hmm.. i give you 5 mins minutes and i will remove the empty seats.. haha.. then after tat, xin yi came.. so layhwa change seat then i sat with xin yi... and now worse.. continuously for 2 hours.. li zhi has been saying she wan to be stage usher till xinyi and i were like..

Xin Yi(Hotel 1 alpha): Hotel 1 alpha to Hotel 1
Van (hotel 1) : sent
Xin Yi(Hotel 1 alpha): Hotel 1 ar.. can you check wat is outside the hall making so much noise
Van(hotel 1): roger that.
Van(hotel 1): hotel 1 to hotel 4
Layhwa(hotel 4): sent
Van(hotel 1): hotel 4, can you check what is behind the door, how come i hear alien sound?
Layhwa(hotel 4): roger tat
Xin Yi(hotel 1 alpha): Security security
Jun Xiang(security): security off net.. not free

we kept changing till li zhi cannot tahan.. but she still continue and i have no choice.. i called wanyun instead.. haha.. guess she got wat she wanted.. stage usher.. haix..

there are some of the photos.. lazy to post all cos it is like 3:22am?? :P


with li zhi's friend.. cg member.. all mixed le la..


even taking the photo.. xinyi is still holding her self made ice-kacang.. ready to find time to eat the moment she has a chance..






you have seen people using cup.. glasses... but then how about going back to the older days.. when we are using bowls?? hahaha..


just now after work.. supposed to head home.. but then in the end.. halfway, called nat and she say she will be going down to Ray's grandma's wake so i went to cityhall to meet her.. then we went to fetch eugene... then went down to the wake.. we chat for quite a while till about 12plus le.. then rachel send us home.. then send me home.. cos i wanted to change before meeting them again.. while they waited for me downstairs.. then when i reach home.. my mum was like.. did you call home? then i was no?? for wat? then she nag she cannot sleep and stuff... then supposed to meet ray and rach for supper and stay over at their place.. becos not possible le.. haix.. but then still talked to Ray alot?

It is always great fellowship with them cos when i am down, i know they will be able to encourage me.. just like wat i feel about my team.. just like a JUNGLE!! and guess, i just need to let God lead me through.. :)

another thing that i heard da jie will be leaving 4S5, apart of me felt sad and lost... each time when we talk about 4S5, da jie will be associated with it.. now, no longer the same... haix... to be continue somewhere... and someday it might be reveal...

i guess i am tired and i had a great time having conference call with my CGC just now.. after praying... we simply started to share our daily life and though it is only 2 days.. but i really start to feel the bond.. that we want to talk to each other and share... Communication is always the key to start off... and today.. our connect group actually fasted for 12hours.. and the night before.. they were like say oh ok... and just now when we were having conference call, actually they commented that they hope i didnt ask for 12hours fast cos they always have gastric pain halfway so could not fast all the way.. but then I prayed that God will take away all the temptation that we are going to have.. and help us to lean on His strength and not our strength.. guess wat? i am proud to say.. my connect group completed the 12 hours fast.. hee hee..


Actually, when Ren Jie shared about UNITY last week during BLTC.. there is a burden in my heart.. how can i make my section close?? and if fact our section is so small then how to make G11 close? at times, i really lost ideas... honestly.. before sunday's BLTC lesson... i really have thoughts of giving up whatever I am doing?? I always feel that no matter where we are.. we need to have unity.. but then i dunno how others feel?? even till now... i am thinking how how how??? but then again? maybe i am been too ambitious about it?? I should have start off with my team? and holding on too much... i may lost my balance?? haha.. I dunno la.. *hidden words in my heart... wonder if these words will be revealed? but then i guess i will keep it to myself till then..

arrgg.. dun feel like writing already.. the more i type.. the more i am getting frustrated.. nah.. dun wan to think about it le.. nites.

just now my cgc called me and we had our conference prayer time and our sharing session.. it seems like we had lots to share.. our experiences and wat we went through.. then halfway, i receive a mms from ku ku and i open the file.. guess wat?? it's E-Jean xiao ku's baby.. she just came birth.. so now i have a OFFICAL ANG MO cousin and she will be coming back to Singapore and I will be able to see my ANG MO cousin.. so excited la.. haha..

