![]() Thursday, December 11, 2008 ♥
firstly.. let's talk about my day... couldnt really sleep last nite... woke up every 2 - 3 hours thinking it is morning so tat i can go down to the hospital to visit my grandfather... so i woke up at 10am then went to get everything really to go down to hospital... then today, maybe everyone was there.. i could control my tears much easier... and my grandfather still remember that i told him i wan to get him a new phone.. so i left the hospital to upgrade his phone for him... he was so happy.. but he keep saying want to write down his account no and password for us.. but everyone say NO... words cant describe wat i am feeling right now.. i just wish that my grandfather will be discharge soon... cos YOU PROMISED JIE JIE YOU WILL BE AT HER WEDDING.. YOU PROMISED THAT YOU WILL WITNESS MY UNIVERSITY GRADUATION... anyway, but then my cgl knock some senses into my head last nite.. she might not read this.. but then just wan to thank her for knocking some sense into my head.. i might not be listening to you while you were talking but the words did sank in and i dig it out to think today. i was on the cab and then she called... kind of getting scolded by her la for missing cgm and service... and in my heart i was thinking.. crazy lo.. here i am worried for my grandfather and sobbing... but then as my heart and emotion are calmer today.. i started to think of wat she said... van... just feel that after AC you are back to your old self of finding excuses and not making effort to go cgm and service.. when you told wuay boon that you will not be able to be there for whole of dec.. it is like you have already made a decision.. you can choose... your connect group seems to be everywhere when you are not around.. cos there is no leadership.. guang sheng has already become more spiritual then before.. you say your parents might not be happy... but then if you can already make your stand and go through the 6 months of SOT.. waking in the morning everyday to go for SOT classes.. what is more that you cant handle.. is whether you wan or not?? though i know you have set your heart for Usher Ministry but it is balance and how much influence you have made in people's life.. think about the good times when you are on fire..... etc.. in my heart.. i was boiling.. really boiling... i was thinking again and again.. cgl will just called to say us.. who really understand?? arrgg.. so some of the things she said was shut off from my head.. so i cant really remember wat else she said.. and last nite.. i called enyun to help me take care of my team.. called giselle to settle the My Hope thing.. so that i can MIA for a while.. but then after wat shannon told me.. i decided to take back everything to be responsible and of course becos of wat my own connect group member(guang sheng) told me... when i was talking to him just now.. tml he will wake up early to meet jia thai to find job then head down to the event "emerge" tml nite.. then i was like wa.. tat is going to be tough for you cos you have to wake up early.. then he said "this is a commitment... just like you lor.. gt wat mentor will have wat type of disciple" becos of this too.. i decided to take back the responsiblity i have on hand.. thanks for the little encourgement from my connect group member... thanks for the hidden knock from my cgl.. i know wat i have to try to do next.. stop being a tortoise and stand up to find the things going around me.. :) ★ Van Van ★ @ 11:47 PM ♥ the girl next door Name: Vanessa Tan Bdae: 16/03/1987 Status:Single School: SIM - UOL Course: Bsc In Business Highest Education: Diploma in IT(Major: E-Biz) My facebook:Facebook E-mail & MSN: van.tan87@hotmail.com Got Saved: 28 March 2005 Join Usher Ministry: 22 March 2006 Youtube link:my videos 21st Birthday celebration: 15th March 2008 Ngee Ann Poly Graduation Ceremony: 27th May 08 SOT Graduation 2008: 23th & 24th Aug 08
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