today will be the 2nd last lesson on our BLTC before we graduate the course.. today was really a great session and i realise as we see each other week after week.. we really became closer...

today's lesson was taken by Jeff.. about love and hope..
honestly, during the worship... i dunno wat happen.. i simply dun feel anything but then i know myself.. there is something within me that stopping myself from moving forward.. in fact.. spiritually.. i am starting to feel dry... after the message.. i decided not to focus on the music.. but just on Jesus alone.. and soon.. tears simply flow...

as Beatrice was praying for me... God seems so real as He really know everything.. it was so accurate of my thoughts and my dry-ness... in fact.. i realised that after working in popular.. i seems to be so busy that sometimes i dun have time for long prayer or bible reading becos by the time i reach home.. i am drained and worn out le... i really cried alot tonite.. God is even more real than before.. as i didnt share anything about this struggle part of my life.. but then yet.. when Beatrice prayed.. seems like getting bull eye for every shot..

after the class has ended.. Pei Fen talked to Jermaine, Layhwa and myself and she wan to encourage us.. and when she talked about her Father passing away and people around her the supports.. and i realised that how much fellowship we need and friendship we need from our peeps.. it is only then we can help each other stand up when one falls.. then after that 3 of us had our own sharing sessions.. and it's simply great.. then having our dear jermaine who starts to feel hungry was screaming away of wanting to eat oyster egg and rojak.. so we went to 2nd best to carry on our fellowship... then sharon and xinyi and lizhi called.. so they came to join us for fellowship and dinner..





this is how sinful our food is... haha.. but after a great cry.. we will naturally feel hungry... haha.. then and we are going to have a sisters BLTC outing soon.. plan by us.. haha.. ;P looking forward to it.. and i realised i really sharing alots of thoughts and things to the 2 Js.. haha..

actually after we left 2nd best.. wanted to continue to fellowship but then when i reach home.. i realised i dun have the car at home to send both of them back.. so aiya.. shall walked them back and fellowship...

hey.. we should have more sharing sessions k?? even after we end BLTC.. we should continue to share?? (you know who i mean de la)

after i reach home.. i had a long conference call with my cgc.. and it was a great time of sharing and it just encourages me again... like how i encourage them.. so i believe we can do it.. and if my leaders can do it.. SO CAN I!!

today was MC from work.. after sleeping through.. i still think i should go church? so went to church.. today?

hotel 2 today... when we are preparing the hall.. then hotel 1 com me.. how come your alpha bulletins not laid.. and i was shocked and guess wat? my reply was.. roger roger.. i go and check it out now.. and this is exactly the same thing in our script?? haha.. then after tat, i heard someone comming hotel 4.. how come the curtains still not hooked.. then again.. i was like -_-''

but then today was a great service and i asked you mei.. she say ya.. consider pass le.. haha.. yippy!!

then after service.. went for oscar then went to Ivory's place downstairs to eat... actually wanted to go IMM de.. since we have 2 cars.. jia sheng and myself.. but then IMM's carpark too many cars le?? so we went to Ivory's place there to eat lor.. wa.. not bad leh.. the food.. quite nice.. and we only paid about $11 per person?? and it was a great time hanging out.. and Jasmine, Jermaine and i drank teh peng.. omg!! it has make the matter worse.. cos we get high?? haha.. so in the end.. we started to go alittle crazy?? :P

oh ya.. forgot to mention.. the people who were there..
- kenrus
- trinity
- layhwa
- jermaine
-you mei
- joshua
- emily
- jia sheng
- xinyi
- myself..
10 of us... haha.. we had lots of fun..

looking forward to our next serving together... :P and fellowship.. tml going to have BLTC lesson again.. yippy.. but at the same time sad as tml will be the 2nd last lesson le..

haix.. going to sleep to go for service tml.. nitez..

hmm.. for the past 2 days.. to many unpleasant things are happening at work place.. and i am really considering whether to tender my resignation earlier?? i dunno what is wrong with me.. but then i start to feel the sian-ness going to work everyday?? imagine having to meet irritating customers that the things are in front of you and you still gt the cheek to ask where is it??

to face the irritating manager that talks about 1 stuff but in the end do anything thing.. and when he is not happy with you.. he simply finds fault with you the whole day?? whether you are sick anot?? HQ talks about TEAMWORK! my foot ar.. where gt teamwork? i only see teamwork within the staff in shopfloor.. you people only sit inside the office to drink coffee.. read newspaper and watch CCTV.. have you ever tried handling these customers yourself?? i bet no..

now i get it.. no wonder all the customers have the same style.. if i cant get what i wan.. just ask to see the manager and confirm i can get it.. haha. so managers are the angels.. and the shopfloor are the devils.. becos you told us cannot.. we tell customers cannot.. customer request to see manager.. wOW!! from cannot also turn into can..

this is how service line in Singapore is??

today went to Simei to meet up with fang ming and xiu li to go Ubin for cycling.. wa.. it has been so long since i have been to ubin to cycle.. on the bus... i think xiuli saw something very funny.. so we started laughing and somehow the topic was then side track...

then went to rent our bikes then started to cycle.. i guess i really need to exercise alot le.. since i started to work in Marine Parade Popular.. i hasnt gt anytime to exercise and it seems like today it proved it all.. for simple slope.. i still able to cycle but then beyond that.. i will have problem cos i guess not enough stamina le.. haix.. getting old.. then we went to chek jawa and walked down the path to mangrove but then halfway only.. and we just sat there for quite long to stay under the sun and to watch the plane fly past.. and some talks... oh ya.. and i actually used water to splash fangming after something she said.. haha..


then we decided to go and find cookie.. and heard from Raj, the security... within this week, there will be people coming to actually put cookie and max to sleep but then max is taken care by the night guard le.. so only left with cookie and he doesnt want to leave the information kisok.. even though i tried bashing in... and chase him off.. eventually he came back... though i dun see him often.. maybe once in a blue moon when i go to ubin but then as a dog lover, you simply feel super lousy?? knowing that he is a nice dog and healthy but yet we cant do anything to help him to escape to have a longer life.. after xiuli heard about the news... she cried.. and disappeared.. so fm and i went to find her... but then both of us.. our hearts are heavy... we tried to help but our ways are limited and seems like cookie knows what is going on... he wouldnt allow anyone to go near to him..

today, i think most of the time we are like sitting down near the sea.. then after tat, decided to head back as we need to return the bikes by 6pm.. then we cycle back.. halfway, i was attacked by wild boar la.. idiot.. so i had scratches on my leg but then still not that bad la.. then when we reach Npark hub.. xl's friend asked if we wanted to drink coconut so he can ask his contractor to like cut it for us.. so ended up we are like each one a coconunt to drink...


she was like competing with me to see who can finish the coconut drink first and i was like okie lor.. in the end. she lost.. and she blame that it's not fair becos her coconut is bigger than mine.. -_-'''

then we took the ferry back to mainland.. on the boat, there was this couple that was standing at the end of the boat.. then the girl was in front and the guy was standing behind her.. holding her.. the first time i told fm and xl is titanic... then fm added on should we like on the music for them.. then we started to say some funny stuff.. dunno if the couple actually realised that we are talking about them?? haha..

after tat, took 9 back to east point cos there is MRT there.. then as we had drink too much coconut, we wanted to go EP for doctor.. when fm trying to come into the EP, the door actually closed.. so we were like fighting over who will be alien and who will be the monster.. haha. :P and does the door dun like monster or alien... anyway, going to sleep le.. and i had fun today.

I had Primary School Gathering on 8th.. which is last friday.. wow!! it was power!! i mean i have known some of them for like 15 years?? haha.. cos we have been in the same class for since Primary 1... anyway, we went for sakae dinner and headed down to OBAR after dinner... i was quite tired de.. but then decided to go anyway cos it was like Primary School Gathering.. and i dun think they will let me off easily?? haha.. so ya.. yesH! i dun deny that we drank and dance... haha.. and of course we took lots and lots of photos..

you know something... some of us graduated from this class called 6 Hope.. and on our 1st paper of the PSLE in 1999... there is this malay teacher walked in and scolded us for being noisy just before the paper and guess wat? the next moment she said "6 Hope ar? really no hope already" if you dun believe ask people in this class.. haha.. but yet.. too bad.. all of us did had hope... in fact.. most of us are Diploma Holders already... and we said that if we see her one day.. we will tell her.. we are once the hopeless students that you called.. haha


I have 2 glasses of Shots and I cant actually remember how much I drank but then one thing i am sure was that i wasnt drunk... i was still super alert? i think everyone was okie except for Daphe ba.. but i guess she is okie cos Colinn send her back...

as there are too many photos.. therefore.. if you wan to see those photos... you can go to my facebook.. haha.. i have post all the photos there :)

today, we had BLTC lesson 4.. though i guess i said more than once.. but then i still wan to say it.. I did not regret going for BLTC... today's lesson was taken by Yong Hui and Ren Jie.. there are 1 thing that i actually got tired of doing and I was telling Layhwa not to tell anyone ytd.. but then i guess God was there?? hahaha.. and today's msg was indeed wat i was discouraged on?

Yong Hui's msg was what i really need to think about and think over certain things.. but today i was like woW!! Ren Jie was talking about Unity today whether in a team, Section or Group..

Unity can never be based on individual strength..

How to build Unity:

1. Takes Effort
- Spending quanlity time
- Efforts can be seen
- it takes 2 hands to clap

2. Sensitive
- we need to be sensitive to others' needs
- relationship is fragile just like unity.. once there is a cut or a wound, it takes time to recover

3. God needs to be in the picture.

As Renjie was sharing about his section 7.. how not united and belong united... i was already controlling my tears not to flow... cos i thought of 4S5.. i came from a not united section which become the whole united section that we call ourselves family... every week going for support was a enjoyable... serving together seems great... i was never complaining about having to wake up at 5am to reach expo at 7am to serve because i was to meet 4S5.. my SL - Huiming, my TL - Belinda, my 4S5Charming, most of all EG... flashes simply kept appearing in my mind... as we move into worship... i just knee down before God and simply cried becos tat's how real our God is.. i have never told anyone that I am tired of being welfare IC.. becos of some reasons which i will kept it to myself.. but then yet.. i only told Layhwa ytd.. today I was encourage to PRESS ON!! let it be my new GOAL once again!!

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Ytd was our first BLTC outing.. and i think all of us enjoyed it.. if there is a chance... i will post our video up here.. haha.. cos even if i paste our script here.. i dun think you will understand unless you watch it.. :) oh ya.. we gt the BEST PERFORMANCE AWARD!!
haha.. i guess it's really the effort that all of us put in together as 1 group :)




WE Serve




Group 11 BLTC and 84.. I guess not for being in 84's "chui" team, i dun think i can just say chui so well lor.. haha..


us and Yong Hui... our BLTC Group 11's mentor... really thank him for the great ideas and make the whole serve musical a even better one.. :)

YESH!! it's Sunday and I am back blogging about my lesson.. haha.. honestly, I really wan to thank God that I made a right decision to go for this series of lessons.. every single week.. the SLs never fail to encourage us... After the class, you simply felt so refresh and woW!! this is like the times when i was having SOT lessons.. it's lessons that you look forward to every week... yes.. some of the things i might have have known but then it' always when we get busy, we start to nelgect those things.. and God refresh my mind today and he show me my inital plan for my ushers.. going to do something for them.. hee.. wat is it?? for me to know?? :P

it's always good to bless rite? :P
What does H.E.A.R.T means: where is your heart?? Helper Effort Accountability Revelation Team management

and today it's about communication... Communication is two-sided. It consists of emotions, feelings etc.. so you cant be possibly keep talking about yourself and forgot about the other party.. been a listener is good.. but how to be a good listener??

To be a good listener you need to:

1) Focus on the person
2) Unclog your ears
3) Listen Aggressively
4)Listen to understand
5) Reassure the speaker

then after lesson, group 11 gathered to talk about our performace... then we told Yong Hui about it.. then he was like okie.. quite interesting and we are going to practice on tues!! haha.. oh ya, i guess i might not be really music talented but then seems like i am able to write songs?? hahaha. it's a SECRET!! :) then after lesson, went to 2nd best coffee shop to eat.. with Layhwa, Jermaine, Jia Sheng, Kenrus, Trinity and Liang Kai... then we ordered Laksa, fried Oyster, Indian Rojak, Rojak, Poh Biah... everyone was eating happily but then at the same time we are complaining sinful.. hahaha.. cos it's like 10plus and we are like really enjoying ourself with the foood :P

here are some pictures.. doubt some of them know that i took the photo.. hahaha.

Our sinful food...

Is this China apple tea or just BEER?? haha


thinking carefully... wat to eat?/haha

i think i say too much tonite le.. if you guys ever read this post... just pretend that wat i say just now is nonsense... that makes no sense okie? i will not elaborate further... cos i will feel guilty in the end.. so ya.. maybe i should just shut up and be silence till..... i..... think..... i..... can..... control..... myself..... or maybe i should disappear from you all then i will stop all the saying.. haha..

guess i am also tired le. nites.

today went Minds cafe with my CG.. Wuayboon, Shannon, Giselle, Soo Eng, Penn, Raymond was playing 1 game.. then CK, Edward, Kelvin and I were playing another game.. then after tat, it came to playing taboo.. then we had really lots of laughter and jokes that went around.. then actually only 4 of us playing then ended up we decided that all of us should play together and decided to play taboo 2..

Group 1:
Wuay Boon
Shannon
Soo Eng
CK
Van

Group 2:
Yie Ping
Kelvin
Raymond
Giselle
Edward
Penn

it was a 5 vs 6.. so the first one we send out to describe was wuay boon...
and wuay boon cannot really act out the words and such.. then shannon got so "pissed off" in a funny way la.. then of of us are laughing out hearts out lor.. then they decided to send out Kelvin.. and Kelvin is good la.. so he managed to help his team get 9 points.. then after tat, i cannot take it le.. how can my team lost?? haha.. so i say i will do it.. and guess wat? power la.. i help my team to score 14 points?? haha.. then CK help our team score another 9 points?? and we won the game?? hahaha.. power rite? 14 points = 14 cards? hahaha.. Giselle was like you are super fast... hahaha..coming to games i can go crazy de la.. but then sian.. forgot to take photos today when i have camera in my bag.. -_-'''

okie la.. good nite.. time to sleep le.. cos tml cashier.. and all the best to my rebellious girl for Traffic.. i will pray for you de..

this morning woke up at 9am.. then was too tired then went back to sleep.. then till i receive ai ren's msg then i woke up and it was like i think 10 plus or wat le.. cant remember and i meeting my colleagues for movie today cos all of us are off today??

so went to meet them... there were like 9 of us?? power rite?
Dino, Suki, Rhys, Li Hui, Chiew Ling, Ro Ting, Xiao Ling.. we went to watch 17 again..

Name: Vanessa Tan
Bdae: 16/03/1987
Status:Single
School: SIM - UOL
Course: Bsc In Business
Highest Education: Diploma in IT(Major: E-Biz)
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Ngee Ann Poly (2005 - 2008)
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Bible Training Center (April 2008 - August 2008) SOT Team 23

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* Just Follow Law - 27th Feb 07
* Meet the Robinsons - 9th Apr 07
* SpiderMan 3 - 1st May 07
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* Fanastic 4 - 13th Jun 07
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* Tattooist - 30th Nov 2007

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* Meet the Zohan - 27th Jun 2008
* Money No Enough 2 - 24th Aug 2008
* Wall-E - 29th Aug 2008
* Boys over Flowers - 19th Sept 2008
* Big Stan - 6th Oct 2008

* Red Cliff 2 - 12th Jan 2009
* Marley and Me - 06th Mar 2009
* Coming Soon - 12th Mar 2009
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* Friday the 13th - 27th Apr 2009
* 17 Again - 30th Apr 2009
* Angels and Demons - 26 May 2009
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* Where got Ghost - 16 Aug 2009

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我从来不曾 怀疑过
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因为有你看顾我
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To succeed is to stay focus on 1 thing at a time.

Never run away from a problem. Face it or it will haunt you.

Every Morning, when I wake up, I treasure the innocence of being able to enjoy each day.

We can disagree with each other but we must never doubt each other.

I dont need people to decide for me, I will decide my own pathway.

~Teaching~
Proverbs 15:1
A soft answer turns away wrath, But a harsh word stirs up anger.

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